The Russ Room Set 12/10/22

The Hardest Battles, Come At The Worst Times(Alternative/Indie Rock Songs)

Crystal Mindz Set 3/10/23

Del Paso Sacramento Set 4/29/23

prod. @ohhellonokia

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

This time i wanna do this right
This time, i don’t wanna fight
This time, i won’t say goodbye
This time, ill be alright,

I never wanted it to end up this way
so i gotta go ahead and take a detour
but i didn’t expect for it to stay
so im staying all alone like i am eeyore

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

this time i'll do it right
this time i'll make it fine
trying to excel yeah you know i gotta try
it's hard to tell the truth cuz i know you and your lies

this time

this time w/ nokia2k

I wanna die slowly, I'm a demon lowkey.

EP made with KingzerNEVERDIES, Blvcked OUT Eyes, and lil XipZ
Mixed by Nkno, Blvcked OUT Eyes, lil XipZ 
Mastered by Nkno, Blvcked OUT Eyes 

Written by Nkno, BLVCKED OUT EYES, lil XipZ, KingzerNEVERDIES

prod by sorrow bringer, WellFed, IOF, P4RA

here we go again

Here We Go Again (feat. BLVCKED OUT EYES) (Prod. P4RA)

Kilometer x Force x Displacement
(prod by michael hare and yunny goldz)
id rather kmfs then not be with you tbh.

Lyrics:
you know theres problems in my head
i cant sleep inside my bed
all my days just end with stress
i feel like im a fucking mess

take what you want
the skin from my bones
break me apart
all i think is i cant feel right now
baby would you talk to me right now
before i lose myself, myself

oh, i cant bare to lose you now
id rather kill my fuckin self
id rather cut my heart out
put the gun inside my mouth

Kmfs (michael hare)

amv:
https://youtu.be/EXp_f4BctHg

artists:
https://soundcloud.com/imgeist
https://soundcloud.com/anthonysidoti

producer:
https://soundcloud.com/tnvr555

lyrics:
// intro
welcome to another night of fucking torture
when I thought that it was over 
but she just wants to tease me
you told me all you saw was red
i think of all the blood you'd shed
if this keeps going on I think ill end up dead!

// verse 
ghosts chasing me, 
i swear to god I’ve been running my whole life :/ 
so karmas close i guess i’ll let her bite me, just one last time :p
oh now she’s speeding
hands around my neck, i’m screaming 
few more seconds I’ll stop breathing 
put her lips on mine and kiss me goodnight 
<3 

don’t stay close 

// chorus 
cause I think that I’m hexed
she took the blood from my neck 
said i got what I deserved, ripped my heart 
snapped a nerve, it’s the end
losing myself
now a ghost cast to hell 
said I’m leaving this earth, that’s a gift
so goodbye my friends!!!!

// anthony
will I die?
say my last goodbyes
rest in piece what's left of me 
so here we go another chapter laid to rest
took my heart from my own chest 
and now I’m your eternal guest 

put me out of my misery
lay me down let me rip 
i gave it all, to be deceived 
i took the fall just for relief 
you always loved me on my knee 
so go ahead and set me free
i know you wanted more than me 
so pull my soul right out tonight 
cant see the light 

// chorus 
cause I think that I’m hexed
she took the blood from my neck 
said i got what I deserved, ripped my heart 
snapped a nerve, it’s the end
losing myself
now a ghost cast to hell 
said I’m leaving this earth, that’s a gift
so goodbye my friends!!!!

// outro
so say goodbye my friends 
so say goodbye my friends
say goodbye my friends
i swear that this is the end

she cut my neck cast her hex
watch your back cause you’re next!!!!

hexed

i'm geist & anthony sidoti - hexed (prod. tnvr)

mix/master and feature by @autumndropsdead
prod @windyboi

Glass jars full of candy bars
You're so close but no cigar
People stare and they real bizarre
I'm so deprived and I need to charge
Haunting me she still in disguise
I'm over here still acting shy
Once I'm confident again, she too dry
In response to me and I try to hide

Mouth is dry but, i can try this
Conversation shit is terrifying
So annoying, all the shit you fuckin' did
Being genuine is something
That you couldn't fuckin' win over

When you're on top of the world
What's the point in getting points across
You're already heard
And it hurts a lot more, when you're stuck with the girl
Who doesn't have a sense of reason while you vomit and hurl

