A song about the agony of deciding whether to settle down or not and society's expectations around that.

Verse 1
Everyone knows better than me
What I should be wanting out of life and… what I need
To live happily
For eternity

Verse 2
Maybe one day I’ll stop settling up and settle down 
And maybe you’re the one that’s still around
When it comes to that
Would you wanna bet?

Chorus
Well I’m not scared enough of ending up alone - just yet
Still think I’m better off being on my own - I bet
you think there must be something wrong with me, I get it
I know you’re probably right and not the first one who said it
Maybe one day I’m grey and old and full of regret
But that’s a long way down the road and I’m not there just yet

Verse 3
Everyone seems to be looking for love
That special someone Disney made us all dream of
From our early days
Like there’s no other way

Verse 4 
Maybe I’m just cynical and secretly crave
That smiling knight in shining armour, so handsome and brave 
Enough to take my hand
And finally understand

Chorus
Well I’m not scared enough of ending up alone - just yet
Still think I’m better off being on my own - I bet
you think there must be something wrong with me, I get it
I know you’re probably right and not the first one who said it
Maybe one day I’m grey and old and full of regret
But that’s a long way down the road and I’m not there just yet

Bridge
At 25, there was still so much life
Ahead, at 29, we all still had plenty of time
At 33, I still wanted nothing but to be free
While half my friends had disappeared into their families
At 34 I wonder if the door’s still open
Or/and if a part of me is actually hoping 
For something I never thought I wanted
And if I don’t get it I’ll forever be haunted
Or if do, I’ll wake up from someone else’s dream
To find a fairytale you’re trapped in is nightmarish scene

Verse 5
Everyone wants someone to hold
If I search long enough I’ll find a fitting nut for this bolt 
Or some other cliché
Will take my breath away

Verse 6
But maybe there’s more than one way to live your life
And maybe mine doesn’t involve two kids and a guy
Or maybe I’ll look back (one day)
On what I could have had…

Chorus
Well I’m not scared enough of ending up alone - just yet
Still think I’m better off being on my own - I bet
you think there must be something wrong with me, I get it
I know you’re probably right and not the first one who said it
Maybe one day I’m grey and old and full of regret
But that’s a long way down the road and I’m not there just yet...

Not There Just Yet (demo)

Bebop And Rocksteady

Supernatant

Bandcamp

Psychotomimetic Philter

Florida

Green Code 2705

Interlude M0844

Storm

Don't look now
But there's a fifty foot woman
Marching toward
Your favorite city

She looks mad
Muttering something about the guts
You never had...

There was a time when your charm set off alarms
Among the young women in your circle
But you played them so aloof
And now they're tearing off your roof
To reach in and grab you not so tenderly
And as you twist and shout, 'Oh, no, it wasn't me!'
They whip their hair back to drink in your distress
And laugh with abandon at your helplessness!

You may wake up to find it was just a dream
Or maybe you've discovered your new reality
The hearts you're breaking, the liberties you're taking 
May catch up with you
In a midnight rendezvous
May catch up with you
in a late show rendezvous...

March of the 50 Foot Women

Do That THING!

Proud Older brother wishing his all-grown-up little sister a very happy Birthday

Happy B-Day Karey Mae 4

Música compuesta e interpretada por Thomas O'Higgins Horna.

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A remastered version of this track is part of "Juvenilia Instrumental", compilation album available now on bandcamp:
https://thomasohigginshorna.bandcamp.com/album/juvenilia-instrumental

Not There Just Yet (demo)

Jenni Grossmann