Ex-bestfried Ex-boyfriend what am i to you 🖤🖤

Beautiful song :3 can you post the lyrics pls? <3

produced by: caps ctrl

vocals,mixing,mastering and artwork: birdbay

Lyrics:

(hook)

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else
i’ve been doing the numbers and i’m getting out

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else

(verse)

i’ve been under the pressure i’m tryna do my best
i’ve been tryna be myself i’m doing my best i swear

i’ve been down, i’ve been down, i’ve been down again

i’ve been losing my crown when i falling in

i don’t wanna be apart of your one sided history 

i don’t, i don’t wanna be apart of your history 
or atleast not the story that you’re telling
i don’t really wanna like it but i have to 

(hook)

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else
i’ve been doing the numbers and i’m getting out

i’ve tried to relax and i sip earl grey
i just wanna check the facts i don’t wanna be fake
i, need some peace, some love from everyone else

earl grey [caps ctrl]

(verse)
ive been here before 
is this just some deja vu 
I might die on the floor surrounded by pictures of you 
I can't breathe stay with me 
don't believe underneath 
you're my thief 
stole my key
one more thing 
to make you see 

(hook)
in the middle of the night 
one more chance to make this right 
all these clues in black and white 
need some magic to excite
hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore 

(verse 2)
got gas in the tank 
lets just go for a ride 
give me a minute to think 
before you cast me aside 
your words not feeling clearer (its unfamiliar)
you're such a killer 
is it all for the taking?
cuz it's you that I'm chasing 
if no one is faking 
then why is it me who's breaking

(hook)
in the middle of the night 
one more chance to make this right 
all these clues in black and white 
need some magic to excite
hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore 
I got blood shot eyes 
and I'm barely living 
you build and break down my existence
it's at the point where I'm bout to give in 
just one more try cuz I'm still wishing for this 

(bridge)
fall into place, my saving grace
at the point where I'm bout to give in 
just one more try cuz I'm still wishing for this 
(fall into place, my saving grace) 

(hook)
in the middle of the night 
one more chance to make this right 
all these clues in black and white 
need some magic to excite
hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore 
I got blood shot eyes 
and I'm barely living 
you build and break down my existence
it's at the point where I'm bout to give in 
just one more try cuz I'm still wishing for this 

hard look at what's gone wrong 
one bad move and I'm on my own 
take all that's left of me
cuz I just can't do this anymore

one bad move [prod. living puff]

for my boyfriend, ily shy <3

prod. @jolst @pekarot_161

i dont deserve u 
but im so glad i have u...
im so glad...

i dont deserve u
im just lucky that i get to know u

i dont deserve u
im sorry fore these hoops you have to
jump through
im nothing but bad news 
you're the only thing that 
i dont wanna lose 

you're the only thing that 
ive ever cared about losing...
and i try to
control these feelings but i cant

and im sorry baby
i try to 
control these feelings in my head
but sometimes...i cant...

you've been everything to me
from way back when till now
and every message in between 

you're the only thing that
ive ever cared about losing
and i try to
control these feelings but i cant...

and im sorry baby..
i try to...
control these feelings in my head
but sometimes i cant...

(sometimes, sometimes)

sometimes i cant!
sometimes i cant!!

you're the only thing that
ive ever cared about losing
and i try to
control these feelings but i cant...

deserve u [+pekarot & jolst]

new one from the archives with my partner in crime >:D    @mediumarchive
produced by @majinaruu
hope u enjoy <3

lyrics:
(sean)
i don't wanna think about you at all 
every single conversations ends up like a battle 
i don't think I'll ever make some time for us tio chat cuz 
you act like a baby with a binkie a rattle

and i tried 
but it's never enough 
and you lie 
like you do it for fun 
it's alright 
i can still feel your touch 
and it's dry 
like the blood on your tongue

(decks)
and i know you been elsewhere
telling me lies cuz you dont care
leave me alone and go fuck up
someone else’s life

so shut up, shut up
because i know you never wanna
make up, make up
its only really ever gonna
fuck up, fuck up
our perception of us
and the blood’s on your hands 
cuz its never enough for you

and i tried to help it,
but you never would take fall
you’re more than selfish
cuz you never really cared at all

shut up! w/ medium sean [majinaru]

spotify

consistency i have
its hurting get away
ur fuckin up my mental, you don't seem to understand

that you aren't really great
i don't know what to say
you make me wanna cry
almost every other day

but this world is such a mess
its never been okay
ill try to figure out, when ill see you, again

the plans always a mess
I'm messed up, you don't say
don't come breaking, my heart
i wont be, okay

-------------
sydcxx
-------------
guess u on my mind now
i tried to buy us some time yea
id take it all back if i could
cuz im not the one that you thought i would be
cant hide the feelin inside me
baby i need u beside me
i cant keep running away
feel like my life is all over the place 
im drownin in pain

i miss the things we had
but it slipped away
holdin onto memories
for just another day
cause my life is such a mess without u
baby wont u stay
dont come breakin my heart
i wont be okay 
drowning in my thoughts
dodgin the rain drops
coutin the seconds until i could
tell u that u made my heart stop
did u ever care for me at all


consistency i have
its hurting get away
ur fuckin up my mental, you don't seem to understand

