Depression ft. Keshi

Beauty

sorrow w/ kaido

produced by LARUE MADE IT

ig www.instagram.com/4javan/

you killin' my heart
but you look divine when you do it
it took some time when i turn around
you did me dirty but i aint hear a sound

havent seen u in 500 days baby
would you still believe me
its been bout 500 days baby
just wondering if you love me

now
were talking bout now and forever
i still smell my scent on your sweater 
i know you know 
you know that i am better

sending me messages 
wondering where i been
send in my location 
so you can stop all this
all these thoughts in my head
thought about the things you said
following my old footsteps

now
were talking bout now and forever
i still smell my scent on your sweater 
i know you know 
you know that i am better

you killin' my heart
but you look divine when you do it
it took some time when i turn around
you did me dirty but i aint hear a sound

(no oh oh oh oh oh)

divine

@1spoder
https://www.instagram.com/1spoder/

produced by @prodbyjoshwa
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[lyrics]

(spoder)
you drunk back at 4 am
this shit ain't that easy
tryna find a purpose hoping someone gonna need me
i got a ring, "hello?"
get to the guap, gotta go
i move the pack and i'm gone (bye)
i knew for a fact you were wrong

and my world keeps spinning
can't remember if i'm winning
i'll see you later
she only care about paper
remind me it's not ever fair
for once, felt like a cool a hunnid bucks
she told me i was not enough
i wish that you knew you were wrong
and my world keeps spinning
can't remember if i'm winning
i'll see you later
she only care about paper
remind me it's not ever fair
for once, felt like a cool a hunnid bucks
she told me i was not enough
i wish that you knew you were wrong

(javan)
something doesn't feel right
feel like i'm dancing with the devil
for like half my life
our love ain't that stable
i been looking for a change
hoping you would do the same
can you tell
this love ain't right for me
lying on the floor 
i been thinking if i'm being used
actin if she cared (cared, cared)
i'm like so confused
why you acting so recluse
i mean it's up to you
you been acting such a fool
i'll just head out soon

(something doesn't feel right
feel like i'm dancing with the devil
for like half my life
our love ain't that stable
i been looking for a change
hoping you would do the same
can you tell
this love ain't right for me)

woke up from the floor
i wanted something more
i'm the one you should adore
(dore, dore, dore)
woke up from the floor
i wanted something more
i'm the one you should adore
(dore, dore, dore)
oooohhhh

(spoder)
and my world keeps spinning
can't remember if i'm winning
i'll see you later
she only care about paper
remind me it's not ever fair
for once, felt like a cool a hunnid bucks
she told me i was not enough
i wish that you knew you were wrong
and my world keeps spinning
can't remember if i'm winning
i'll see you later
she only care about paper
remind me it's not ever fair
for once, felt like a cool a hunnid bucks
she told me i was not enough
i wish that you knew you were wrong

exploit w/ spoder (joshwa)

prod me

To be honest with you
I don’t know if I am really alright 
Love in disguise
I’ll be just fine 

Ooohh
Just say what you bout to say 
I’m just 1 mile away 
Ooohh
Just say what you bout to say 
I’m just 1 mile away 

She said alladin why you so different
Trust me i change every season 
You know i gotta keep my distance
But now im feelin so different
(You, you, you) 
Calling you my bluff (uh huh)
One I can trust (uh huh)
One who I love (uh huh)

To be honest with you
I don’t know if I am really alright 
Love in disguise
I’ll be just fine 

Ooohh
Just say what you bout to say 
I’m just 1 mile away 
Ooohh
Just say what you bout to say 
I’m just 1 mile away

isolated

TOUCH

w/ @dead4cf

prod. me :)

Leave without a trace so I wonder 
Why can’t I keep her longer for the night and 
Why can’t I be a person not a monster 
I can’t lie all this thinking got me tired 
When I’m by myself you should really come through but
Given myself credit got some courage for you 
Yeah I can’t get enough of the things you do 

Feels like I’ve been drowning without ya
Wait too long and I’m falling for your sound yeah
Been far gone but you teach me how to love I
Just can’t stand it 
This a small world we’ve been goin over
Met a couple times 
Saw a couple clovers
But I’m stuck with you
And there’s nothing I can do 

