bro why isnt this niggas songs the st for cyberpunk?

John IS my savior my girlfriend hate him, but this dude IS god to me

this is the perfect mental deterioration music

Found by XEMERZ on a random Russian website, recovered by me. Originally uploaded to John’s SoundCloud for 2 hours on Valentine’s Day in 2019. Cover Art found by Genius.com User: “Malevolent :3”

Lyrics:
I’m sorry for the things I’ve done (done)
That’s apologizing to myself and I don’t feel alright
I feel like before the bloody [?] fuck with valentine
Tomorrow be back to normal, it’s another [?]
Eyes creep to the back of my mind

One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
One, two, three, four
Yuh, yuh, yuh, yuh,

Go, I wanna just float
Float above the clouds in the skys and make it my home
Castle in the sky, float
Fuck a earthly love
I don’t want to feel pitty 
I want to stay with you 

Im sorry, for the things that i have done (done)
(Purple sticker, purp-purple sticker)

Valentine Blues

[FOUND] Johnnascus- Valentine Blues(prod.sleepingforyears)

OK NOW PICK UP THE GUN RIGHT 
DONT WANNA RUN NO MORE WANNA SHOOT IT OUT
AND EVERYONE I LOOKED UP TO IS JUST A LOOSER NOW

BETTER FIND A SOLUTION 
CAUSE ALL THE BRIANS ARE POLLUTED 
THERE AINT NO WINNIN WE LOOSIN
AND ANYONE IS FUCKED

YEAH YEAH YEAH 

IM INVISIBLE
NOBODY ME 

WAIT FOR SOMETHING
DIE FOR NOTHING
REPEAT THAT SHIT THEN GO RIDE 
FOR YOUR BROTHREN

I CANT DO SHIT BUT JUST DIE TO STRESS IT ENOUGH
CANT GET BULLETS OFF MY MIND IM READY TO CLUTCH

BROKEN BONES IN MY CHEST IM UNABLE TO MOVE
NEVER SHOWED ME RESPECT SO WHAT IS IT TO YOU

BROKEN BONES IN MY CHEST (PROD. SKOTSKR)

C8H11O2​+​C10H12N2O​+​C43H66N12O12S2 [untitled_0017​]​] [Slowed/Modified]]

Burning Red

I Dont Wanna Do This Anymore (prod. LC2K)

I don't like this dream
I must wake up
Fuck this life
I'll break out the prison of time

# 1 9
I am 19
Wasted another year made no change
I've only made some change
Guess im grown
Living on my own
Thanks to GI bill
Cause really i, am so bloody broke
Social
Anxiety still
Got me by the neck
Can't be like "fuck it fuck it"
Cause i
overthink all the time
Wanna leave the old me
Put him to the crows
Wanna kill myself 
To regrow
Anything to break the cycle
The cycle of habits, cycle of habits

Muhfuckin everything
That i wanna be mentally
Is the opposite of me currently
And it's been like this since i was 15
i like the thoughts of it but take no steps
But when i do, i just back track 
Or i just go around and around (repeated)

Fuck this predetermined life
I need to move forward (x2)
I just need to move forward
Fuck the voice in my head, I'll control it

Verse4: 
If i cannot break the cage
I'll end it all
If i cannot break the cage
I'll end it all
I am 19 and i must grow
Breakthrough on my own

19 BIRTHDAY

To Exercise My Demons
DL: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/plague-cross

Moving towards nothing
I'm in a prison
Colour is grey
Its purgatory
I go to sleep
Then masturbate
Then i go eat
Rotting my brain
Feeding it nonsense
Keep all the helpful things at a good distance
Maybe self destructive
Maybe loathe attention
I don't know maybe i should just stop-

I was just
I was in a rut
In a bad state of mind
Will not go back this time
I'll try a little
But i have discipline
Will not divulge in it 

Have no self control
Tried a lot of it
And it's sucking me in
The grey takes all my tints
I don't want to go back
I don't want to go back to

Living this damn life
Living this shit life of
Moving towards nothing
I'm in a prison
Colour is black
I don't know what is
I go to sleep
Repressed Energy

Stuck (repeated)
I want to leave
I want to flee
Want to escape
Want to be free (repeated)

Trapped

To Exercise My Demons
DL: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/plague-cross

Clench my jaw
Clench my teeth
They shatter
And are broken
Clench my jaw
Clench my teeth
Caught lock jaw
Can't open
Clench my jaw
Clench my teeth
Feel the pain as i choke and bleed
Clench my jaw
Clench my teeth
I can't escape my own body
Can't ask for help
I can't even speak
They think im deranged, mental, weak
Walking around with teeth falling out 
Then i found a way to end it all now
End this physical prison that i'm in
This threshold of pain, i cannot stand it
There's only one way to end it all in a blip
You know what is,
Do not have say it

Clenched Jaw

To Exercise My Demons
DL: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/plague-cross