I'm falling, apart, almost every single day
I'm scared, of my future, emptychested, bitch i am

why'd it all slip away (ft. sydcxx)

vvv

movin at light speed ive been glowing honestly
think i couldnt be doing better pain is hard to see
taking red n blue up inside my odyssey 
dont hit me up im out of reach
im in my own world
im in my own zone
conspired this all inside my dome
now its all right here and i finally found my home
its you 
its me 
im starting to believe and talk to my inner child  and not ignore her
im so sorry i know that i treated u like shit for months
youre still my baby angel and i never meant to hurt u, love
it wasnt my intentions it was the man with the red hair
if im bein honest w u i dont think he ever cared
id tell you it was a facade but u prolly do not know that word
i know how he hurt you and i hate em bout much as you loved him
but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.
I been 
Blowin toxins
in my  room
i been doin fine
w out u 
yeah i loved him but
inside info , me to u, i dont think that hes happy anymore
so i guess me and you won, just let me deal with the rest.

inner_child (jabarionthebeat x jelly x dreamboyy)

-- @lovecliqxe --
-- @ztope --

shout out to Indica and ztope<3

mix.ztope x cliqxe


lyrics-

swno:

Thinking to much
I’m not enough
Thoughts in my head tend to
Leave me with cuts rip out
Guts tell me it’s love I
Know it’s not cuz the way
That you bluff tell me your
Lies and fill me with hope
Rip out my heart yeah I’m
cold to the touch never enough
Coughing up blood hope That you
happy they way that Left me
yeah i hope that your happy
yeah i hope that your happy

cliqxe:

i hope that youre satisfied
feed me another lie
tell me all the reasons why with me you never could survive
tell me how you loved me but you left me for another guy
is this even pain or has my body just begun to die

thank you for the motivation
you used to be my inspiration
showed me how fucking hopeless
and broken of a human being, i, was

now i only have one goal in patience
i might make it through this cursed occasion
i wish that things were easier
do you wanna push through still?

if no ill get back up thats just what i do
fuck the chains around my brain theyre only there because of you
i hate the way that i explain so im silent just for you
no you wouldnt understand what ive been through

swno:

Thinking to much
I’m not enough
Thoughts in my head tend to
Leave me with cuts rip out
Guts tell me it’s love I
Know it’s not cuz the way
That you bluff tell me your
Lies and fill me with hope
Rip out my heart yeah I’m
cold to the touch never enough
Coughing up blood hope That you
happy they way that Left me

In hindsight w/ lovecliqxe (nevrfall)

lyrics
i remember way back in the past times,
we were all good, maxed out on them white lines,
snort a line of blow im dead, i used to hear voices now it's all in my head. x2

last night, i blew a couple racks
nice jeans on her legs
20g's in the keg.
she used to say forever, i used to say always,
now we see eachother and we fight in the hallways.

*frvr&alwys*

i remember way back in the past times,
we were all good, maxed out on them white lines,
snort a line of blow im dead, i used to hear voices now it's all in my head. x2

kais

past time w/frvr&alwys (prod.irby)

throwaway song no. 1483284523

lyrics ~

fell in love with your energy
i need you here right next to me
i wanna
get drunk, drive endlessly
watch your hair fall perfectly
i wanna
waste time and kiss you slow
face the world sun rain or snow
it's all i
ever really wanna know
and i want it here right now with you

baby
can you feel your emotion?
it's running through your heart
and trust me we'll make it so far away from here, love
and lost in the rainstorm
but you know i'll keep you safe
fingers through your hair 
you know you just deserve the best

fell in love with your energy
i need you here right next to me
i wanna
get drunk, drive endlessly
watch your hair fall perfectly
i wanna
waste time and kiss you slow
face the world sun rain or snow
it's all i
ever really wanna know
and i want it here right now with you

fell in love with your energy
i need you here right next to me
i wanna
get drunk, drive endlessly
watch your hair fall perfectly
i wanna
waste time and kiss you slow
face the world sun rain or snow
it's all i
ever really wanna know
and i want it here right now with you

~ we'll make it so far away from here, love

produced by @deadspyro
featuring @kvnny

photo credits: @jwhaylandphoto on ig

in your burdens ft. kenny (prod. dead spyro)

What's the name?
I've been asking that for months now
Been the same
They've been everybody else
How you gonna change everything about yourself now?
Now

Can you stay a little longer?
(ya)
I can't sleep at night
Lay awake with open eyes
If your mettle was an answer,
My walls ain't mending
It's so upsetting how it's
Always over my head
I'm amazed what things come out my chest
Erase so nothing's left
Don't wanna be myself

What's the name?
I've been asking that for months now
Been the same
They've been everybody else
How you gonna change everything about yourself now?
Now
(Now)

And it's cold inside this basement
Tryna hold on tight embrace it
I'm running out of patience
And I'm sick of feeling
(Feeling)

(It's not that bad)
(It's not that bad)

Keep your friends close
Keep yourself closer
Looking for some way to find closure
Can't keep searching
But I keep hurting
And I can't find home

I can't find home
My home
Can't find home
Can't find home

What's the name?
I've been asking that for months now
Been the same
They've been everybody else
How you gonna change everything about yourself now?

And it's cold inside this basement
Tryna hold on tight embrace it
I'm running out of patience
And I'm sick of feeling

Feeling Feeling Feeling Feeling
Feeling Feeling Feeling Feeling
Feeling Feeling Feeling Feeling
Feeling Feeling Feeling Feeling
feel
feel
feel
feel

in your burdens ft. kenny (prod. dead spyro)

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