I feel like Adele the way we could have had it all
I'm on an emissary for you, and I ain't talking brawl
Got this app inside my brain that I can never uninstall
These voices all inside my head cause paranoia in the halls

Saves her words for later
Got em wrapped in small tin foil
They act dead to me, till I'm no longer free
Now they're rising out the soil
And i'm burning all my past memories
Stare at pots while they just boil
And all my opportunities were taken to despoil

Mouth is dry but, i can try this
Conversation shit is terrifying
So annoying, all the shit you fuckin' did
Being genuine is something
That you couldn't fuckin' win over

When you're on top of the world
What's the point in getting points across
You're already heard
And it hurts a lot more, when you're stuck with the girl
Who doesn't have a sense of reason while you vomit and hurl

I feel like Adele the way we could have had it all
I'm on an emissary for you, and I ain't talking brawl
Got this app inside my brain that I can never uninstall
These voices all inside my head cause paranoia in the halls

Paranoia, paranoia 
In the halls
Emissary for you
I won't be here for that long
Wait another second
I can make it out
It hurts a lot fucking more
When you walk through the door
That I let you in, in the first place

emissary w/ autumndropsdead (windyboi)

produced by Инеон https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCuANCjKYkN8pD_xXkNYtOuQ/videos

feature https://soundcloud.com/dreamworldtony
mixed by me and tony
mastered by https://soundcloud.com/akiradoves

lyrics:
Feeling like I'm sonic I be speeding down the highway 
Shawty bad after class taking her to my place 
Saying I am trash well to me that's just a hot take
When our lips touch, she's like syrup on some hotcakes

No way, no way
 dream in the color, like he's cordae
I'm not nahmir I'm not fucking on a soul train,
She tryna come back but I'm outside of her whole lane

I've been up tonight staying recording 
High up in the sky feel like I am soaring 
Wonder what to do to make my life not boring 
Spent a few days w headwaters touring
I've been up tonight staying recording 
High up in the sky feel like I am soaring 
Wonder what to do to make my life not boring 
Spent a few days on tour with tony

(Dreamworld Tony)
Drive it like a rental car but it’s a foreign 
Hate my boring life up North I’d rather be touring 
Taking shots at the venue with a shorty 
It they pulling up with drama We ignore it 
Woke up in the car - feel like Aaron Carter 
Driving like a hundred hours yeah we just go harder 
Bitch we fast going up, got our foot in the door 
Fuck a hometown show and do a west coast tour
My beats from Ukraine 
My car stay German though 
I feel like midnight club the way my team go
Shout out to Josh's dad yeah he a real one 
California kush got me feeling like a demon
I feel like Knuckles, fuck Eggman
I’m staying up all night doing what I can

(JoshIGuess)
No way, no way
 dream in the color, like he's cordae
I'm not nahmir I'm not fucking on a soul train,
She tryna come back but I'm outside of her whole lane

Spotify

California w/ Dreamworld Tony (Инеон)

pacing, aimlessly in circles unable to recognize myself. w/ sace6

Every Memory Is Painful

Every Memory Is Painful feat. JoshIGuess (prod. Dead Spyro)

produced by https://soundcloud.com/domesticscars

I met her in a fever dream
Inside a place I never seen
I guess that nothing's what it seems 
It's always taken to extremes

I felt too lost in the moment
I'm sorry my expression never shows it
Love I gave you in the past yeah you own it
My love is buried in the ground my condolence 
I swear I thought you were perfect
But it's just another instance occurring
Another memory I made that is blurry
I still remorse and from the fact that you hurt me

And here we go our separate ways
I guess it wasn't just a waste
But I've been trapped inside this cage
I may need some help from you mage

I met her in a fever dream
Inside a place I never seen
I guess that nothing's what it seems 
It's always taken to extremes

Guess I had to take a life lesson
Didn't know it would make my life lessen
It's not always worth the connections
And it's not always worth second guessing 
I just got to go with my instincts
Gotta figure out whatever else is missing
But if you come back that's way too risky
You might go ahead attempt again to trick me

fever dream

music video

fever dream (domesticsoul)

CHEERS

I hated consciousness more than the next kid I know I was in pain
I’m overrated I get it feelings fade but why’d you go and make me wait 
Four times a day I sat on my ass like bait hoping that you’d call me up late
But you were kissing like you had a mistress well I like him more anyway 

