Definitely want to check out your latest with Janine while I'm here. I wouldn't be surprised if I heard this on a recent Anything Goes. :)

Ooh, i like that more chill middle bit. A sit and await the next moment kinda feel.

Great track. That was a lot of fun, you two. :)

Great track Jonathan; fine vocals; a haunting quality to this excellent sound production!

An edge to this one, a brooding pulse, the dark theme of death's finality...But I detect a tone of resoluteness as well. Perfect combination between two great artists. Brilliant as always Jonathan.

Daily Drops

I’m Going home

All the things that I have to tell her remain unspoken
The right words just don’t show up, within my mind
All I ask is How're you doing, are you happy?
Don’t dare to ask if she has a lover, or a child

So long I’ve waited to see her again
And now I don’t know what to do or when
I’m going home
Each night I feel that my lover’s heart is beating only for her
But I’m going home

At last we make a move, our chairs a bit closer
I smell her hair and touch her left knee with my hand
A warm pain runs through my heart as she says no lover
Has ever meant very much to her

So long I’ve waited to see her again
And now I don’t know what to do or when
I’m going home
Each night I feel that my lover’s heart is beating only for her
But I’m going home

After closing time I linger by her blue car
Until we finely kiss and she says goodbye
Then she starts her car and she leaves me standing
Alone with my shadow in an empty parkinglot

So long I’ve waited to see her again
And now I don’t know what to do or when
I’m going home
Each night I feel that my lover’s heart is beating only for her
But I’m going home
I’m going home
I’m going home

I'm Going Home

I'm in the middle. I'm not yet 9 years old, but I already knew I was going to teach music even though I had only started playing at age 7. I would bring my friends inside and give them lessons on how to play Chopsticks and later, Heart and Soul. The family in the photo doesn't exist anymore, and hasn't for a long time.  Some of my family is still living, but there is absolutely no communication. There is only animosity and disrespect directed at me. At least that is how I feel. I'm alone.  There is no love or caring. Sad, isn't it? I gave up.

Growing up between 1954 and 1972, when I left home to go to school, I had no intention of moving back to my hometown.

I had a wonderful childhood. Children today don't experience the joy of being a child whose sole objective was being able to play outside with a dozen other neighborhood children. 

My parents were still kids when they got married right out of High School and had three babies in four years. My sisters did the same thing, never finding out who they were and what their talents were. Could I sell cars for 35 years? Never. We were just so different. There were many reasons that tore our family apart. My father turned to alcohol after his kids were grown,  in his 40's and was dead at 54. My mother couldn't maintain the family business herself and lost everything she had worked for and had nothing to show for it. I haven't talked to my sisters in years. They are angry at me for reasons I don't understand, and I gave up trying to figure it out. They don't even talk to each other. I don't know what it's like to have a sister. Are they lonely, too? Is it pride that stands in the way? Is it too hard to admit tha

Creating music is my way of understanding what I feel. It is my diary. From the time I was a young child I tried to play the music I could hear inside, but I couldn't. I didn't know how, and there was no one who could teach me that because they didn't know how to play their own music. It took a long time to understand, and I'm not yet quite there, learning how to play the piano from the inside out. It has changed the way I teach. Anyone can learn to read music, but only a few can actually hear their own music. I've written a lot of music for people as gifts and music for my own family, especially the newest babies. Number 5 great grandbaby is due in a few months. Hopefully, my music will be something they will keep and use it to always connect me to them.

I can't change what my sisters think of me. I believe it is regretful, but it is their choice, not mine. If my parents could have looked ahead and saw how we ended, how sad they would have been. When I uploaded this music to SC last night, I sat and cried, overwhelmed with hopelessnes of it. It is one thing to lose your family to death; quite another to lose them when while they still live.

