Nostalgia (noun) - a sentimental longing or wistful affection for the past, typically for a period or place with happy personal associations.

Nostalgia is something that has always troubled me, as I found that it's difficult to properly put my emotions towards it into words. It's not necessarily, or at least in my opinion, a happy or sad emotion, it's just something that we feel. Remembering a possibly warped perception of the past to focus on because the present seems so grim. Looking back upon my childhood and early teenage years does invoke a sense of melancholy and nostalgia, and I tend to think that things were much more simple back then. Maybe it's because the problems of that time are over now that I am able to look at them so clearly, as the problems of the present are shrouded in fear and uncertainty.

I remember stomping through the woods with my friends, then going home to play my gamecube or gameboy, not really caring or thinking about the world around me. Maybe I get stressed out when thinking about nostalgia because I can't properly explain how it makes me feel, whether it's positive or negative, I'm not sure.

It's like a purple mist that surrounds distant memories, just slightly altering my perception of that time. It's interesting.

Thanks for listening <3

Retro Fantasia [prod. xmichaelwarren]

new lofi emo shit
produced by @prodnvki <3
hope u enjoy!

lyrics:
baby im just fuckin paralyzed
im just hoping that the sun’ll rise
and i know that u been traumatized
i just want u to be alright
i havent gotten used to someone staying
usually im tapped out whenever that song is playing
i should be grateful my story’s changing
but i can never focus whenever the storm is raging

30 past 12
i am only human i got skin under my shell
u had never cared you just burn me til we meld
and i cant deal with all this hell with all the shit that u propel
i just max out
girl im tapped out
i got so much heart but u just take it all out on me
just relax how
i cant slow down
heart beat out my chest cuz u just talkin so loud to me

relax [p. nvki]

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relax [nvki]

collapsing

collapsing. w/scapegoat (prod.deadspyro)

late nights

sounds of the silence (prod. hazenova)

cover art by @faetihx
ily <3
prod @emptychest
shout out @imkt

Lyrics:

Heart beat going fast
And im sad now
Everynight everyweek i just black out
She always text never never go out
got a text from my plug holdup gotta go now
Same drugs 
Same weed
I dont really give a fuck
Ghost me
No hugs no kisses
I left that boy in stitches
If he want to fight again
He gonna turn into a digit
Then im gunna kiss his mistress
Gotta stay on track ghost recon 
With the mission
Kt packed the new bowl 
Losing count of the spinich
Im counting up the fucking minutes 
Till i fucking break
Can you stay
I dont want to lose ur face

Heart beat going fast
And im sad now
Everynight everyweek i just black out
She always text never never go out
got a text from my plug holdup gotta go now
Im tired of this shit
And im tired of the pain
All these words in brain
I just posted a new tweet
Why she all up on my page
Why she gotta call 
When she not even my main
im too fucked up

Spotify

ghost me (prod. emptychest)

1st @northshoremusic | 2nd @soulfadexo | 3rd @noxious-nights | 4th @emptychest | 5th @kuriositylol

Problems w/ The North Shore, emptychest, noxiousnights, soulfade & kuriosity [+ afterlife]

produced by the baby girl cherryrizla

lyrics coming soon

voldemort vs darth vader w/ nevermadeithome (cherryrizla)

Produced by @nevermadeithome 

Message Me On Instagram For My Email. <3

Follow My Socials; 
Instagram - nevermadeithome
Twitter - nevermadeithome 

Lyrics Below;

*hook*

Oh, so you started seeing him now 
What happened to “don't worry about him your over reacting” 
Oh was I now? 
Guess who got caught lying
Its you with the pretty face!
Or should I say? Devil with a mask on 
I hope you and that fuck boy don't last long 
How come I find myself coming back to you 

*bridge*

Sick scrolling your timelines
Looking through your likes like
Tears in my eyes I 
Hate myself sometimes  x2 

*verse*

Does he buy you anything you want 
Gets you diamond rings so you can flaunt 
For other boys, little does he know 
It happened to me. 
I was the first never gonna be the last 
Should of known from the start that she wasn't after love
Just taking souls, moving on, buying clothes 
This fucking girl, broke my heart.

*hook*

Oh, so you started seeing him now 
What happened to “don't worry about him your over reacting” 
Oh was I now? 
Guess who got caught lying
Its you with the pretty face!
Or should I say? Devil with a mask on 
I hope you and that fuck boy don't last long 
How come I find myself coming back to you 

* second bridge*

I cant watch you with him 
It makes my stomach turn 
But for some reason 
I cant fixate my eyes on you x2

*bridge*

Oh, so you started seeing him now 
What happened to “don't worry about him your over reacting” 
Oh was I now? 
Guess who got caught lying
Its you with the pretty face!
Or should I say? Devil with a mask on 
I hope you and that fuck boy don't last long 
How come I find myself coming back to you

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Pretty Face (me)

Art by Peppermerint
https://www.instagram.com/peppermerint/

FADED SOUL OUT NOW: https://distrokid.com/hyperfollow/mirahatter/faded-soul

Available on the following and more!
Spotify: https://open.spotify.com/album/6nNiyIGP4yANoB0dfyPtic
iTunes: https://music.apple.com/us/album/faded-soul-single/1539609147

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Lyrics
I took my time put the blade to my eye
I tried to cry, I’m ruining my mind
Tried to speak there’s no words coming out
My blade’s no longer dry
Wet tonight baby take my last breath
Take my last breath

Cut me open and take my life
I tried but you won't let me die
My soul is leaving my bones soon
The path of mer immortals doomed

Take me away, take me away
Suffering is long overdue to outer space
Long overgrown, leave me alone 
Unless you have a way out

Cut me open and take my life
I tried but you won't let me die
My soul is leaving my bones soon
The path of mer immortals doomed

Faded Soul

Ana Poem:
This is for you. I love you. Some say the best love stories are the ones where you don't mean to fall in love.
The right place at the right time, and your life can be changed forever. Now we have our story. And I'm ready to do this together.
And you're a collection of experiences that mold together a path of your existence. A network filled by beauty and poise. A creation of two souls..

Dead Broke:
Hear my cries, angel please.
No one ever hears a peep,
I've been up. I'm counting sheep.
Nothing ever works it seems... (repeated)

Hear me cry out,
it's getting louder now.
I'm sorry I cannot change.
I'm truly parting ways,
One with myself,
Shrooms for the brain.
Two for my bain.
Four go away.
Just for a day (repeated)

Staring up at the top of the ceiling,
I'm with her now, my wrists aren't cut.
And I promise I'll be there. Always, I hear you.
I'm with her now, my wrists aren't cut.
I'm happier...

You're in your head, say that it's fine.
No butterflies, only my mind. It's all in my mind.

collapsing. w/scapegoat (prod.deadspyro)

josh jolly