a little close to home

This song is about being scared. I hope you can resonate with it

Art: https://x.com/naokowatanabe_

Lyrics

I won't lie, I'm kinda scared
Scared you won't remember me
I wish you were here just to calm me down
But you are nowhere around 
 
If only there's someone, who would
Tell me it's okay, to
Cry 

Please tell me its okay
To be so afraid
Afraid of that what haunts my mind
Colors that fade in two

Stuck within in my head 
Just getting up out of bed
Seems like the worst thing in the world
Why can't I just get up?

I lay here paralyzed while 
The rain falls from my eyes

I won't lie, I'm kinda scared
Scared of what you'll think of me
It's been kinda rough and I wish it would stop
But deep down I know that it won't 

 I won't lie, I'm kinda scared
Scared that I won't get listened to
Its always the same, am I the one the blame?
Cuz thats how it truly feels

So I'll sit here by myself, wondering
Where it all went wrong with,
Me

Overwhelming thoughts,
I wish I could connect the dots.
Because nothing makes sense and I dont know why,
Why do I have to be?

Id tell you how I'd feel
But the voices are too real
Destined to wander this world alone
Not a voice to call my own

No hand to hold on as I'm
Barely hanging on

I won't lie, I'm kinda scared
Scared that I'm so unprepared  
I dont know what I'm doing but I gotta keep moving, without 
Knowing if anything is right

I won't lie, I'm kinda scared
I really wish I wouldn't be, but I
Overfeel and overthink and I dont know how to stop it
I wont lie I'm kinda scared

So I sit here with no one asking
"Is it truly me?"

Scared (Live Take)

Wouldnt it be cool if on the instrumental parts of the song, there was like a solo? Anyway, this song about feeling like a ghost wherever you go, despite everything you say or do

Art: https://x.com/naokowatanabe_

Lyrics:

anywhere i go, no matter what i say     
always be alone, just another day
walking through the snow, i wish i'd feel the cold
i'm just a ghost at most

every step that i follow, feels empty and hollow
no place to call my own
haunting this space that i try to erase but
it's all that i've ever known

i cant find my place and it isn't a fase
trust me, i've been here before
in the night i'm lost, no stars to see up high
sheeps inside my head but i think i might just cry

i'll reap what i have sown	
i wish you wouldve shown me-

anywhere i go, no matter what i do
this feeling I'll never get through
through to you i wish, for attention i would fish
but you never saw the bait
anywhere i go, no matter what i say
i'll always be alone, there is no other way
walking through the snow, i dont feel any cold like a
ghost at most, the stories left untold

i fear that I'm invisible, it feels so unforgivable
just a cynical, atypical mess
nowhere with a broken stare, no one shares a glare or care
beyond disrepair in despair but

if it wasnt for me
i dont know where i would be, i dont know where i would be and
i want you to see
see what i'd achieve, see what i'd achieve but

i'll reap what i have sown
i wish i couldve shown you-

anywhere i go, no matter what i do
this feeling I'll never get through
through to you i wish, for attention i would fish
but you never saw the bait
anywhere i go, no matter what i say
i'll always be alone, there is no other way
walking through the snow, i dont feel any cold like a
ghost at most, the stories left untold

anywhere i go, no matter what i say
will i always be alone like another day?
walking through the rain, i wish i'd feel the pain
but i think that i'm just a ghost for most

Ghost (One Take Recording)

I wrote this song because I felt alone and wanted someone to say these things to me i guess lol

Art: https://x.com/naokowatanabe_

Lyrics:

I'd give you all my heart, you can give me half of yours
From the start we'll make it I am sure
Everything is alright, trust me its gonna be okay
'Cause tonight we are side by side
I'll be your twinflame, I'll be your twinflame

You caught me when I was drifting and you taught me how to sail
So I won't drown in any storms that I'll see
We can cross the seas beyond every night into brighter days
With your guiding light, we will find our way

Though I'm not here, I'm always near
Whispering softly and hoping that you'll hear
My voice everytime that you can't sleep at night
You're not alone, 'cause I am by your side

I'd give you all my heart, you can give me half of yours
From the start we'll make it I ensure
Everything is alright, trust me its gonna be okay
'Cause tonight we are side by side
I'll be your twinflame, I'll be your twinflame

You reached into my shadows when I couldn't find my way
Showed me how to rise and fight every day
No matter whats on your mind, I promise you that we'll be fine
Together there's nothing that we can't face

Though I'm not here, I'm always near
Whispering softly and hoping that you'll hear
My voice everytime that you can't sleep at night
You're not alone, 'cause I am by your side