Broken Family

Inhumation

Allegaeon "Inhumation"

Whilst transfering files from my laptop to my new computer I came across this unfinished project I'd started just before the first lockdown. Then along with my other problems concerning my hearing this was another that got put on hold. Originally written for a vocal  which because of life sadly did'nt work out I decided to  add some guitar, a string ensemble and a horn section to fill out the sound. I'm happy I found it. I hope you enjoy and thanks for all your great support!!

Music,composition,arrangement,mix and production ... Pablo
©Retro-Tone 2023

I Apologize

I Apologise

musique : Deepman https://soundcloud.com/deep-man-2-121969062
texte, voix et tankdrum : luciole langevine

Les vieilles âmes ont une lumière qui sonde, dedans, dehors, profonde, qui remue et désarme. Les vieilles âmes.
Les vieilles âmes, au supplice d'un monde qui creuse sa propre tombe de souffrance et de larmes. Les vieilles âmes.
Les vieilles âmes parfois perdent courage face à l'avidité qui nous mène au naufrage. Les vieilles âmes.

frenglish translation :
Old souls have a light that probes, inside, outside, deep, that moves and disarms. Old souls.
Old souls, tormented by a world that digs its own grave of suffering and tears. Old souls.
Old souls sometimes lose heart in the face of greed that leads us to shipwreck. Old souls.

Les Vieilles Âmes - Feat Deepman

3 hour flip.
Original Track - https://youtu.be/WbpZVKvDkFk?si=0VF446w-L1UKrz_y
Vox & Lyrics - https://www.looperman.com/acapellas/detail/21744/poom-pow-115bpm-pop-acapella

Loop Diggers SRC 134 Gino's Diary 6 - Frank Zozky Poom Pow (Looperman)

Janine: voice, words, vocal melody https://soundcloud.com/janinelevinson

Jonathan: initial music, instruments, mix

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on a frozen berm
in a carriage house
with a veil of gauze
on a frosted hearth
 
on a ledge of iron
in a blinding storm
on the peat and earth
of the winded moor
   
in the ink and lead
in the skin of men
in the final beats
of a trembling heart
 
it is quiet, shhh
oh but it is quiet 
 
it is quiet
oh it is quiet
 
on the rolling sea
in the folds of sails
in between the planks
on the salty rail
 
in the thorny vines
in the rumpled flowers
in a nest of crows
on a crumbling tower
 
in the swirl of smoke
from a dying fire
it is grey and green
and it is quiet
shhh

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image: Boudewijn Huysmans via Unslpash

It Is Quiet (with Janine Levinson)

an anxious mind

ONE MILE OF DISTURBING REALITY ! by SUBSONIC DISSIDENCE !
Album SUIINA SUN SU AR SRA (2023)

ONE MILE OF DISTURBING REALITY !

(verse 1)
Level one academy better bet I’m the key 
Crown on my head like payment royalty 
rhymes in my life doing things creatively 
no questions asked that’s right just doing me
Don’t act surprise coming through like destiny 
still on the rise hang tight and you will see

Chorus
I bring the noise-I bring the noise-I’ve got the sauce now
Across the void-I bring the noise-so turn it up loud
My thoughts out loud-so just enjoy-this one’s-a cash cow
I bring the noise-I bring the noise-we-off the chain y’all

(Verse 2)
—👣—-Made to sparkle made to shine
dropping gems words to rhymes 
Holding back no not  me 
Coming through wait and see 
just Wait and see

(Verse 3)
hand over fist that is why I Can’t miss 
one with the force different levels do exist
Multidimensional words do twist 
Screw the imperfections as I transmit 
For the culture just a lift Precision with the gift
IPG1 on the mic I’m on the A-list 
Element of the rhythm who can resist 
Heat on each line dedication when I spit
Any doubt it’s word of mouth
sit back take noticed
Time out baby bro lemme get ‘em I got this
Creative days and nights  vision insight
This level so tight I slay and excite
Check your frequencies left and right 
Already built a winning team each player’s out of sight

