pull yourself together.
that's what they always say.
things will get better day by day.
well i've been waiting so patiently.
scattered across states.
no way you feel the same.
and everything that you do still gets under my skin.
and yeah, i look when i can. just to see how you've been.
but you'd rather tell me to leave than to let me in.
so, i leave again.
and you were talking to him while i was in our bed.
saying a lot of things that you shouldn't have.
but you were over me. clearly.
and now i see that.
was i really that bad?
i guess i wasn't enough... or maybe too much.
i gave you all that i had.
did they make your heart race when they said all those things?
is that what kept you away from me?
you said i made you lose someone you cared about a lot. i'm sure.
you should have cared about me more.
and i was a fool only for you.
i knew what you do.
and you do what you do.
i wish i could be ok with it as you.
but it all felt wrong.
you'd turn on a song and sing along about love and loss.
oh, what sweet tragedy.
you wanted to lose me so someone could be your new love story.
you weren't thinking of me looking at your phone screen.
smiling at what you were hiding.
and now i sleep all day in an empty place.
oh, how i wish you'd've asked me to stay. fix everything.
come out. communicate. love me the same.
so what can i do? well, what can i say?
when everything i love about myself is everything that pushes you away.
someday i hope you love me the same.
no more mistakes. please, no more mistakes.
someday i hope you love me the same.
someday.

your escape

jakewolf