Hate and Love

Mother Sorrow

The Tall Grass

In Case You Do Not See Me Again

what would it be like if i can make contact with people in meaningful ways
as of now i struggle to even communicate
the complexities of their messages leave me feeling restless
sporadic sounds that i cant master, an advanced calculus lecture
they seem to transmit their thoughts and ideas so smoothly
the movements of their mouth in unison and perfectly in tune
as a human myself, i often wonder how can they do it
i guess this is what intelligent life is capable of doing
job interviews, making friends, dating, a misty hiss against the backdrop of eternity
words that seem so dispersed
indecipherable, as remote but steady as pulsars and im trying to learn it
a language i know, but yet sounds like a code
as close as anyone could go without bumping a nose
but a remote planet, without the technology to ever go
light years from ever reaching its goal
i dont think i will ever be able to make contact with people
herculean efforts that end up feeble
frequently i have tried but i can never reach them
im just an inferior species that doesn't have the ability to speak with them
and too often i believed in them
i just dont have the intelligence to understand this shit
what they make look so trivial is like ascending the mountains
i just cant keep up as they race thru the timeline of civilization
left behind in my ramblings, i gave up on chasing
this notepad im facing is the only language i can communicate with

contact

Phenomenon of Luminescence

When It Is Time To Say Goodbye

lyrics written and performed by Joshua "Banjoe" Paterson 

production, mixing and mastering done by Leonard "OMPT" Johnson 

Who Knows?

Fake shiiiiiit

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Joanna Jeanine Schmidt is a multidisciplinary artist. She combines surrealism with raw autobiography in her writings and visuals. "Detritus," which is a 118-page memoir about mental health issues and relocations, and "Personal Poetry of Joanna," an art piece that pairs words with color photography, draw from her journals, mental health struggles, existential philosophy, and gender identity. Schmidt weaves together surreal narratives and experimental prose, exploring the human condition and the search for connection through her poetic and philosophical writings, offering unfiltered insights into the complexities of modern life.

When It Is Time To Say Goodbye

Joanna Jeanine

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