Can’t wait to kiss his neck, tell him I’m over it 
I like his voice so bad bet it’s better over there
I hope he’s make me sad in a way that’s not so bad  
I’ve been through hell in a year but I met you so cheers 
Can’t wait to kiss his neck, tell him I’m over it 
I like his voice so bad bet it’s better over there
I hope he’s make me sad in a way that’s not so bad  
I’ve been through hell in a year but I met you so cheers 

I took all my support for granted cause you made me turn away 
I lost some friends I even lost some family that I can’t see 
You runaway cause you turn on everything but I feel that’s ok 
I’m feeling happy without you I’m madly living my life with him today

Can’t wait to kiss his neck, tell him I’m over it 
I like his voice so bad bet it’s better over there
I hope he’s make me sad in a way that’s not so bad  
I’ve been through hell in a year but I met you so cheers 
Can’t wait to kiss his neck, tell him I’m over it 
I like his voice so bad bet it’s better over there
I hope he’s make me sad in a way that’s not so bad  
I’ve been through hell in a year but I met you so cheers 

Can’t wait to kiss his neck, tell him I’m over it 
I like his voice so bad bet it’s better over there
I hope he’s make me sad in a way that’s not so bad  
I’ve been through hell in a year but I met you so cheers 
Can’t wait to kiss his neck, tell him I’m over it 
I like his voice so bad bet it’s better over there
I hope he’s make me sad in a way that’s not so bad  
I’ve been through hell in a year but I met you so cheers

HALF FULL

CHEERS

featuring & engineered by @mjmadeit
produced by @fantom-instrumentals aka @fantommuzik

(Intro)
Tell me what's on your mind?
I know what's on mine
You and me tonight

I just wanna hold you tight
Make you mine
All the time

(Chorus)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

(JoshIGuess Verse)
And I said why'd you do me like that?
Arguments the only time you hit me right back
I'm sorry I'm not around I've been getting sidetracked
I've gotten comfortable with life while you still feeling attached

I want a simple life not no complications
Wonder if I'll ever last forever dating
I've been tryna work out I've been staying patient
But it's tough knowing things you did were blatant

(Chorus 2)
I don't wanna fuck around too much and leave you down and out again
I know your heart is set somewhere and i'm just fighting to get in
I know I treated you better without no one else
You know I love you so much even by myself

lyric video

Myself w/ NightDreams (Fantom)

Mix & Master: JoshIGuess
Produced by @wetgropes
Directed by @kurama_sd

And I'll be honest
I'm beyond stressed
When our bond ends 
I'm on production
Although I turned up 
At the function
I've been tired of
Dealing with this fuck shit

Oh man does it suck
Friends always switch up
I swear I had this all cuffed
But I never was enough 

But I guess she broke the lock
And she shattered through my heart 
And I hate to rid of people
I don't wanna cut off
If it's getting this hectic 
Guess it's best we won't talk
Like I'm looking at a flower 
And the petals fell off


And I'm beyond stressed
After accomplished
People saying that I ain't ever done shit
Look at me now I'm starting moshpits
But I couldn't even handle an apartment

Oh man does it suck (does it suck does it suck)
Friends always switch up (switch up switch up)
I swear I had this all cuffed (had it cuffed had it cuffed)
But I never was enough (ohhh)

Would you be better off if I had vanished
I can't stand this place and I never planned it
If I don't got control you don't got demand then
If you don't got me you don't got a man then

Oh man does it suck (yeah it does yeah it does)
Friends always switch up (can you tell me who to trust?)
I swear I had this all cuffed (yeah i'm never in love)
But I never was enough (woah)

And friends are catching on they realize I'm not worth it
There's no reason to call when they don't got a purpose
They just sit and wait til I hit them up for service
Can you tell me if I'm just being a burden

Oh man does it suck
Friends always switch up
I swear I had this all cuffed
But I never was enough 

I wish that I could give my full love and attention
Past trauma and everything wants to prevent it
And even if you like me you know that I'm always venting
It's always to myself cus my listeners left me

Oh man does it suck
Friends always switch up
I swear I had this all cuffed
But I never was enough
Yeah

beyond stressed (wetgropes)

the instrumental for this track was done by Brandon Hammond please give him a follow :) <3
YouTube channel Link: https://www.youtube.com/@TheDjentistXIII/featured
Instagram Link:
https://www.instagram.com/thedjentist/

cover art done by my lovely gf :)

