The Upload 34

https://open.spotify.com/album/5zP4gjKbtGWoXfLTi1lY8y?si=Zzr7nFJLRkul55LIMjo3yg&dl_branch=1

@valious - Dream

She only text’s me in the nighttime
Still drunk can’t read don't feel right
And I swear i could never act right
Still left on read like ghost time 
And i swear that I’m trying 
Two shots to my head now dying
And he acting like she bribed him
No love just sex now crying

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
Oh I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And I smile when it’s fucked you cry with me
Still feeling like a burden
Two shots been lost now dying
Been thrown been left so ride with me
No thoughts no trust no time for me

I’m easily replaceable
Don’t have another way to go
I’m lost without a reason 
Time to stop my breathing
Heart be running fast within my chest it gets to beating
Found another way to make it out i swear I'm leaving
Pain been pushed aside i lost my friend and now I'm grieving, grieving

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
I lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me

I tried but the pain feels nice to me 
Oh i lied but i just can't hide a thing 
And you like when we’re broke you lay with me
And i smile when it’s fucked you cry with me
Still feeling like a burden
Two shots been lost now I’m dying
Been thrown been left so ride with me
No thoughts no trust no time for me

gemini (prod. siem spark x gavinhadley x milesjulian)

New single "Over It" featuring lullabyboy <3
I decided to release this song before releasing the rest of the EP, Show it some love : )
lullabyboy link
https://soundcloud.com/lullabyboy

(Lyrics)
Why do I keep holding on 
Every night got me writing sad songs
About you and it just feels wrong 
Baby why am I holding on no

Gotta get over over it 
Over over over it
Gotta get over over it
Over over over it 
Move on from the past it’s been blinding 
It’s wasn’t real love, it was just the timing 
But it felt good I’ve been denying
Cause I can’t stand these tears I’ve been fighting
Gotta get over over it 
Over over over it
Gotta get over over it
Over over over it

Hold on cause I don’t know better 
You must feel so damn clever 
Cause you moved on and your better
But I’m still here under the weather 
I’d give it all up, 
just for your touch 
I’d give it all up
If you’d just say that I’m enough 

Gotta get over over it 
Over over over it
Gotta get over over it
Over over over it 

(lullabyboy)
Gotta get over it
I feel like i been losin touch
Every now and then I feel like its too much
Saw me out the window I been feelin so cold
How'd I get so low how’d I get so low
Its so hard you must know
Thought I saw some gold 
I was wrong i know I was wrong I know 
I’m not chosen I swear it shows
You reloaded and hit my throat
It hit so hard It destroyed my soul
Maybe im better alone
But that scares me I need you so


Mix by yago and lullabyboy
Master by Kanashi
Prod. ZebraTiger

Stream on Spotify!

Over It (feat. lullabyboy)

v v v
yeah i know
no one knows my name
but i keep on trucking 
i just hope the work 
pays off or fucking something
but if it dont i wont be suprised
hell or nothing and left to die
stayed up every night for a year straight
studying my mixing and studying my membrane
always thought that i was fucking insane
never had no one to relate to, yeah yeah
never had no friends 
still fucking dont
i always end up alone again
and thats my fault too
i push them away
i push them away
please dont put any worth to my name
i swear to fuckin god i dont deserve that shit 
yeah im just a sad ass girl trapped in her room and shit
never leave my room unless i really fuckin have to
i dont know
i dont know
every night i smoke, man it got me feeling slow mo
throat burns, red eyes, and i feel like shit
feel like i wanna crawl in a hole and dip
say you really dont want me to do that
if you really dont want me to, please try and stop me
(try and stop me)
(try and stop me)
uncomfortable like always
always fuckin sweat
always fuckin stress 
about some dumb fuckin shit
always miss my boyfriend
always miss my dad
just wanna feel decent
how hard is that?
how hard is it to feel like im normal?
how hard is it to feel like im clean?
how hard is it to feel like kai?
how hard is it to feel alright?
aye, aye, 
no one knows my name
but i keep on truckin
i could just repeat that shit 
but i feel like workin
and i feel like nothing
hopefully im something
maybe ill find out one fuckin day but
not soon
yeah i was in marshall and u called me
said ur in asheville, can you meet me soon?
and i hit u back, said "im down, im down, im down"
always really am but you dont understand
look at twitter once then you go and advance
babe i think your heads clouded give me a chance
you look fucking flawless how you are boy dont trip
ay one grand for a trip (one trip)
just to hold my boy in my arms real quick (real quick)
yeah its real fucking tuff long distance relationship shit
yeah but its real love thats the shit you dont get.

hell or nothing (pekarot)

inside out ft. skele (prod. caves x pekarot)

https://open.spotify.com/track/3eyLDTi5PCzs4R3Cxa8OkZ?si=rS2_t_cwQFydpkIa7AebyQ&dl_branch=1

Cobejordan - Autumn Is Coming Ft. Koi [p.Stevienel] out on all platforms

Close My Eyes

Triple Helix (prod. by Phaoid)

Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/3VQWvRTDM3F2gu3Ow5YJRd?si=lQgn61-7TTS7EulyMzZJLw&dl_branch=1 

follow sleeps x:
@sleepsx
twitter.com/familypetmars

lyrics:
i know that you got
skeletons in your closet why not share them? 
im not one to judge you baby tell me whats the outcome 
you know i fucking hate it when you don’t speak 
just tell me whats been on your mind lately 

