I wrote it because I live through it and wanted to share

A Letter To Myself

'Tabula Rasa' explores the the itch to shake off the past and start again with a blank slate. It's the third single from Bethany's upcoming EP The Story I Breathe.

Tabula Rasa

Would you change your life if given the chance?  Sometimes life has more in store than you realise.

WOULD I CHANGE ANYTHING final.mp3

[Verse 1]
First met you on the courthouse steps
You had a ticket for a car that was borrowed
You said "Take me to the firemen's ball
They'll forget about it by tomorrow"

[Verse 2]
We danced and you introduced me as your husband
It was just a little white lie
But I loved it
You said
"Let's go make it a little more true"
And we took off in a hurry
We got hitched and got it over
While the wedding bells were still ringin' in my ears

[Chorus]
Tell me
Girl
What was wrong with me?
Was it my taste in music or the way I kissed you?
Or the hours and hours that I spent with you in bed?
Was it something that I said?
Was it the way I held your hand
When you introduced me as your husband?
Why a girl wanna leave such a smart and gentle man?

[Verse 3]
You brought me to your parents' house
You said
"Just play along for the weekend"
They had their questions and their doubts
But by the end
They were believing

[Verse 4]
We had fun
We put on a good show
I guess some people just get off on pretending
I could tell that your daddy didn't like me much
So I left
'cause it seemed like the right thing
It was just the one time
But I know how much it meant to you
And I hope I didn't mess it up too bad

[Chorus]
Tell me
Girl
What was wrong with me?
Was it my taste in music or the way I kissed you?
Or the hours and hours that I spent with you in bed?
Was it something that I said?
Was it the way I held your hand
When you introduced me as your husband?
Why a girl wanna leave such a smart and gentle man?

Why me ?  Lyrics in description

Blank Canvas

Myrhna, Louve de Lumière 02

Written in honor of my twin sister's massive heart. 

Lyrics: 

[Intro]
I’ve been spinning on this circle…chasing hearts that couldn’t stay.
Giving love like it was oxygen…just to watch it float away.
But I’m not the same woman—who thought pain was the proof.
There’s a fire deep inside me now. And it’s lighting up the truth.

[Verse]
Another year. Another heartbreak. Same old tears upon my face.
Thought love would be my rescue…but it left without a trace.
I gave 'til I was empty. Lifted men up just to fall.
Tried to be their northern star—
but no one risin’ to the call.

[Chorus]
I was turning on a wheel…spinning ‘round the same sun.
Giving all I had to give…but never being the one.
Still, I didn’t hold back love. Didn’t close the fading gate.
Even pain became a prayer…
and I still chose to radiate.

[Verse]
They say the world keeps turning…but I feel it in my bones.
Each goodbye was a teacher. Each silence carved in stone.
But I never let the hurting…be a reason not to feel.
Love still flowed right through me—
even when it wouldn’t heal.

[Chorus]
I was turning on a wheel…‘round a sun I didn’t know.
Now I see—it was my own fire…keeping me aglow.
What I gave was not a weakness. Just strength misunderstood.
And I’d do it all again…
just to transform what I could.

[Bridge]
This last one was different. I came out brand new.
Heard the voice of God in the wind…and morning dew.
Life began to whisper. And I finally heard the call.
That I was not made to chase—
I was born to stand tall.

I’ve got my own sun rising…at the center of my chest.
Burned away the fear—
what I deserve has come to rest.
I’m guided now by ancestors. And I’ve never felt so clear.
I’ve never felt so clear…
My soul’s already moving…
and the one I seek is near.

[Verse]
They were mirrors—every one of them…reflecting back myself.
Now the universe is my mirror.
There’s no end to my wealth.  
I don’t need a love that’s lesser. I don’t ache to be enough.
I want love that knows my thunder…
and can meet me in the rough.

[Chorus]
I’m no longer on that wheel. I’ve stepped off into the light.
Built a fire from my heartbreak…now it’s burning warm and bright.
So I’ll sit here on this mountaintop…and watch the valley bloom.
I see another peak ahead—
but there’s no more need to zoom. 

[Outro]
My pain had a purpose. And now I see…
The suffering didn’t break me. It came to set me free.
Yeah, no suffering can break me…
this soul of mine is free.

Revolutions around the Sun (Amy's Song)

Living Funeral

Ein emotionaler Country-Song über Verlust, Erinnerungen und die Kraft des Weitergehens. Die Straße wird zum Sinnbild für das Herz – voller Kurven, Schmerz und Hoffnung.

Die Straße kennt mein Herz

This is Melissa
She's married with children
She loves her husband and three little tots
But today it is raining
The kids won't stop fighting
And she's stuck in the house cause her car's in the shop
And she thinks as she kisses their bruises and tears
"What kind of difference am I making here?"

CHORUS:	
We all make choices
We all take chances
Later we wonder if we've chosen well
We listen to voices
We spin to Life's dances
But what might have been, no one ever can tell
Each woman becomes the sum of her choices

This is Priscilla
Professional, pretty
She's climbed the ladder that leads to success
But a week ago Friday, Priscilla turned forty
As she blew out her candles, she had one request
Now she's lost in her thoughts at her table for one
What would her kids look like if she had had some?

BRIDGE:	
Mildred is sixty and lives all alone
Her husband is gone and her kids are all grown
But decades and heartaches have made Mildred wise
Now she sees Life through Love's eyes….She says…..
    
LAST CHORUS:	
We all make choices
We all take chances
But somehow Life balances everything well
We listen to voices
And spin in the dances
But each woman has her own story to tell
			
TAG:			
Ev'ry struggling soul
Is a part of the whole		
As hist'ry unfolds…..through our choices



Words: Mary Dawson
Music: Cheryl Bocanegra
Copyright 2020/ CQK Music (ASCAP)
All Rights Reserved



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le déclin en plus intimiste

Léo Morvandieu,œuvre originale déclarée à la SACEM – toute reproduction, diffusion ou synchronisation sans autorisation est interdite. Maquette à visée illustratrice.

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All songs, -music and lyrics - are copyrighted..
As an author - composer, I like to sing, with my natural voice or slightly transformed with different devices, according to my mood. I also play all kinds of keyboards and a little bit of 6-string guitars, both acoustic and electric.I'm pretty old, but I've still got a fairly wide vocal range, though it's getting lower and lower.
I also have a small home studio called Vesuvius( thx Sufjan Stevens! )
I like to work alone, or with two or three partners, male or female, highly qualified.
And I get some much fun to discover amazing new talents on Soudcloud. That's why I follow more people than I'm followed by. I'm just too curious..

Why me ? Lyrics in description

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