Im Not Tryna See That, Just Make Me Blind w/ Woxy (prod. The Ushanka Boy)

this was so fun to make, hope you like it
got a song coming every 1-2 weeks for next month (:
thankful for every listen <3

beat by the insanely talented @illsee
lyrics:

I live among the vermin
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you call me when it’s imminent
I’m terrified it’s certain
I live among the vermin 
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you promise you’ll be with me when I’m pulling back the curtain

I've been up in arms
wondering how I’d tell you
when I wanna be in yours
wish it was that easy
but it’s pulling back and forth
wish I could appease it
but it’s gonna run its course

I'm always down on my luck
not coming out of my rut
I’ll find a beat
that I like
and make some shit on it once
but Imma finish a song don’t care
if I hate it
Imma keep up with this i swear
never disappear

I live among the vermin
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you call me when it’s imminent
I’m terrified it’s certain
I live among the vermin
will you listen to my song
will you listen to my sermon
will you honor all my wishes cause you know that I've been hurting
will you promise you’ll be with me when I’m pulling back the curtain

vermin (maybe)

prod @s0ftskelet0ns

LYRICS
Shifting gears down twisting roads
Life status critical
Without love i'm miserable
Envy me and my life honestly im still pitiful
Even if i take it to the top, will i make it home

Clutch in, shift gear, gas out
Get home, smoke up, pass out
Face a mighty foe wont back down
Baby do you want this all, do you really want this all?
Pedal to the floor blast down that hall, clutch in clutch out i still stall
Clutch in, shift gear, hear me call

Brake up, neutral revvin at the light
Nova scotia winter turbo sliding ice
6k in my pocket name that price
Baby this is how i wanna live my life

Clutch in, shift gear, gas out
Get home, smoke up, pass out

Saving up money from work, buy an srt all while having tuition to spend on
Life aint great but it could be worse, i might hold a key but am i the one to depend on
I might be me, but im just background for a ten thousand piece puzzle
So dont you see? We might build up, but for all that work were still ground floor ruble


clutch in [prod. s0ftskelet0ns]

the odds are good that no one would notice i was gone...
no... one... would... care...
in fact, some - if they noticed my absence - might feel an odd, indefinable, sense of relief...

she show me her wrist, yeah, princess is slit </3
yeah, she show me her tongue, so i drop her a hit
yeah, i drop her a strip, she the prettiest bitch (:
yeah, princess, she gliss, and i'm buying her rick
she don't love me foreal, she just use me for dope
but, i'm a sucker for love, so i let that shit go...
yeah, she let that shit go... now she fucking for coke...
baby-girl is a hoe... in the dark, i'm alone... /:

knife in the club, i'm ice-man on the drugs
she dipping the bag til' her face, it go numb
she tell me she hate me, but she wanna fuck me
shawty like a slut, on the drugs, she's so dumb...
knife in the club, i'm ice-man on the drugs
she dipping the bag til' her face, it go numb
she tell me she hate me, but she wanna fuck me
shawty like a slut, on the drugs, she's so dumb...

she show me her wrist, yeah, princess is slit </3
yeah, she show me her tongue, so i drop her a hit
yeah, i drop her a strip, she the prettiest bitch (:
yeah, princess, she gliss, and i'm buying her rick
she don't love me foreal, she just use me for dope
but, i'm a sucker for love, so i let that shit go...
yeah, she let that shit go... now she fucking for coke...
baby-girl is a hoe... in the dark, i'm alone... /:

written and edited by lightning logan
prod by culmanii
sample from american psycho by bret easton ellis

slit wrist prince$$

[lyrics]

baby put me in your love chants
see u in your grey pants
staring through my ray bans
i know that you like that
i could give ueverything just let me walk
i could show u anything if u let me talk

sitting up inside my room once agajn
drowning in the hennesy are we more than friends
can we be more cos we cannot be less
can i share your heart 
trust the process

times get hard i wanna leave behind
all of these evil memories inside of my mind
and i see darkness - thats where i reside
and i said pick your poison cos ive picked mine

and i can only see a future if it's with u
and i dont understand girl what i should do
your telling me i need to put the drugs down 
a promise i can keep if you're gonna stick round

i promise that i'd kill for you
i'd do anything you want me to
sexual suicidal pact
tie the noose as you hold my hand

baby put me in your love chants
see u in your grey pants
staring through my ray bans
i know that you like that
i could give u everything just let me walk
i could show u anything if u let me talk

love chants

love chants [prod.deffjoint]