7 months and a heartbreak later 
i don’t tknow if i’ll ever find somebody greater 
im standing in a fire filled with broken glass 
you can cut me with the shards and i’d still take you back

and i just want you to know that i got 

broken bottles over polaroids
i need to find my way back home to you i hope
that you’ll be there when im gone
i can’t even lie im not strong 

right now i mean nothing but its comforting 
to know that at some point i was your everyting                 
now i’ll lie and say i’m better on my own now 
i don’t think i’ll get over how you left me out at sea to drown 
alright alright, 
i’m not doing fine 
lay awake and staring at the ceiling 
with the thought of y ou at night 
alright alright 
im not doing fine 
those pictures of your face are keeping me laying awake at night 

broken bottles over polaroids
i need to find my way back home to you i hope
that you’ll be there when im gone
i can’t even lie im not strong 

so why’d you have to leave love 
i still don’t know how that works 
are you dreaming of me? 
cause i still dream of you 
tell me for what its worth 
i hope its worth the hurt 
i hope its worth 
being 6 feet underneatht the dirt 

broken bottles over polaroids
i need to find my way back home to you i hope
that you’ll be there when im gone
i can’t even lie im not strong

cover by Vict Molina

broken bottles over polaroids (prod. sleeps x)

Don't Feel Right (Prod. Ryan Bevolo x Nico Baran)

“Basic” [Prod. Soso Major, Rio Leyva & Visionexe]

Thoughts Under My Hat (feat. KID E$S)

Spotify: lnkfi.re/heylogaloneagain
AMV: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vFIYFgu2tWY

Artist:
@heylog

Lyrics:
no luck, i'm bored about everyday
you suck and i would say it to your face
know why i'm here but i don't have to stay
it's because i love you so i won't walk away
but that's something i'd say in the past
moving on to new friends, discover new laughs
i've held this loneliness for too long
seeing friends but why do i still feel alone
alone again
i love my life
i burn my hand
i love my life
she asked me,
"how do you do?"
well i hate myself
but what's new?

alone again
i've lost my mind
i heal my skin
oh i'm alright
she asked me,
"so what's new"
well like nothing
and what about you

no luck, i'm bored about everyday
i suck, i do nothing to make a change
building up my anger i got so much hate
if i were you i'd leave, why don't you walk away
but you got something to say? cause you keep staring at me
and i would talk to you but i'm too busy sweating
and the social awkwardness is getting to me
oh i went too long without socializing

so just run away cause i look like a monster
im sorry, that i hurt your daughter
i know your family hates me but your dad yeah he was pretty cool
maybe you should learn from him take off that worthless costume
alone again
i love my life
i burn my hand
i love my life
she asked me,
"how do you do?"
well i hate myself
but what's new?

alone again
i messed up bad
i cut my skin
and grow it back

heylog - alone again

again and again ft. thebreathingbackwards (taylor morgan + saint tomorrow)

say it gets better with time

how does it feel to be loved I can't imagine that
prod. Guala Beatz
mixed by @nolliejaw on IG

Imagine Ft. Guardin (Prod. Guala & 5head)

@cay2o snapped, follow this man

lyrics:

do you remember when I would tell you everything that I felt?
I put my feelings all over your shelf
I felt alive and I came out my shell
but now, I dont know what got into me
pressure from pressure I was stuck and you were pissed at me
but right now thats history

starin at the ceilin
babe where are you?
I want you in my arms
but ig ill call you

like yeah, I been fucked up for almost a year
this life aint shit but I’m here for you
stumblin off track cause I fear the truth
that I’m only here to prove myself

I dont wanna be that
I know that i'm lyin when i tell myself that I need that
you care for me a lot it's not really hard to see that
baby you the best and im sorry that I just cant be like you
im gettin why you tell me what to do
cus we never really talk things thru
we both know thats not like you

like damn
why the fuck you look at me damn
I be doing what I want cause I can
I do what I want cause I'm me
I don't care if you hate you can leave

the ceiling

spotify

the ceiling (prod. cay2o)

Prod by. https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCj5C0NwiOG0MgY5mwf5Ejtw

lyrics: 
I always wonder why you did this to me 
I never got any closure
The pain made me older 
It lingers in my thoughts 
And it haunts me 
Pictures on your facebook  
They taunt me 

I always wonder what it would've been like with you here 
But instead, I'll never know because you disappeared 
Now I feel so unlovable 
cause its all I've ever know

Because when you're ten years old 
You just want your dad 
You never understood how he could be so bad 

I remember laying in your arms 
And feeling so safe 
I didn't know that I would 
Lose you one day 
It's been like 7 years now 
And idk how to process
the fact that i lost you 
It all just feels so wrong 
Idk what to do 
So I'll write another sad song

all i've ever known (Wraith Nîr)

instas:
@lovefromninewaters
@nathandarza
@prodkkquickbrakes

lyrics:
(ninewaters)
feel like my heart's in a prison but it's not committing crimes
i don't care if you leave me, it happens all the time
and i wanna be in love for the rest of my life <33
but it's meant to screw you over by design

yah, and i just learned that the hard way
i wanna find someone to take my hand and run away
i wanna fall in love again, i hope we'll meet another day
yeah you broke my heart, i doubt it can recover aye

i stay yearning, i stay burning
i went too far past the point of no returning
i wouldn't blame you if you're mad cuz i'm still learning
my world is shattered and my friends are all concerned for me

(darza)
i stay lying, i stay dying
i'm always crying, what's the point in even trying
i know she sees the pain, it's too hard for me to hide it
imprisoned in this brain, i think imma start a riot

runnin up on me, don't even try it >:(
tried to sell my soul but satan wouldn't even buy it
poppin all these percocets, don't know how i ain't dyin
and if you wanna leave then go ahead cuz i don't mind it

i don't care if i'm alone, feelings out of my control
maybe i deserve this
i know no one's perfect, but i feel so worthless
every day i'm yearning, every day i'm burning

The Upload 34

Jeferson Steelflex