HIM    Join Me In Death (1998)

LYRICS:

Let me wake up in your arms, you say it's not alright
Let me be so dead and gone, so far away from life
Close my eyes, hold me tight
And bury me deep inside your heart
All I ever wanted was you my love
You're all I ever wanted
You, my love
Let me never see the sun, never see you smile
Let us be so dead and so gone
So far away from life
Just close my eyes, hold me tight
And bury me deep inside your heart

HIM - Bury Me Deep Inside Your Heart (Demo 1998)

Take two.

Lyrics

oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no no no no

i was never the same after i got over you matching shoes to matching clothes i went all out for you

i think i lost myself along the way lol but that didn’t matter to me cause i wanted to be the one for you and there was no room for others no there was no room for others i had hella feelings for you everything changed between you and me

My mistake what’s wrong with me it’s hard for me to get out of my bed someone take me to my death bed i gave you my everything 

oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no oh no no no no

all i wanted was you and me i guess were meant for others lovers and all we ever did was hurt each others but to this day i just wanted you and me i just wanted you and me i wanna love on you i wanna see you and me to be together forever i just cant help myself over you even though you left me low i only see you and oh i tried again but i still fumbled

(In the background sometimes say “im burning out to show up”)

I WAS NEVER THE SAME AFTER I GOT OVER YOU (STILL NOT) (TAKE TWO) (Prod. Taymxru)

my suicide was necessary is a peculiar song that i actually uploaded, it mantains the showgaze in this type of songs but you actually feel it

OMGGG TY ALL FOR 2K 

My Suicide Was Necessary.

deftones - my mind is a mountain

deftones - my mind is a mountain cover

🖤 It’s In My Nature
by The Miracle Syndicate

He said he wouldn’t hurt me —
Said it clear, said it twice.
He smiled when he promised,
Didn’t blink when he lied.
We stood at the river.
He asked if I could swim.
I said I could carry him —
And sing out a sailor’s hymn.

He didn’t thank me.
He didn’t ask.
He just climbed on
Like I was built
To last.

“It’s in my nature,”
That’s all he said.
While the water closed over
What could’ve been instead.
It’s in my nature —
No plea, no shame.
He left me sinking
With his name in my throat.

He told me he was different.
He told me he was cold.
He said it like a warning
But wrapped it in gold.
He was quiet halfway through,
Held on just right —
Then leaned to my ear
And killed us both that night.

He didn’t flinch.
He didn’t pause.
He just let go
Without ever
Letting on.

“It’s in my nature,”
That’s what he said.
No hint of regret,
No tilt of his head.
It’s in my nature —
No fear, no plea.
He left me sinking
With his name in me.

The current was slower
Than I thought it would be.
He watched the sky
As he dragged me beneath.

Now when I meet someone kind,
I squint at their hands.
Not because they’ll hurt me —
But because I still understand.

It’s in my nature —
To carry what hurts.
To take the weight,
Even when it gets worse.
It’s in my nature —
To float when I should leave.
To believe something soft
In someone built to deceive.

It's in my nature.

Credits:
Written and performed by Elena Morgenstern, Nayeli Astra Xóchitl, and Brad Astra
Produced by The Miracle Syndicate
Mixed and mastered by Brad Astra at Nude Studio · Calgary · Canada
Label: Painful Records © 2025

It's In My Nature

Leaving For Now - Theo Haber

Prod: Michael Harrison

Yeah she lick her lips 
Watch me fall
I didn’t want none of this 
It’s all my fault 

Yeah she turn to rust 
My efforts are gone 
Look what you done 
I’m not enough 

Your such an innocent girl that knew me  
But I swear you were truly deadly 
I didn’t care I just wanted you with me 

Yeah darling I tried so hard 
Now with someone else you saying raw 
I throw way my life for both of us 
Now I don’t think I can ever trust 

I put my heart and soul 
Went all to waste 
Scream fuck you to my face 
That shit never gets old 
My love for you is drying out 
This is me screaming my pain out loud 

Left didn’t even send a text 
I was such a fucking mess 
Pour out everything for you and somehow we called it quits 
Your love is what I will never get again 

Yeah she turn to rust 
My efforts are gone 
Look what you done 
I’m not enough

Rust

blight

Such A Stupid Girl

misery love has me writing these songs that make no sense to anyone except me🫡







The Stackzzz background on his music titled 
“bluey”

Hey i’m josestackzzz or josestackzzz. My name is Jose Mejia and as i’m writing this i’m 15 years old Guatemalan but born in the USA. I’m writing this little backstory about me to explain why and how i started making my music! Let’s go watch back to 2022… During 2022 there was this day where i went to go visit my cousin @edu.choo. On that day we hung out and talked like we usually do. We eventually got bored so i thought of the bright idea to make a song a hip hop rap song to be exact… We find a yeat x carti beat since they were popping off like crazy that year and then we hop on sound trap then started thinking of lyrics. We had no good lyrics in mind so we decided to just rap straight bull shit and slurs. (lol)
We ended of the night finishing a song called Backatit! it’s still up on my sound cloud to this day! 2023 comes and we make another song called backatitagain! and yet again it was bad but somehow we made a music video good luck trying to find that video! After all this, this sums up my introduction to music. Fast forward 2023 i drop no music other than a Junior H  cover to no cap. During this time i was in a relationship with someone and i had the bright idea to make a new song with a little help from my “friend” at that time.
Little did i know that making this song would bring a little bit of backlash. The song begins in the works two days before i got into my first devastating heartbreak with my partner. Lyrics were already written down by the help of my “friend” and i started singing what came out to be “CRIMINAL.” This song dropped at the worst time possible because people were starting rumors saying it was about my ex and stuff like that when that was never the case… This song “CRIMINAL.” Was inspired by my favorite artist blackbear (Matthew Tyler Musto) and that’s it nothing to do with my ex… A month passed by (we’re in february 2024) since that song dropped and then i officially opened up my spotify apple music and so on accounts! With these accounts verified and open i went ahead to drop “CRIMINAL.” On those platforms! Plus a new song called (Lambo Swerve with christian harris) a little rap song that’s under the name of josestackzzz. fast forward to june of 2024. I’ve made an album with a bunch of songs i can’t speak on to be honest let’s say i only had 3 or 5 original songs on the album out of 20 songs… That album was titled “Enjoy Summer” as it dropped on the day me and the school went out on summer break. During this time i was in a whole new relationship with the person who wrote “CRIMINAL.” With me… (That relationship was perfect to me till it wasn’t) We broke up and i was full of memories of me and her and this led me to writing 13 song and releasing a whole new album titled “Nobody lovers girl” I had this album dropping on November 13 but a month later unreleased cause it did not doing good to me and released a revamped ep with fives songs reworked on and i let the original album be a soundcloud exclusive. As of this time all of these songs were recorded on a cheap mic and chrome book. After this Album/Ep were here now in January 2025 i’m finally finishing an EP that has 5 tracks called Lover Boy and would be dropping on February 14. This Ep i went all out on Still on my Cheapy mic but a new laptop and sang my lyrics on how i felt about these two hurtful relationships.

To sum this up i am a guatemalan boy who didn’t take music seriously at first but after two failed relationships that i believe real hard in i took music more seriously and the rest is my history being made under my independent record label stackzzzrecords.

Written by Jose Mejia
Barely edited by Jose Mejia
Published by StackzzzRecords
Released 2025

I WAS NEVER THE SAME AFTER I GOT OVER YOU (STILL NOT) (TAKE TWO) (Prod. Taymxru)

Josestckzzz