Everything is never everlasting 
Let that pussy sing while she gag me
I was so ashamed when you met me 
I sit alone while they @ me 

Ball boy you a ball boy 
Get me a Gatorade 
Sad stuff on my Samsung 
Pills in minute made 
Bad bitch I’m with a bad bitch 
You know we sleep in late 
Madness life is madness but I’m getting paid 

Masking off pain when you let me 
I said bitch you’re my caffeine 
I was so worried that you stabbed me 
Life is all worries till we’re buried 

Guido boi bumping lil soda boi
If I make this money then would you call me?
remember Halloween party it still haunts me 
Remember boys would mock me but now they jock me 
Yeah yeah yeah 

Everything is never everlasting 
Let that pussy sing while  she gag me
I was so ashamed when you met me 
I sit alone while they @ me 

Oh I’ll figure it out 
Oh I’ll figure it out 
Oh I’ll figure it out 
Yeah I’ll figure it out 
Oh I’ll figure it out 
Oh I’ll figure it out 
Let me figure it out 

I was in pain when you met me 
Waterworks drained to the backseat 
If I leave now would you stab me?
Your kiss tastes like morphine 
like morphine 
like morphine 
Morphine 
Morphine

guido boy bumpin lil soda boi (prod.Inkivi)

I feel my bones crawl right out of my skin I am not comfortable 
inside this place which I reside inside this place which I call home
Ive grown so fuckin numb to this but yet I feel so vulnerable
please cut around my neck and make it quick it's not enjoyable

I tried to call a thousand times the line was unavailable 
I'm deep inside these trenches and my death is unavoidable 
I tried to play my part I couldn't sorry I can't play the role
I hope that you'll forgive me love I hope that it is possible
I know

that every day gets harder by the minute love
well if you said you did it and you didn't could you get it done?
I'm sitting in the living room at 3:02 wit my flashlight on
scrape reclaim out collecters holy fuck I need to hit the plug
i know

that everything gets better if you manifest it
I'm so hungry (hungary) for the cheddar fuck around in Budapest
get 80k off YouTube beats I made this on my own you bitch it's
nothing to me honestly it's just another days recessions

and it's just another dazed depression
I don't like to do this shit cuz Everytime get too aggressive 
passin out inside my jeans I'm too fucked up I'm past beheaded
could you get it done because you didn't when you fucking said it

I've been on the run
from myself for a while now
you don't mean a single thing you say it's best to pipe down 
I don't mean a single thing I say in lyrics typed out
at least that's what I say to prevent creatives right now

i prevent myself from writing
typing
I don't wanna talk now
hiding
fighting
suicidal thoughts in my mind 
behind these bright blue eyes
I write things
I see
tantalizing
sights
beyond reach
traumatized
my body
rotting
play my heart out like guitar strings
play my heart out like the ivorys

did you do it to spite me
or do you just despise me
can you be honest for once

I've been better off lately
hope it's driving you crazy
that I'm doing okay but I still don't wanna wake up
and it's fucked what we'll do for a paystub
you can hide your face but I see right through your makeup
you don't have to try anymore I'll walk away love. 


unavoidable (sorrowbringer)

Vocals recorded through my phone 💀

Lyrics:

Baby won't you find me? It ain't that hard,
you know that I'm buried in your back yard.
Dig me up and heal me with your touch, 
I'll find a way to pay, but I don't have much.
Deracinte me, take me into your arms.
Baby, don't hate me, I wished you no harm.
All of my choices had been stripped away.
All of the voices had me led astray.

