going through it

streamed on KC radio, but not in the same order

stream4

sadness streisand effect

my head
is all over the place
its not getting better

i cant
seem to make a change
ill be like this forever

23
whole years i
feel retarded all the time

any longer im confined
im gonna lose my god damn mind

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

breakdowns
from anxiety 
i hate being alone

wasting all 
my energy 
staring at my phone

cant focus
for 2 minutes
even if i try

yet another day goes by 
and im still here but i wanna die

staring at the words again 
i cant make sense of anything 
all i see is static in my brain 
need a way to end the pain
id give the whole world to be
a normal boy eventually
instead im rotting to the core
i cant take it anymore

out to lunch

worst 11 months of my life

 think I've been overthinking everything
I think I've thought too much about this
I've come to realise what is wrong and
I didn't even need a therapist, it's you

It's always been you
What you put me through
It's always been you
Fuck you

I can't take anymore
Leave me outside the door
Treat me like I'm a whore
I won't take anymore

It didn't have to be this way
It didn't have to go down like this
You made my world so grey
What the fuck did I do to deserve it?

It's you, I won't take anymore
It's you, leave me outside thе door
It's you, you treat me like I'm a whorе
It's you, I won't take anymore

Fuck you
Fuck you
Fuck you
Yeah, fuck you
Fuck you

its funny people thing this isnt a joke song

Letter to an Ex

Pale face on a winter afternoon
sleep-deprived but I dreamt of you
I made friends with the shadows on the wall
you can win some but you lose it all

I think I'm better off alone
sinking like a stone
i don't got a breath you could take anyways
put me down below
rotting in my tomb
wearing out my bones
I'm better off alone

sweat dripping on a summer afternoon
you called up I said hey fuck you
who you think you are not so fast
you can come over and kiss my ass

Better Off Alone

I think shes pretty cool (idk..)

theres a government in my pocket
advertisements in my eye socket
everybody go praise prophets
everybody praises what profits

here the people crying slowly
hear the prayers are unholy
here the people are more than merry
here evils the virgin mary

it makes me cry
youre dead inside
it makes me cry
i wanna commit suicide

free will will make you a slave
so enslave yourself to drugs and games
play the games the way we say
and say the things we advocate

"dont be a slave to devotion
dont be a slave to god
dont think about your emotions
dont think just sit in pod"

it makes me cry
youre dead inside
it makes me cry
i wanna commit suicide

Intrusive Thoughts

If i was honest id take to go back home
Everyones going to blackies after school
Theres nothing better than stepping on your feet
Don’t stay around those folks they wanna show you hell

Then i fell off my board
With my face on the shore
Tell my momma im torn
I aint surfin no more

When we younger we let the fire die
And Now weve learned to go out and hit the tides
So take your last breath one day it call comes down
Dont take the long way home they wanna show you hell

Then i fell off my board
With my face on the shore
Tell my momma im torn
I aint surfin no more

If i was honest id take to go back home
Everyones going to blackies after school
Theres nothing better than stepping on your feet
Don’t stay around those folks they wanna show you hell

Then i fell off my board
With my face on the shore
Tell my momma im torn
I aint surfin no more

Im gonna this summer 
Stay home and be a bummer(x4)

Blackies (Jaded Juice Riders Cover)

Running On Empty

I Can't Go Back To Her

junk

edgelord

Shadow People

You don’t really wanna get in my way
I’m a madman, got my finger behind the trigger
I’m a wild card you’ll never know what I’ll do
I’m a killer, I’m a beater, I’m a cheater, I’m a winner
Walk up to your house with this Glock 45
There’s No hope for you I’ll make sure you die
Talking a lot of smack but you look so laid back
Just so you know I’m always on the attack

There’s a shootout at the 7/11
There’s nowhere to run and you won’t go to heaven
People are dropping and hearts are stopping
There ain’t no more time for shopping
There’s a shootout at the 7/11
There’s nowhere to run and you won’t go to heaven
People are dropping and hearts are stopping
There ain’t no more time for shopping

When you see the spray of my colt 44
You better running out those doors
Cause I can’t stop I’m a maniac
I always knew that I would be smoking crack
Shooting up heroin, they might call me black
They way I got this bread, i’m always counting stacks
You don’t wanna mess with me and the mac
I’m telling you man you better watch your back

There’s a shootout at the 7/11
There’s nowhere to run and you won’t go to heaven
People are dropping and hearts are stopping
There ain’t no more time for shopping
There’s a shootout at the 7/11
There’s nowhere to run and you won’t go to heaven
People are dropping and hearts are stopping
There ain’t no more time for shopping

7/11

Lyrics:

Oh no, oh my, you've wasted your entire life
Degeneracy is the way that you chose, it comes and it goes
Drug-addled fuck, well, I think that you already know
Your time is past and there is nothing left for you

Ohhhhhhh
You thought that it would be so easy
Yeahhhhhh
It's not what it seems

In the end it all meant nothing
Oh yeah, you've got no friends
All the people that you think that you know
Well, they're laughing at you
You'll always lonely, you'll always be broken too

Lala lala lala

And whores like you, run out of things to do
Eventually all that you'll havе is yourself
So drink to your health, until you forget what you arе
It's pretty scary when you realise

In the end it all meant nothing
Oh yeah, you've got no friends
All the people that you think that you know
Well, they're laughing at you
You'll always lonely, you'll always be broken too

It's so easy to waste your life away
No hope and no future, only yesterday
And I know that it's never your fault
I know and I know that it's never your fault

It meant nothing
Nothing

Demo

In the End it Meant Nothing

A Punk Song

LOW-T

stay inside
all the time
all the thoughts
in my mind
cannot change
my fucking life
so just let
me fucking hide

Do Drugs Read Manga Drop Out

can't even read a book
my head's too cooked 

not even if i tried
my brain's too fried

a slave to dopamine
a flesh machine

a short attention span
blame instagram

i'm just an addict
need my kicks, it's sick

can't even watch tv
must see my screen

i'm just dead inside
can't cry (i've tried)

i only laugh at memes
living the dream

prison
my laptop's a prison 
my cell phone's a prison
my pc's a prison
please let me out
 
rectangular prison 
liquid crystal prison
silicon prison
and i can't get out

my phone is a prison 
they're all fucking prisons
give me parole
and let me out
 
i don't get a lawyer
i don't get a trial
i get 20 to life
and i can't get out

what keeps me up at night 
my phone's blue light

i hold it my hand 
just to fall asleep

it makes me feel secure
stockholm syndrome

just waiting for the bell
the buzz, the beep

like a parasite
i live on bytes

i see red thing i click
to get my fix

"it makes you satisfied",
they said (they lied)

refresh the page again
might change, must check

prison
my laptop's a prison 
my cell phone's a prison
my pc's a prison
please let me out
 
rectangular prison 
liquid crystal prison
silicon prison
and i can't get out

my phone is a prison 
they're all fucking prisons
give me parole
and let me out
 
i don't get a lawyer
i don't get a trial
i got 20 to life...

just one shot at life
i guess i lose

i'm playing a game 
i did not choose

stuck here in my cell
a living hell

the devil is a dell
samsung
intel

Intrusive Thoughts

Jimbo Falcone