Softhearted

Sure its some edgy cliché overly poetic bullshit but its still true

but nothings for nothing. 

@waitingoncisco did some extra guit stems

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-nothings-really-everlasting-lyrics

Nothings really everlasting

guitar by : @waitingoncisco

lyrics:

i could be fake too
just not how i make do
it's not that i hate you 
well i don't know
hard to be great you know 
it's hard to be grateful
it's hard to be thankful
so i don't show
you know we all hurt it's just life
baby i get lost in the midnight
we all got problems i just admit mine
at night my eyes wont close

if i'm a star i'm burnt out and looking down
just cause she love me right now
don't mean she'll always be around
always stoned and in my house 
don't got nobody i can count on 
just stay tucked off by myself
oh i 
only get in my zone when i get on my own
all alone
she hit me up at all
and i shut off my phone
i go ghost
i swear she got those words you feel in your bones
who would have known
the prettiest face would have the ugliest soul

yeah but im a loverboy what'd you expect from me
i swear pretty girls will be the death of me
step to me i'm in the sky
baby i been hearing lies 
all my fucking life
so i always treat them nice
so when they fuck me over i don't even think twice
i just cut em off i don't even want a slice
imma leave her blocked
wish my heart weren't so soft 
wish you weren't my first fuck
all the shit is so dumb

now i just find safety in how 
these memories start all fading
put a knife inside my back
then ask why i'm so filled with hatred

anything but give you space and i'd rather erase myself
put the hurt of my back
chasing feeling's never helps

i could be fake too
just not how i make do
it's not that i hate you, 
well i don't know
hard to be great you know 
it's hard to be grateful
it's hard to be thankful
so i don't show
you know we all hurt it's just life
baby i get lost in the midnight
we all got problems i just admit mine
at night my eyes wont close

ghostboy. (with waitingoncisco)

fucking call me or something

LYRICS: https://genius.com/Softheart-and-guccihighwaters-downers-lyrics

huge thanks to the homie
@guccihighwaters

instrumentation by: @noahwalker
mixing/mastering by: softheart
production by: softheart, vowl.

free download

Downers (feat. guccihighwaters)

Nocturnal

guitar by @noahwalker
lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-hell-if-youre-with-me-lyrics

hell if you're with me

lyrics: https://genius.com/Softheart-smile-more-lyrics

Smile More

When You Smile (with waitingoncisco)

@sorrow_bringer

lyrics

Fishing off the crescent
Its just something in the air
Its just hard to be prepared
Is there something that i said
Got something to do quick
You go on ill meet you there
I dont wanna read too deep 
Know the world can make you scared
Stay bright
I dont wanna go dont say goodbye
I feel the most sane when it gets around 2 at night
I guess i'm just not the type to follow the light
yeah
And i wanna know how the smoke lights up and glows
I see the curtain in flow from the open window
Nothing has been like before
Honestly i wanna know 
yeah i wanna know why its fucked
I wanna know what is up
I bend and fold i just crunch
Im on my own out to lunch
All of those flowers fill up the pot
Fake shit i deal with it a lot
I do not know what they want
Load up a bowl and blast off
Gimme a dose gimme a blot
Roll me a bone leave me in shock
Pulling my soul out my body
Im in a foreign place and im lost
To the front please move to the front 
I could have it all but its shit i dont want
Smoke so much surprised i can still use my lungs
Yeah I was so tied down now im all strung up
On a crutch i weigh
Always so stuck in my head
And i always find some way to fuck it up
But im just trying my best and things are looking up 
Things are looking up
Im not stuck im not in a rut
Used to always want an explanation now its just because
Had to open up the door i used to keep it shut
I guess you should do it if you think you must
Fishing off the crescent
Its just something in the air
Its just hard to be prepared
Is there something that i said
Got something to do quick
You go on ill meet you there
I dont wanna read too deep 
Know the world can make you scared
Stay bright
I dont wanna go dont say goodbye
I feel the most sane when it gets around 2 at night
I guess i'm just not the type to follow the light

Stay Bright (with sorrow bringer)

Are You Alright (live from home)

All Smiles Here

The Way That You Use It

a remake of one of the first songs i posted on this page. 

shoutout to the dude that kept asking me to drop this here ya go lmao

Pretty

main guitar loop by Sorrow Bringer! @sorrow_bringer

Nosedive 2

guitar and drums performed by Cisco
@waitingoncisco

One Day Youll Get What You Deserve (with waitingoncisco)

guitar done by Cisco
@waitingoncisco

song is heavily inspired by Daughter and Ex:Re

Only Almost (with waitingoncisco)

guitar & drums performed by Cisco
@waitingoncisco

destiny calls 
and then i open doors  
just dont press me at all
i run out on the porch 
and then out on the yard
im crushing leaves when i stomp
i get lost tell me 
who the imposter and
who swiped the card
only human interaction is 
through discord calls
and the creeks
in the floor
sound like your name in these halls
bang my head
on the wall 
oh how foolish i was
to believe 
anything
any opinion at all 

innocence 
on the kids face 
telling you its so hard to love you 
so hard to cry its like my eyes are all just shriveled up 
no thoughts, rivers ran dry 

and i cant go back to my decisions in the past
but for some reason that don't stop me from thinkin bout 'em
all the time

if theres somewhere i could be its 
you holding me in your arms 
i keep pushing on the feeling
while trying my best to hold on 

i can be dramatic
overload my senses 
I'm over my head
I'm just holding my breath in
theres somn bout the fresh snow
on the deck 
looks so nostalgic
i grab my blanket
and curl myself into a ball
my chest still drops when my phone goes off
as if you're still calling its so dumb, i 

try not to lose the magic
i just mess it up if i 
think too much about it
try my best to stop always thinkin bout bad shit
life's got both aspects its euphoric and tragic
i can't pretend as if one is more valid
i'll find the balance 
at least i hope, i hope, i hope

Softhearted

John00Ninja