I'd give you all my heart, you can give me half of yours
From the start we'll make it I ensure
Everything is alright, trust me its gonna be okay
'Cause tonight we are side by side
I'll be your twinflame, I'll be your twinflame

So here I am in spirit so bright
Loving you through every day and night
Though you feel lost and all so alone
Remember my dear, you're never on your own

twinflame (One Take Recording)

A song about feeling alone

Art: https://x.com/naokowatanabe_

Lyrics

I wish I had a person, who would tell me its okay
who would be beside me everyday

The days are getting darker, I'm drifting further away
Drifting into memories that I keep on replay
If only I was someone else, would I have arms to hold?
Honestly I doubt it 'cause my soul is always cold

So I wonder and I ponder while I'm walking in the thunder and I'm
Sinking, overthinking 'bout the voices that I'm under
Fighting through the feeling, bleeding, so I keep on dreaming while the
Rain keeps on streaming from the corner of my eyes

Could you tell me please, what to do?
'Cause I'm not really sure whats the truth

I wish I had a person, who would tell me its okay
who would be beside me everyday
I wish there was someone, who I could call my home
But I'm just sitting in my room, all on my own, singing
La la la la la la
La la la la la la la, singing
La la la la la la
La la la la la la

Spiraling back into depression
This is my confession, this is my confession
But I'll get through, feeling blue I'll know
Like before, I'm yet again all alone

Every night I've got these voices in my head 
That sometimes tell me that I should rather be dead
Overthinking every little thing I do
Now I'm broken and I blame myself for losing you

Could you tell me please, what to do?
'Cause I'm not really sure whats the truth

I wish I had a person, who would tell me its okay
who would be beside me everyday
I wish there was someone, who I could call my home
But I'm just sitting in my room, all on my own
La la la la la la
La la la la la la la, singing
La la la la la la
La la la la la la

I wish I had a person, who would tell me it’s okay
Here to be with me, and chase the fear away
I wish there was someone, who I could call my home
But I'm just sitting in my room, all alone

La La La (One Take Recording)

A song about a failed healing process

Art: https://x.com/naokowatanabe_

Lyrics:

I thought I learned my lesson, all these therapy sessions
This is my regression, I thought I learned my lesson

Walking with the devil and we're walking hand in hand
He's telling me that he's the only one who'd understand
Listen to his whisper and he'll guide me through the night
"Girl without me by your side, you'll lose every goddamn fight"

They say its okay to not feel okay
I've been kneeling, feeling like this every fucking day
I'm tired of the darkness, I'm tired of the pain
I wanna find a reason but I'm stuck inside my brain
 
I thought I learned my lesson, all these therapy sessions
This is my regression, I thought I learned my lesson oh

Living with depression, yeah it’s a fight I know, o-oh
Obsession thats the question, from the voices down below
Tryna to find my way, but I don’t know no where to go, o-oh
Wake up every day praying, saying; "please take me home" take me home. Take me
 
Hooo, Ooh, Home. Take me
Hooo, Ooh, Home

Thoughts of givin’ up, they slowly creeping in
Wired being tired, just like the devils grin
Tryna find my strength, tryna stay afloat
In this battle with my mind, I’m chokin’ on my hope

Choking without hands around my neck, I'm just a wreck
I wish I knew how to keep these voices in check
Pull me under, I don’t wanna fight anymore
Drown me in the pain I can’t seem to ignore

I thought I learned my lesson, all these therapy sessions
This is my regression, I thought I learned my lesson oh

Living with depression, yeah it’s a fight I know, o-oh
Obsession thats the question, from the voices down below
Tryna to find my way, but I don’t know no where to go, o-oh
Wake up every day praying, saying; "please take me home" take me home. Take me
 
Hooo, Ooh, Home. Take me
Hooo, Ooh, Home

Tryna to find my way, but I don’t know no where to go, o-oh
Wake up every day praying, saying; "please take me-"

Living with depression, yeah it’s a fight I know, o-oh
Obsession thats the question, from the voices down below
Tryna to find my way, but I don’t know no where to go, o-oh
Wake up every day praying, saying; "please take me home" take me home. Take me
 
Hooo, Ooh, Home. Take me
Hooo, Ooh, Home

Living with depression, yeah it’s a life I know

regression (One Take Recording)

Just a silly girl making music in the hopes that atleast one person can resonate with it

My music is inspired by 'onelittlepiranha', 'NeverShoutNever', 'SayWeCanFly' and "NF"

a little close to home

Yuuna