Prod. Injury

Ask me why i do this to myself 

id probably come up with something and lie

i don’t know why i self sabotage myself

I just want to be left alone 

though i don’t want to be completely alone 

i feel confused and don’t know why

This self sabotage kills me every time

I’m conflicted about my life 

i feel like this is all just a lie im in a high

(Im sober from you tho?)

Self sbotage


Original track : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k-k2_Liofy8&ab_channel=LolaYoungVEVO

Lyrics :
You know I'm impatient
So why would you leave me waiting outside the station
When it was like minus four degrees?
And I, I get what you're sayin'
I just really don't wanna hear it right now
Can you shut up for like once in your life?
Listen to me, I took your nice words of advice about
How you think I'm gonna die lucky if I turn 33
Okay, so yeah, I smoke like a chimney
I'm not skinny, and I pull a Britney every other week
But cut me some slack, who do you want me to be?
'Cause I'm too messy, and then I'm too fucking clean
You told me, "Get a job, " then you ask where the hell I've been
And I'm too perfect, 'til I open my big mouth
I want to be me, is that not allowed?
And I'm too clever, and then I'm too fucking dumb
You hate it when I cry, unless it's that time of the month
And I'm too perfect, 'til I show you that I'm not
A thousand people I could be for you, and you hate the fucking lot
You hate the fucking lot
You hate the fucking lot
You hate, you hate
It's taking you ages
You still don't get the hint, I'm not askin' for pages
But one text or two would be nice
And please, don't pull those faces
When I've been out working my arse off all day
It's just one bottle of wine or two
But, hey, you can't even talk
You smoke weed just to help you sleep
Then why you out gettin' stoned at four o'clock?
And then you come home to me
And don't say hello, 'cause I got high again
And forgot to fold my clothes
'Cause I'm too messy, and then I'm too fucking clean
You told me, "Get a job, " then you ask where the hell I've been
And I'm too perfect 'til I open my big mouth
I want to be me, is that not allowed?
And I'm too clever, and then I'm too fucking dumb
You hate it when I cry, unless it's that time of the month
And I'm too perfect 'til I show you that I'm not
A thousand people I could be for you, and you hate the fucking lot
You hate the fucking lot
You hate the fucking lot
Oh-ooh, and I'm too messy, and then I'm too fucking clean
You told me, "Get a job, " then you ask where the hell I've been
And I'm too perfect, 'til I open my big mouth
I want to be me, is that not allowed?
And I'm too clever, and then I'm too fucking dumb
You hate it when I cry, unless it's that time of the month
And I'm too perfect, 'til I show you that I'm not
A thousand people I could be for you, and you hate the fucking lot
You hate the fucking lot
You hate the fucking lot
You hate the fucking lot
You hate the fucking lot

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Can’t swim
Never could
You said “breathe”
Like I ever would

Mouthful of black
No room for light
I don’t float
I don’t fight

I scream
But it sounds like air
The kind you choke on
When no one’s there

The water loves me
More than you did

It wraps me soft
And pulls me under
Quiet
Quiet
Quiet

mouthful of black

i still miss you

“All I Need” is a soulful, emotionally charged track that dives deep into the longing and vulnerability of love. Layered with smooth melodies, heartfelt lyrics, and a mellow yet compelling beat, the song captures the raw feeling of needing someone  not just for comfort, but for wholeness. Whether you're vibing alone or reflecting late at night, this track speaks to anyone who's ever searched for that one missing piece.

All I Need

Indie Pop, Dreampop, Hypnagogic Pop, Neo-Psychedelica, Indie Rock, Chamber Pop, Baroque Pop, Indie, Alternative

vanity box (sometimes life just shapes like a knife)

You walk through doors that once were closed,
with secrets only silence knows.

[Chorus]
Alone—
you haven’t felt love in years.
Alone
not sure if someone missed you through the tears.
That feeling…
is the one you truly miss.

[Verse 2]
So now, go on, reshape your mind,
trade old beliefs for new design.
You turned your gold into the mud,
a kingdom crumbled into dust.

What once you had, you didn’t buy,
now you know the cost of that old lie.
You see how blind you’ve always been—
in love, in loss, in your own skin.

[Chorus]
Alone—
you haven’t felt love in years.
You don’t want to
be alone—
no memory that someone held you dear.
And that ache…
that’s what you truly fear.

[Bridge – dreamy instrumental / falsetto echoes]
“All that I am, I gave away…”
“The mirror cracked, but still I stay…”
“A wave of love, it pulled me out…”
“She changed me—there’s no doubt.”

[Final Chorus – full band, emotional lift]
You changed yourself and the world turned new,
a wave of love, it carried you.
Out of the cage, the golden haze,
away from guilt, away from blame.

[Outro – repeated, fading]
Yeah… yeah…
That’s the feeling…
That’s the feeling…
you were mi

Self sbotage

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