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The Lower That I Sink

Jeepp X ripnovember - ghost

prod by @222pmb

(2x)

I was never meant to feel so alone,
anywhere but here is where that ima fucking go.
loosing track I'm a mess shawty yeah I know,
one time for the back you already know.
one step I be in the background in the backstreets,
one day I'm gon' hop right up in that taxi,
don't play I be smoking cana in the backseat,
and ion rlly know where to go from here.

anywhere but here (prod. 222pmb)

+++LYRICS+++

You feel like Percocet,
curled all up in my bed.
pour your salt in my wound,
cause you know next day i'll forget.

and you'll be back in my room.
It feels like you're my only friend.
It feel like you're my only end.

Ay, you feel Percocet.
Ay, you feel Percocet.

You feel like Percocet,
and hurt like a knife in my gut.
The next day i'll be back again.
This shit won't add up,
Like how'd you get so far away?
I just want you here.
Come around.
I'll take you every single day till i die.
I break down, Life without you faker than lies
that i...

tell you to not be sad.
Like "No, I'm not fucked up"
and "I'm not tryna run outta luck"
"I get tired too quick"
Heh... "get me outta this place"
"I didn't mean to be this sad"
"We never ask for this"
"I can't wait for you to take me back"
Cause you're my Percocet
It's crazy what i do for a friend,
curled up on my bed,
cause you know I'll forget 
what you did last night...
So i pour salt on your wounds,
you're the one who came back to my room.

You know what you did.
You're my Percocet, 
curled all up in my bed.
Pour your salt in my wound,
cause you know next day I'll forget.

+++LYRICS+++
i started buying them fat RP's from one of the line cooks at the Nordy.
Me n tha boys didn't pay the water bill and MATA's friend came to visit.
I go downstairs and see this girl named Casey.
She was so pretty, and i really like her voice and accent.
she needed to pee but you know how tf u finna b THAT pretty and not flush your pee in a house fulla niggas. It's unclassy, but I didn't want her to leave so soon. (it was late as hell) 
So my dumbass grabs a bucket and jumps the fence to steal the neighbors poolwater and I get to look at her for a little longer.
I enjoyed being myself around her. (a crazy, drug binging, sleep deprived kleptomaniac.)
We talk on instagram (i like her handle it was @heartbreakcasee it's so me)
and I end at a hotel with her. She teaches me that I have anxiety, but at that time I didn't understand she was only trying to help me fix myself which no other human has ever done.
The lunacy I was in from the percs made it so sometimes her help came off as her not liking me.
So I was flipping back and forth and me being insecure and broke on top of her being a little older than me did not help.
I ended up choosing the pills and cutting her off.
I love her with all of my heart because she kept hacking at me even after realizing how stubbornly my illness was embedded into me.
Casey doesn't know I'm just now starting that journal she wanted me to get us to go on like self help journeys together.
I was an asshole to her when she wanted to come see me as i started dating Aliza.
I regret that.

Jeepp X ripnovember - ghost

♡jeepp♡