His head knows the breakup is for the best but his heart lags behind.

No, No, No   Jan5-2026

with my back pressed up on a wall
I realize I'm nothing but talk
with the way that I hide my reaction
like it's nothing at all

need to grab my own hand and take action
make reality my very own bastion
I'm ashamed of what I've become
or am I jealous of everyone young

my polemical writings about you
were to justify my own lack of heart
I don't have a good reason to tell you
how my mind was so stuck in the dark

I hope I've grown into someone you could
forgive me for trying too hard
the front that I put up was strong
I was focusing on everything wrong

James Nee's Album

Polemics

I know I'm too
quick too assume
when I'm smothered by my doubt
i'm still figuring it out
I wish I could
decipher your look
to convince myself I'm not
as delusion as I thought

honestly I don't know
how to life cautiously
even when I'm done
my greed just overtakes me

I'm not even offended
I like having thoughts to myself
but the way we're pretending
yea it hurts more than knowing the truth
i'm not here cause I want to
not everything is about you
and it's not ideal for anyone
but I love you; I do

Honestly, It's Not

I was born sometime in early November 
I'd tell you when but you wouldn't remember 
I'm not questioning your mental capacity 
It's just not that very important to me
I'm slowing down
My life so I can figure out 
A way to circumnavigate 
this boredom and idle phase

help me realize what kind of action
I can give my feet some sort of traction 
All I really want
Is true love and understanding 
even I think I'm worthy of such a feeling
My excessive 
public faith in everything
is freaking me out a bit
well there goes my competence

Just

james nee