Shouts out to operator16 for guest vocals on the hook.

second guess myself and then I just give in
what I life I've lived,
wrestle with my thoughts and try to go to bed
what a night this is
effortless to just exist and feel this way,
why must I feel this pain, every day is just a sick reminder
that I'm growing old alone, and I know I'll never find her

Ticking timer in the kitchen
ticking timebomb clinch perpscription pills 
rinse my hands of discontent and sip until I get my fill
sunny days are hazy still, 
hate the self to pay the bills
waste the life chasing things you'll never find
you're better off
just never having been at all
Wish I could just forget it all
I've forgiven every flaw
they forget to ever call
miss me with that sorry
only sorry when you see me
my satisfaction only happens
in the  form of getting even

Hey
I just wanna get away
I just wanna better place 
to call my home

Where the love don't hurt
and the drugs all free
so we're all fucked up
and they bump my beats
and the bank dont call
and the car dont break
and my hands don't shake
and the heart don't ache
where my dad don't dip
and my mom stay too
and I want that past
but it just ain't true
and I want you back
but I know its through
man the grass so green
when you feel this blue

cuz the voice in my head want me dead
Im annoyed, Im in awe, I'm avoiding the truth of at all
cuz the more that I grow, well it shows, and I know
that the reason I feel so alone is my fault
I don't ever leave
I don't even give em a reason to come
I'd rather be lonely at home drunk as fuck
wasting away, shake me awake when its done

Home


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