LYRICS

a runaway lost in a memory
with no escape trapped inside a maze
nothing short of a reflection of what is me

so the glass it shatters all around me 
i cant find a way out
surrounded by the shards disguised as winter 
breathe in the dust as it overtakes me 
i haven’t a single doubt 
this path i’ve followed has led to my end

now i’ll see my fate unravel before my eyes
i threw away my disguise 
not knowing the lies would swallow me up
god knows that i should’ve gave up 
long before i had the chance to feel again

a memory stuck in the back of my head soon to be dead

I WILL FORGET YOU
FORGET YOU
BLEGH

now i’ll see my fate unravel before my eyes
i threw away my disguise 
not knowing the lies swallow me up
god knows i should’ve gave up
long before i had the chance to feel again

My Disguise

featuring https://soundcloud.com/diegointhedark
produced by https://soundcloud.com/nickp3tro
mix + master by both joshiguess & diegointhedark
lyrics below
____________________________________________________________________


doing shit with no hesitation
like a step by step animation
my life is a book full of pages
and i'm tired of going thru these phases

shawty always hit my phone when i'm sleeping
bringing my clique up with a beacon
cliffhanger i'm the end of a season
catch your bitch with me in san francisco next weekend
you on the highway and you bumping all my songs
and we gonna blow up like a bomb
joshiguess and diegointhedark
we in sac and you know we going hard

money on my mind go run my bands up 
got a xan under my tongue bitch i can’t stand up 
all y’all just some clones y’all just my fandom
talk shit bitch this 30 throw a tantrum

last year they would treat me like a reject 
everybody bouncing back like a reflex
stone island when i walk imma big flex 
your bodyguard gon die shoot a big tech

she wanna fuck i don’t even gotta ask her 
i pulled up turned the show to a disaster
you want smoke put your liver on a platter 
upgraded diamonds bitch my chain is dark matter

and i swear i had to do this on my own 
you ain’t never had to struggle all alone
my girl looking pale like a ghost 
stepping out i put that rick owens my toes

shawty always hit my phone when i'm sleeping
bringing my clique up with a beacon
cliffhanger i'm the end of a season
catch your bitch with me in san francisco next weekend
you on the highway and you bumping all my songs
and we gonna blow up like a bomb
joshiguess and diegointhedark
we in sac and you know we going hard

playing cities like i'm playing on nintendo
said she wanna hang out took her back home
she wanna smash so i put in some smash bros
if she meant the other way she a bad hoe (battle)

Cliffhanger

spotify

cliffhanger! w/ diegointhedark (p3tro)

I'm Not Myself

feature : @wtchmesuffer
www.instagram.com/molliwhopin__/

Got all these thoughts in my mind but I'm just gonna fantasize
I'm never satisfied enough to try (yeah)
So I let things fly (yeah yeah yeah yeah)
I gave her the world but she gave back the universe
Now it's destroyed just like it's all a repeated curse (yeah)
You're the fucking worst (yeah yeah yeah yeah)

Inside these boggles
I got on these goggles
To shield from these models
And all of what's in my eyes (yeah)
You only shield to ride
Like you did last night
Yeah yeah yeah

But it wasn't with me
That bitch did me dirty
Should've been known that she always was one for the fucking streets
But I just can't believe that she felt complete
She opposing teams (yeah yeah yeah)
I cope with the pain she be grinding that thing on me
But it's hard to feel when I can't take it literally
I'm left bittersweet
But I guess she makes up for it with inner sweet

Was that tmi to put it all in there?
Just like I used to shit I just spilled the beans
Now she'll make a scene
And she only hits me back up once I'm 18
How fucking ironic get me out your dream
I will never commit to your bitch ass again
And I'm sorry but I can't ever be your friend
You said on your life you won't leave but you left
Now you left me upset

Didn't wanna be apart
But I should've known from the start
Fucked it up for me one time
And came back to apologize
But I can see right through your stupid lies
I been waiting for u all night
Walkin in like u got sum to hide

And I've been down this road before
I would kick u out the door cus I gotta stay composed

What I tried to know
Is what I've been told
But I know it's wrong
I'm not where you belong

Got all these thoughts in my mind but I'm just gonna fantasize
I'm never satisfied enough to try (yeah)
So I let things fly (yeah yeah yeah yeah)
I gave her the world but she gave back the universe
Now it's destroyed just like it's all a repeated curse (yeah)
You're the fucking worst (yeah yeah yeah yeah)

