Norwegian Wood

Norwegian Wood (in the style of The Beatles)

Settle Down

Grapefruit

an open letter to the ones who made me feel less, the ones who couldn't love me, and the ones who stepped on me in 2017. i am full of hope that 2018 will be filled with better human beings.

written, performed, and produced by holyveins

LYRICS:
maybe i should stay in bed all day
and hide away from the sun
it’s not like anyone wanted me anyway
although i wanted anyone

oh i thrive off your attention
but i know i’m just an extension
take me bit by bit, i’ll be a part of you
take me whole, i’ll try to be better for you

maybe i should stay down on the floor
and only come up when they call
i’ve only ever wanted to be more
i only wanted to grow tall

maybe i should stop putting myself down
for all of your stupid mistakes 
i’m tired of letting myself drown
cause i’m not the one to blame

oh i thrive off your attention
but i know i’m just an extension
you took me bit by bit, i’m not a part of you
you took me whole, i’m still not better for you

oh fuck you for making me feel so small
oh fuck you for making me feel so warm
i’m exhausted, exhausted of it all

oh fuck you for hanging me on the wall
fuck you for telling me i was wrong
i’m exhausted, exhausted of it all

Exhausted - Single

Exhausted

a song i wrote when i didn't want to be alone

i want to be near you 
never leave you oh i, 
i, will never leave 
as long as you choose, to stay with me 
i know, it feels like the world is falling at our feet 
but take my hand, its yours i swear 
together we’ll make it out alive 
i…… x2 
i know it gets hard and i 
i know things get tough and i- 
know somedays we don’t wanna try 
i know i get tough sometimes 
i know i’m so unusually tired, of being alive 
but i swear, when i look into your eyes 
everything comes alive 
i feel like i can breathe again 
i feel like my world is falling into place 
you say i, exaggerate 
you couldn’t be more wrong 
i would never lie 
i would never try to make you feel alone…, 
baby, 
won’t you stay with me, throughout the cold 
i need, you to be with me 
baby, please promise you’ll stay its getting kinda lonely 
it's getting kinda lonely in my bed 
would you stay next to me? stay with me? 
in need you with me 
won’t you please, stay with me ?

please, stay with me ?

What Keeps Me Up

thanks to uma - @https://soundcloud.com/user-998191564 <3 
& to maiya suckling for cover art! <3

(verse)
Put your mouth away,
because your eyes they tell me more than your words ever could say,
and it's already breaking my heart,
just seeing you this way.
(chorus)
How can I be sure of my feelings when you're not around,
how can I know I'm doing it right I have so much self doubt,
how can we watch the leaves fall without the fear of time running out,
how did we learn to hold back our tears,
won't our insides drown?
(verse)
In the water when you look at yourself, 
who's reflection do you see?
I've been searching for answers in your eyes for so long,
I can't find them,
maybe it's just me.
(chorus)
How can I be sure of my feelings when you're not around,
how can I know I'm doing it right I have so much self doubt,
how can we watch the leaves fall without the fear of time running out,
how did we learn to hold back our tears,
won't our insides drown?
(bridge)
My knees are weak I feel I might fall down,
(My tears stain the bedsheets,)
I'm suffocating standing in this crowd,
(your blood it stains my rosy cheeks,) 
my knees are weak I feel I might fall down,
(how can I trust you when you're not true to yourself,)
I'm suffocating, I'm going to drown. 
(where have you gone?)
(outro)
When I woke up this morning I nearly forget your face,
when I woke up this morning I wanted to forget your face,
when I wake up tomorrow I hope I'm in a new headspace,
tie my shoelaces real tight and walk to a new place.

SELF DOUBT - feat. (the lovely)UMA

will you still love me tomorrow

Hello my dearest Soundcloud friends, 
Here is a song that I wrote and recorded in my Voice memos on the floor of a shower. I was in London, feeling vulnerable and lonely. I sent the song to one of my dearest friends Tahnee. It was only intended to be a draft but I told her that in the future I'd like to sing something like this with her.
She got back to me recently with a copy of the song that she had recorded harmonies, banjo and violin on. It made me cry with happiness and I wanted to share this with you. 
You can find Tahnee's Soundcloud and Spotify name under
 ~ Tahnee Ollerton ~
So please check her out if you haven't already. 
If you would like a copy of the lyrics let me know. 
All my love, 
Isabella X

(i don't know) how to be happy

joseph