(1, 2, 3)

Got a tune, so I’m hoppin a track yeah 
Fuck the rules 
I don’t care unless we have to 
Yeah it’s cool when I’m putting on an act but 
I got some bad news
Can’t read signals like a map yeah  
(Fuck it)
We in touch but I’m losing it so fast
Drippin blood cus this pressure made me snap
Outta luck but I’m fine
Why it hurting all over 

(I just don’t understand)

I’ll be fine but it feels like I’m just getting old
When we talking it feels like I’m in this vertigo 
I could die and I wouldn’t even notice 
Bitch I’m losing focus
Thinking of just holding you
Yeah I don’t what I would really do 
All this loving got me so confused
All this loving got me seasick
Let me get a breather
I just wanna see you 

Talk the way you do to me
I’ll be fine with you here
Only giving love and all this ecstasy
I’ve been dying to feel 
Maybe I’m crazy and still losing conscious 
What If I said this was all just some nonsense I made up
I would say I didn’t mean it
But I couldn’t guarantee it

I remember talking all this out at the corner to your house 
All the words that you’d say
You don’t know no love and got some doubts
Thinking we could work it out 
But it’s fine bae
You don’t wanna fight that 
I keep fucking up guess the consequences bite back 
You keep showing love and my jealousy don’t  like that 
You know me so well
Breaking my composure you bringing new hell, why you do that?

I tried being positive 
You taking all my peace of mind 
You taking all my oxygen 
Take it one day at a time no extra 
I can’t do that no 
I don’t want hurt anymore 
I take it personal cause I’m fed up 

If you don’t want no love 
Then I don’t gotta follow you through it 
Yeah you tore me apart and now you tryna call like I’m stupid 
Wanted war from the start
Must be some miscommunication that shit worse for my heart 
That shit dont work for my heart 

Cause I just 
Miss the way that you talked to me 
Got me in my head
You saying words you don’t mean

(I know too much)

All for nothing 
I’ve been really trapped in my head with assumptions 
I can’t seem to get any rest 
I feel nothing real 
I feel something here 
And I can tell you the truth
And I just really wanna hold onto you 
And all this bullshit got me just so confused 
All this loving got me seasick
Let me get a breather
I just wanna see you 

Talk the way you do to me
I’ll be fine with you here
Only giving love and all this ecstasy
I’ve been dying to feel 
Maybe I’m crazy and still losing conscious 
What If I said this was all just some nonsense I made up
I would say I didn’t mean it
But I couldn’t guarantee it

stuck with you w/ 4cf

(now on spotify)
gotta get back to you babe
you're the best i've had

[spotify]

magnolia

(now on spotify)
baby i’ll be
waiting here for 
you to change your mind
i’ll be here as
long as it takes you

so this is it
i never thought that you would
take your things and leave
i must admit
i’ve been a mess since then
i need you here with [[me]]

day by day
it’s all the same
baby won’t you call my name

as long as it takes you

(available on spotify)
(baby i call in the dead of night
but you don’t need me like i need you
pray that i won’t be alone)

layin on the bed
waitin for your text (be alone)
babe there’s nothin left
faded im a wreck (be alone)

afraid what’s coming next
wished we never met (be alone)
laying us to rest but
baby i beg you (be alone)

2 soon (like i need you)
with the drunk call (pray that i won’t be alone)
in the middle of the night you
took it, my fault (be alone)
didn’t really mean to interrupt (be alone)
but if u change ur mind then hit me up (be alone)

pain, that’s an option
no time for nonsense
can’t ask you nothing
drank, feeling nausous
too many toxins
not even conscious
say nothin more, say nothin more baby

we’re better on our own
tonight im getting throwed (you don’t need me)
she never coming home 
stay with me (pray that i wont be alone)
say you’ll leave (you don’t need me)
(be alone)

(baby girl is saying that we just friends, that we just friends
if we fuckin are we just friends, are we just friends)

stuck with you w/ 4cf

Joon