You're the fucking worst
Yeah you're the worst
You're the woooooorrrsstt

pre-save

you're the worst w/ suffer (savage squad)

used for the purpose of live performances

TELL ME HOW TO GET OUT!!! (LIVE VERSION)

prod https://soundcloud.com/1wayza

shawty wanna back it up like I'm backing up a hard drive
they replying on my story spamming me with heart eyes
creating all this music is just getting me thru hard times
perform like every month like it's my job, yeah it is part time

heading to the top yeah I be on that hard grind
just like yo bitch who tryna do things with me in my car tonight
had to stop giving opps attention it will be their kryprtonite
cus they invested for rejection, like their crypto that declined

i just made a bag off of a fucking mix and master
camera in my face soon it will be a broadcaster
that bitch thinking she the one but im walking right past her
and they try to hit me up but ima ghost her like casper

if you try to reach out yeah im a fucking silhouette 
someone asked me after i performed for a cigarette
i said go ask someone else bitch i don't ever do that shit
grew up seeing someone passing by it i just wanna live

yeah i just wanna live
so i stay relevant
you talking all that shit
can you do better bitch?
you way too sensitive

shawty wanna back it up like I'm backing up a hard drive
they replying on my story spamming me with heart eyes
creating all this music is just getting me thru hard times
perform like every month like it's my job, yeah it is part time

heading to the top yeah I be on that hard grind
just like yo bitch who tryna do things with me in my car tonight
had to stop giving opps attention it will be their kryprtonite
cus they invested for rejection, like their crypto that declined

back to back shows in the city all these people that I gotta invite
i got a fast pass like we at disney so you can be the first person to ride
if you a day one you better stay one cus I don't wanna lose all of you to time
yeah it's joshiguess and I'm up next and you know I always stay on the grind

yeah you know i always stay on the grind
yeah i just wanna have a good time
and i do not wanna cut no ties
yeah i just wanna keep my close ones tight

silhouette (wayza)

this song ok @xelfiy

lyrics

ok ok 
no way
since i been outta town heard that she been seeing new faces
new places, thrown around th city like she food waste
blue waves been drowning out  the city with her cruel taste
 
ok ok
creeping out at night
keep it on the lo-fi
but lil does she know that ive 
keeping out an eye
now packing up my shit but she be stepping on my suitcase

fuck now she showing regret using force 
don’t wanna deal wit this anymore
asked me u were going, will u be back in the morning 
dont worry girl its not that important

no i not bothered by these scenes
control what i can control is what i mean
i dont need to tell u bout the places that ive seen
in the end who’s gon be left yeah so ima just do me

yeah yeah yeah yeah
i dont need em coming round
ive been living in the moment now
i might need another hit so i can fucking  slow it
soak it in, take another hit before i fucking drown

ok ok 
no way
since i been outta town heard that she been seeing new faces
new places, thrown around th city like she food waste
blue waves been drowning out  the city with her cruel taste

ill find xelfiys lyrics when some1 bugs me

okokokokokok

okokokokokok2/ft_xelfiy #060122 (prod gochii)

Engineered by Play Nice

All Platforms: https://linktr.ee/co1or

They Can't Know Me (prod. Co1or)

[beat by @whatafuckingbitch]
[mixed by myself, recorded in my bedroom]
[all platforms https://songwhip.com/joshiguess/what-you-want]
do i really feel alive sometimes,
the past lingers, downing down your try,
your friends arent friends in their disguise
attempts to leave you in the lies,
its not that hard to say goodbye,
since its happened all the time,
wish i never seen em eye to eye
but i guess its just part of my life,

what you want from me pay the price, or else i will decline, i don't wanna say goodbye so just go roll the dice

one day, i'm feeling empty,
the pressure, is getting heavy,
not really that ready,
i'm sweet, but sour candy,
and i swear that all the issues, have gone  inside those tissues, of the tears that just have fallen from your eyes,
and i know i, have also cried as much as you once were before, maybe more, whats in store what  a bore i just don't wanna be ignored,

and i got so lucky now u feel so empty i wonder why x2

and i swear that your eyes are blind,
and u cannot remember even with remind,
of a simple thing i said even if u tried,
you'd pass it over and just think you're right,

What You Want

live performance <3

What You Want (Foreign Hype)

new album out now
tour tickets: https://ffm.bio/joshiguess