Find me (Prod. wraithontheporch)

lyrics

Hold your breath, this is the last step
I have been by your side from when we first met
The left side of our world is where we hear our calling
And when it’s falling
You’ll be torn up right up to the morning
Finish your story, finish your story
I flipped through all of the pages, not once was it boring
They say the sky, the sky is the limit
From what I was told, I was finished
Cause it wasn’t clear, but I had envisioned
A world for us both, and now we are living it
Last breath, last breath
Last breath, last breath
Hold your breath, escape, lose your head
Just for a moment, this is important
Please don’t be scared of death
I’ve seen the fires, and I’ve seen the cold
And from my view, you would just start to mold
And grow old
You have the queen that you hold
Look, I was the light, and I was the dark
Flickering, flickering, flickering
Eventually losing my spark
At the end of the tunnel, a glimpse of the future
Control what you have, so you never lose her
You take my breath away every day
You take my breath away every day
You take my breath away
You take my breath away
And so would you join me?
Know I’m a fragment of what I am holding
You choose the path, the door’s never closing
You take my breath away

last breathe

last breathe (coffeelover)

produced by hero <3
mastered by neerdowell <3

I like this track a lot :)

Lyrics
- - - - -
I’ve gone through everything at least a thousand times (a thousand times)
Why don’t you tell me what you mean and save the time (and save the time)
I threw apologies, as if they weren’t mine (so wastefully)
And after everything you said, you weren’t mine (Just make-believe)

I remember the good times
I remember the bad
All the things we would talk of
How u hated your dad
All the plans for the future
How I’m happy I knew u
I was talking right through you
Now you don’t message back

Hand in hand
You led me back
To lands where in
You left me stranded
I’m the puppet
My heart manned it
I cant go against demands its

Not up to me
So baby spin that fantasy
I’ll lose all reality
As long as you keep feeding it

I love when you deceive me
Love it when you need me
Greed is the poison
That seeps from my needle
Feeble and weakened
Dead by the weekend
Toss and I turn to return to my grieving

Leave me for the graves
Fall into decay
Not another way
And that’s okay
I don’t need to be 
More than memory
Behind your faces
Replaced with
The next one on the chopping block
The places
Vacations
Maybe that’ll rid me from your brain
It’s escaping
Every fucking step you’ve ever taken
Piece of your creation
A mangled demonstration
Of coping in this matrix  
Hoping there's a day
Where we make it to oasis

I’ve gone through everything at least a thousand times (a thousand times)
Why don’t you tell me what you mean and save the time (and save the time)
I threw apologies, as if they weren’t mine (so wastefully)
And after everything you said, you weren’t mine (Just make-believe)


make believe (prod. hero)

guitar by @jolst
drums by me
mix by me & @lottaheart
master by @jolst

lyrics

you gave me confidence
i gave you nothing more than a silent ominous
poisoned flowers
i could stare at you for hours
i'll drop you off your door
my desire never sours
autumn leaves blowing under our hands
as we rest on the grass
looking at the pumpkin patch (ly @onlyfriendyeah)
and i hope that we will last
your the best ive ever had
your the best ive ever had

if im comfy in my coat
you should wear it then
i'll give you anything
i'll give you anything

theres something bout your eyes
i cant help but stare at them
i'll give you anything
i'll give you anything

i promise
it'll be worth it
you deserve it
can you wait for me?

i promise
i'll make it perfect
you deserve it
just hold on tight for me

you gave me confidence
i gave you nothing more than a silent ominous
poisoned flowers
i could stare at you for hours
i'll drop you off your door
my desire never sours
autumn leaves blowing under our hands
as we rest on the grass
looking at the pumpkin patch
and i hope that we will last
your the best ive ever had
your the best ive ever had

every time i see you smile
every time i see you laugh
makes me realise im so lucky
your the best ive ever had
can't believe you want me too?
wtf
did i do?
i did not 
deserve you
your so perfect
bulletproof
bulletproof
every word, every move, every mood
your untouched by the pain that left me bruised
that left me bruised
what would i do
without you?

you gave me confidence
i gave you nothing more than a silent ominous
poisoned flowers
i could stare at you for hours
i'll drop you off your door
my desire never sours
autumn leaves blowing under our hands
as we rest on the grass
looking at the pumpkin patch
and i hope that we will last
your the best ive ever had
your the best ive ever had

Im Not Tryna See That, Just Make Me Blind w/ Woxy (prod. The Ushanka Boy)

Jaseeeen