Love’s A Loaded Gun (And I Pulled The Trigger)

Production by Saint Mike
Vocals & Lyrics by Me
- another blow to the heart again
- why do I do this to myself
- swimming up stream to get some air
- sometimes I wish I would just choke
- yearning for dreamscapes it isn’t fair
- I don’t know what is real
- the more I reach out, seems nothings there
- but still it won’t conclude 

- the minutes the moments, the seconds go by
- it’s still living rent free in my mind
- I drown it all out, pouring into myself
- I love me but I’m so fucking lonley 

- But why was it you
- And not someone else
- I’m dragging my feet
- through some made up hell
- I wish I could speak to my past self
- And tell her to never hit you up again

- new faces come by but I compare
- them to what I saw in you
- trying to fit a circle with a square
- it will never make a two

- the minutes the moments, the seconds go by
- it’s still living rent free in my mind
- I drown it all out, pouring into myself
- I love me but I’m so fucking lonley 

- But why was it you
- And not someone else
- I’m dragging my feet
- through some made up hell
- I wish I could speak to my past self
- And tell her to never hit you up again

- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out
- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out
- just drown it all out
- I'm just drowning it out


#grunge #alternativerock #alternative #alt #emo #deftones

Limerence

DE: Der Song erzählt die Geschichte einer Frau, die trotz einer traumatischen Kindheit, die sie hart und kalt gemacht hat, ihre innere Stärke findet und sich aus der Dunkelheit ins Licht kämpft.

EN: The song tells the story of a woman who, despite a traumatic childhood that left her hard and cold, finds her inner strength and fights her way out of the darkness and into the light.

Lost Girl

There are times you don't know what to do, go out and drink is not the solution, just go home and talk it out.

Waiting for you

Velvet Petals presents "Nostalgia," a deeply moving and beautifully crafted rock ballad. Carried by a haunting piano melody and soulful vocals, the song explores the bittersweet beauty of fading memories, like dust motes dancing in the soft light of the past. Building to an emotional climax with a soaring guitar solo, "Nostalgia" is a fragile art, a melody etched upon the heart. #VelvetPetals #Nostalgia #RockBallad #SoftRock #Melancholic #GuitarSolo #Bittersweet

Nostalgia

This is song written by Jeremy Ryan Martin at a time when he was reminiscing on his past remembering all the loved ones he'd lost particularly his mother he lost when he was in his early 20's

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Sleepyhead

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Second single from the upcoming double album "Hymns from the Tapestry."

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A melancholic cinematic pop-rock confession from someone who has experienced the spotlight’s burn firsthand. The narrator warns a younger dreamer not to mistake the glow for fulfillment, sharing hard-earned lessons about fame, loss of peace, and the emptiness that comes when the “quiet life” disappears. Powerful choruses and intimate verses create a bittersweet, emotional journey of regret, truth, and reluctant guidance.

Don’t Chase the Light

Despot 2 Mix 1 Master 1 (Mastered with Thunder at 50pct)(2)

Jeremy Ryan Martin is a solo rock artist with a sound forged through raw emotion, real-life struggle, and years of hands-on experience in the underground music scene. His passion for music began at 13, when he formed his first band with middle school friends in the early ’90s. By 17, he was already writing original songs and fronting local rock groups, honing his voice and presence on stage.

Throughout his 20s and 30s, Jeremy played in several rock-driven projects, spending countless hours in recording studios learning the craft of mixing and production from seasoned audio engineers and musicians. A self-taught songwriter shaped by hardship, he grew up with a single mom and younger brother, often turning to his guitar as a way to cope and make sense of life.

Jeremy draws inspiration from the gritty rock legends he grew up on—Metallica, Nirvana, Pearl Jam, Candlebox, and other icons of the late ’80s and early ’90s. While those influences echo through his music, it’s his unique voice and deeply personal songwriting that set him apart. Every track he creates is a reflection of resilience, struggle, and healing.

“I love to play my guitar and write songs, but there’s no better feeling than seeing someone else connect with what I’ve created.” – Jeremy Ryan Martin