Why does this You-n-I-verse allow the Best of Us to Age and Crumble when they have given us so much and asked for so little in return?

True Superheroes should live forever, g-dammit.

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LYRICS

After the first, Scared shadow of a man
stares at me 
and says “I see myself, son’s eyes scream everything”

Then he says,

“Not so long ago, I’m in your place, 
glare at own dad’s face
and hear myself, Confused and questioning”

At what moment in the growing weight 
of a life does it break one’s back
at what point does one run away from the light
and pray to fade through to the black?

He struggles to explain, 
but thought and memory soar free 
from a plaintive self
the strain so deafening

In this fluorescent silence 
a gap of decades 
and five feet separate our selves
why can’t I say anything?

Awkward moments, statements slur together, 
can’t even sense if he is still himself
where is the one who for years kept us glued together?

Where is the father who raised us from the start
that Big Red lug who moved mountains 
with his superman heart
Where is that strength when he needs it to live
Why does world take from one who only knows how to give?

***

Second time worse, three days and nights in straps and drips, 
full-intubated self
scared, darting eyes that don’t see anything

At what moment in the growing weight 
of a life does it break one’s back
at what point does one run away from the light 
and pray to fade through to the black?

Where is the father who raised us from the start
that Big Red lug who moved mountains 
with his superman heart
where is that strength when he needs it the most
how do I stop a soul from leaving its fraying host?

Moving Mountains - The Two Attempts

Leavin Lonely

April Fools

Third track from this project, inspired by Ann Leckie's book, "Ancillary Justice". One of the instruments I chose for this came with that lo-fi, warm, white noise, analogue, vinyl feel. You can't miss it, I've let it dominate the recording... or should I say, I've let the compressor decide! In the end, I think it helps with the slightly bluesy, smoky guitar lick. Breq's developing relationship with Seivarden is a central theme in the book. 

The illustration is by Tom Fowler (on tumbler). It shows Breq holding Seivarden by the scruff of the neck... very different to the two of them on the book cover.  I love the way Leckie's book plays with the reader's gender perceptions.
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Seivarden

Lyrics:
They say smiling hides pain
But what really hides the pain
Is going through the motions 
With no expression
I'm standing here  in limbo
One day it’s acceptance then it’s back to depression
But I don’t need anyone to worry
As long as I have some time left
How could I be in any kind of hurry?

A little forward motion never hurt anyone
I have my days when my heart's not breaking
I know I have more to come
A little forward motion never hurt anyone
We can make it out of this
We’re staying ‘cause we’re far from done

Do I really want to come in here?
There is a song I just can’t sing
‘Cause it’s too much about the last year.
It’s a good crowd on a Wednesday
The place is clean and vented
I really shouldn't be feeling the fear

But I have to lay low again
But I've been working on some fresh tunes
That I finally get to share with my friends

A little forward motion never hurt anyone
Baby stepping through the setbacks
Relearning how to have fun
A little forward motion never hurt anyone
We can make it out of this
We’re staying ‘cause we’re far from done

A Little Forward Motion

A wonderful gift from DComposeuR 
https://soundcloud.com/dcomposeur
Thank you very much!!

DCOMPOSEUR - OPEN COLLAB (SOUND ZYGOTE COVER Raðulfr Maganhar)

In this life 
We really only have ourselves
In this life we´re with
We're only with ourselves constantly

No escaping from our self
We just have to believe in it
No escaping from our self 
Even when we do not see it

No escaping from our self
We just have to believe in it
Doubt feeds doubt
Confidence feeds confidence
This is what he said to me

IN THIS LIFE (for a friend)

What absolute joy I have been able to experience in recent weeks by working together with these three eminent musicians, composers and producers.
Dan-DT, Ed Cunningham and David Dunham. It's the first time all four of us have collaborated and the result is "The Quietude".
I am very honored, and filled with joy!
So a very warm thank you gentlemen for your generosity and friendship. ;)

Since the theme of this song is the "inner stillness" we all need sometimes, there is also a video for this song on my youtube channel. Please watch it as it adds another dimension to these gentlemen's eminent musical abilities. ;)
You can find it here: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=AxFYED8OEeQ

Many thanks Dan for the very beautiful and appropriate track image you created!

We wish you all a moment of "inner stillness". ;)

Listen to more of Dan-DT's wonderful music here: https://soundcloud.com/dan-t-3

Listen to more of Ed Cunningham's wonderful music here: https://soundcloud.com/westtracksmusic

Listen to more of David Dunham's wonderful music here: https://soundcloud.com/david-dunhamuser589535203

The Quietude - Dan DT, Ed Cunningham, David Dunham, Seagull

This is a slightly different project than I usually post here. ;)

So join us on a 20-minute journey through time and space and make your choice. But you get the absolute most out of the journey by watching the video on my YouTube channel. ;)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DNgy5f-6Plc

Narrator - Peter. Poet, songwriter and storyteller that you can find here: https://soundcloud.com/user-264930040

Music and video - Seagull

We wish you a pleasant journey. ;)

Loke

Your Choice - Video on my YouTube channel

DO YOU REALLY KNOW 
HOW MUCH WE REALLY DO 
LOVE YOU?
 A BROTHER IN LAW CAN BE A BROTHER TOO YOU KNOW 
YOUR STICKING CATS FACES ALL OVER THE PLACES
 IS ONE REASON MORE TO LOVE YOU 
BUT
 LET’S GET SERIOUS BOY DELIRIOUS  YOU ARE LIKE
 DRESSED UP AS A LORD CHANGING THE OIL OF YOUR CAR 
OR SPEEDING DOWN A SLOPE THAT EVEN NOT THE POPE 
ON HIS HOLY SKIS  WOULD COPE WITH 
DO YOU REALLY KNOW HOW MUCH WE REALLY DO LOVE YOU?

WHAT’S THE MATTER WITH US WHAT’S THE MATTER WITH YOU 
WHY DO WE LOVE YOU SO MUCH?

DO WE REALLY KNOW HOW MUCH WE REALLY DO LOVE YOU? 
WANNA HAVE A BEER? KANSAS CITY HERE I COME 
ME NO ENGINEER  BUT WE STILL COULD CHEER AND STRUM 
I’D LIKE TO SHAKE THE PAW OF VIRGINIA WOOF 
AND VISIT YOU FOR A GOOF 
YOU DON’T REALLY KNOW HOW MUCH THEY REALLY DO LOVE YOU 
YOU DON’T REALLY KNOW HOW MUCH I REALLY DO LOVE YOU 
DO YOU REALLY KNOW HOW MUCH WE REALLY DO LOVE YOU 
DO YOU REALLY KNOW HOW MUCH WE REALLY DO LOVE YOU?

DO YOU REALLY KNOW? (Lyrics) song for David

Filthy Dance

My music combines rock with various styles of dance music. If you are interested in online collaborations or think I've got something to offer your RI/ Southern MA band, you can reach me at jefuller3@gmail.com

I use 1,2 or 3 guitars and a Macbook with Logic Pro X.

Thanks to all of you who have listened and liked so far for your support.

A Little Forward Motion

Jon Fuller