———-Chorus

(Verse 4)
Academy Noise games departure flights loading
Embracing time and space so much I’m floating
Gotta beat the high score before there’s a landing
nothing last forever it’s all time spent learning 
A nonstop endeavor we’re hell bent earning
Another one on fire it so hot track’s burning 🔥🔥🔥——lit
Repeat (Verses 2, 3, and 4)

I Bring The Noise

A song about a close family member who really needs to understand that his relationship is over. 
And she as been letting him down gently without ever officially ending it. 
He continued to constantly offer his thoughts and opinions of which he considered it to be helpful but she did not appreciate or even understand it. 
He was casting his pearls before the final swine. 

CASTING PEARLS 

V1
How many times can you lay yourself bare 
make it the last as she now doesn’t care 
It’s face down in the water doesn’t wanna share 
Herself her children & this love affair 

Chorus 
I can see you were casting pearls 
Before the final swine 
It doesn’t seem to matter now
This girls made up her mind 
For the final  time

V2
Here we are yet again and again 
Riding two wheels to just to heal the pain 
Inspiring the life that feels mundane 
Ride your sunset from your hurricane

Chorus 
I can see you were casting pearls 
Before the final swine 
It doesn’t seem to matter now
This girls made up her mind 
For the final  time

Casting Pearls ~ Conscience Of Kings

Base photo for cover art by Paul-berthelon-bravo on unsplash

Anywhere

ROCKDOCK

Composer: Jacob Van Eyck (1590-1657)
Book: Der Fluyten Lust-hof , Vol.1.
Soprano Recorder.

Psalm 118 (modo 3)

Credit Note: The children ambient sound is from InspectorJ in Freesound

Prometer é nobre, cumprir é burguês.
Para dar esperança aos pobres, prometo outra vez.

Com o nobre desígnio de te aliviar
do fardo pesado que tens de levar,
do peso da vida, do medo da noite
do medo da fome, da dor, do açoite,

Eu canto vitórias, prometo bem-estar,
prometo que o dia está mesmo a chegar 
com frutos da terra, com bênçãos do céu,
e vidas gloriosas para além do véu.

E, mesmo sabendo quão fraco é o falar,
tu olhas meus olhos querendo acreditar.

Prometer é nobre, cumprir é burguês.
Em nome da esperança, prometo outra vez

Prometer é nobre, cumprir é burguês.
Para salvar teus sonhos, prometo outra vez.

Prometo saúde onde ela não há
Prometo alegria onde ela não está
prometo repouso para a alma cansada
prometo fartura nesta consoada

Prometo ternura e um beijo ao luar
prometo que o amor nunca irá acabar
prometo um abraço humilde e sincero
que espante os demónios da dor que eu não quero. 

E, mesmo sabendo quão certo é o falhar,
tu olhas meus olhos querendo acreditar.

Prometer é nobre, cumprir é burguês.
Olho nos teus olhos, e prometo outra vez.

Prometer é nobre, cumprir é burguês.
Para dar esperança aos pobres, prometo outra vez.

Orçamento de Estado

Heavy Punk Rock 'n' Roll band turns into Synthwave nowadays! Brand NEW album "Ultraviolet Cosmos" available NOW!
https://shockthealgorithm.bandcamp.com/album/ultraviolet-cosmos

A laboratory with an open bar and floating altar. Come on in! 

Here are various solo and collaborative projects - songs, soundscapes, live looped solo guitar improvisations. 

This project used to be called "imaginary friends", but it became too real for that name, as did many of you.

I hope you enjoy something you find here. Do feel free to be in touch, you never know what might happen.  

I also invite you to attend @hypnopompetus, a duo project with the illustrious Cheesemont Paisley-Paisley https://soundcloud.com/sel-sync, and Fictive Sisters, a transatlantic band with  the incomparable Wheelwright https://fictivesisters.bandcamp.com/album/immaculate-distraction.

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