KILLING ALL THESE RAPPERS THEY SOME DART TAGS.
I FUCKING HEAD SMASH.
YOUR BODY ON THE CEMENT.
NO LONGER HUMAN.
YOU DO NOT KNOW ME.
GO HEAD, DISOWN ME.
DON'T NEED YOUR LOVING
DON'T NEED YOUR LOVING

Where the sanity in me (x4)
This is not me
The insanity in me (x4)
It's apart of me

1 2 3 4.
YOUR HEAD JUST BLOW.
RIGHT OFF YOUR BODY.
YOU CAN'T FUCKING GROW.
I DO NOT CARE.
I'LL TAKE YOUR LIFE.
CAUSE I DO NOT CARE BOUT MUHFUCKIN MINE.
I SAY DECAY
GO AHEAD
DON'T BREATHE
I SAY DECAY
GO AHEAD
DON'T BREATHE 
I SAY I NEED TO FEEL REAL PAIN
I SAY I NEED TO FEEL REAL PAIN
I SAY I NEED TO FEEL REAL PAIN

Where the sanity in me (x4)
This is not me
The insanity in me (x4)
It's apart of me

*SCREAM*
*AD-LIBS*
I SAY I NEED TO FEEL REAL PAIN

Where the sanity in me (x4)
This is not me
The insanity in me (x4)
It's apart of me

Reality Of Resentment (Prod. LC2K & JOHNNASCUS)

To Exercise My Demons
DL: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/plague-cross

BMG:
so much energy
the fodder cannot be compared to me
i’m a travesty
jagged immolation through your cavity
i’m the majesty
in a boss battle
hard to handle
rocket packin’
and abandoned
self commanding
hell combatant
marked up
by my attachment

bitch i hit quad damage
with the gauss cannon
in a butchery
and i’m the bloody craftsman
summoner up in a chokehold
i just broke bold
with the black magic
horns up on me
2k damage
bitch, claws in you like that
new tricks, alter shit, fuck you 
*scream*

Demigod:
verse1: 
eeeeeee i 
Want you really want from me i
Oh really wanna see i
Oh sometimes you never see i
Stuck in a room
4 walls, grey color
What do i do
So i just sit here wanting to decay
But i can't
So i lay
What do i do (repeated)

verse2
(kumo)
what do i do
very honest question
That i ask myself
Every single day 
Continue to contemplate
To escape the rat race
My thoughts do not reflect my actions
So it's time to go on 
Rampage
And escape the cage
Of tame
What hell am i?
Demigod
Don't wanna live to
Be a pawn
To the world or my
Own self
Kill the bad habits
They stale
They just destroy my
Brain cells
They belong to
Past times
They just stunt my growth
So i
Drag them by the neck
To Hel-
Heim
To be forever frozen in time

Baron V2 (Ft. BRUHMANEGOD) [Prod. Landfill & JOHNNASCUS]

To Exercise My Demons
DL: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/plague-cross

*hums and says stuff*

I'm so sick 
I'm so sick and tired yes
I will cut the wire stress
I will cut the wir-
Do
Not Ignore
Fucking Me
I Will Rip
Out Your Spleen
Caught Off Guard
Never Looking
Life ain't easy as it seems
Do Not Ignore
Fucking Me
I Will Rip
Out Your Spleen
You underestimate my fucking being
You shall pay for false judging

Pay (×6)
now say your fucking grace

The Miniscule Kill

To Exercise My Demons
DL: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/plague-cross

Living in denial
Till you get like fucked bro
Living like the nile
Till you get like cut throat
Bleed into river
As you see the blood go
Mix in with the water
Chaos entered the flow
Imma take off
Ain't no fucking meyday
Ain't no fucking mistake
Lord JOHNNASCUS imma
Alien ok k k
You wan try to erase me
Can't do that oh no no way
I will just infect the world
In people's hearts or like a virus
. . *kumo fucker*
I just want more eyes
To see all the time
Pierce through all the phalilicies 
And you could never creep on me
Look at all realities
See all possibilities
Cause this life ain't thrilling me
I need something real extreme
kumo fucker (repeated)

Sirens In The Night

no $$$ (ft. JOHNNASCUS) (prod. Landfill)

DOWNLOAD: https://johnnascus.bandcamp.com/album/untitled-0007-0020-0001

New Year
New Me
Decade
2020.
Out the world
I look and see
Everyone
Including me.
Dissociate
Get Away
From 
Reality okay.
I need
Rebirth
A new slate
Massive change.
In my head
Too much
Too much
Too much
Escape esotericism.
But that's my
My home
Why would I escape my home
I don't know
Maybe it never was 
Or I let it consume me.
I feel like
A fucking fraud
I'm fucking lost 
What do I do 
I don't know
I don't ask for help
So I keep it all inside.
Until it explodes
And I'm out my mind
And then I want to [REDACTED]]
But I'm too [REDACTED]]
So i lay
Lay
Lay
Lay
Lay
Why do i destroy everything that i fucking own

Trapped

JOHNNASCUS

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