this is the worst time of my life :/

lyrics

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wake up n i wonder will i die today
when i think about all the drugs i take
i can’t help it when i’m sober i don’t feel okay
i don’t know if ima make it 
if i have it ima take it like fuck

i needa start soberin up
but my feelings make me sick as fuck
i needa be numb
i hate what ive become
& sometimes i think that im better off
under the dirt
6ft sleep
lie me in a hearse
..
yea i know im the worst

maybe i’ll get it one day
but now im getting high again
fuck it forget it
im giving up
im getting high again
(no not again)

wait no, no wait
thats just my brain, 
bipolar, insane
i really need change

i need a life with a substace
i needa put down the substance
i needa quit with the fuck shit
ima stand tall soon jus truss it

i try to keep my head up
but the thoughts that reside
are too heavy to hold

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maybe i’ll get it one day
but now im getting high again
fuck it forget it
im giving up
im getting high again
(no not again)
wait no, no wait
thats just my brain, 
bipolar, insane

a cry 4 help [prod. wellfed & caustyk]

On my own, you don’t want the smoke
I ain’t trust no one, everyone switching up
I was buried deep, now I’m walking dead
None this shit I see, making any sense ya ya

Constant heartache, in my chest 
I got way too many problems, everything’s on fire
Made me cut the wire, heart torn apart
Always seeing faces when I’m in the dark 

On my own, you don’t want the smoke
I ain’t trust no one, everyone switching up
I was buried deep, now I’m walking dead
None this shit I see, making any sense ya ya

walking dead (prod. metlast x thislandis)

produced by AUGUSTIN and me(:
stream on all platforms
https://open.spotify.com/track/5hJ8QLulGJeYdhEOouJGF2?si=8bb919eea4d544e9

Emotionally Unavailable prod. AUGUSTIN

prod by @jolst
MV directed by @noskeleton https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_lM3KBVLQ-E

heart attack (jolst)

WAYAHEAD (prod. maysmusic) - Original Version

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back

It's complicated whether or not to continue strolling thru this valley
I just confuse myself with a brainstorm cycling fast like a rally
This math don't fucking add up please excuse my dear aunt sally
It's hard to live life knowing next second could be the finale

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back


In my room and there's too many empty cups
Wondering when I will fill them up
All these memories fading, and hope to awaken and try to remember whatever's up
There's never true love in between a bitch with high standards or wanting to fuck
i feel like an alien inside of this world, and it's ran by people with infinite bluffs
There's too many problems continue ignoring hell i'm tempted for once i will roll up this blunt
But nah i'd rather sleep away, lights off and door shut hope the demons won't haunt
They saying that money don't bring happiness well how do you feel with a couple of bucks?
I'm tired of people online acting like there's only one way, with their narrative shoved

And just when you think things are fine and dandy
Your plan b turns to plan z
Cus it ends in such a random pull of possibility
Life itself is like playing your own game of the lottery
You ever feel the voice inside your head is just a form of mockery?

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back

Paint a picture on this canvas, all this wasted time on campus
Is it really worth the stress since all I do is stretch my worth ethic
Don't call the paramedics, i'm always doing fine at least in my own sense
Independence is something that I lack to this day
Cus there's always something that draws me back

canvas (lmg x everest)

GIVE ME YR LUV W/ YBCMILEY (ERTU)

Off “Darkflower”

[Lyrics:]

Reach for many stars
See when life restarts

Baby take me anywhere
Anywhere but here
Come with me anywhere
Anywhere but here
Anywhere but here
Anywhere but here

You've taken everything
Anywhere but here
Burnt all our memories
Anywhere but here
Anywhere but here
Anywhere but here
Anywhere but here (Reach for many stars)
Anywhere but here (See when life restarts)
Anywhere but here (I'm alone I know)
Anywhere but here (And this feeling's cold)

Anywhere But Here [+ Injury]

burn

“Gaurdian Angel“ by StvrRise | Official Audio

Music & Beat Producer - SheeshFlame
Sound Engineer - StvrRise
Art Direction - Amin Daneshgar
Visual Artists - Glitch 
Publish Manager - Parhumble 

Available on All Platforms!
https://fanlink.tv/

"Gaurdian Angel" Lyrics:

Chorus 1

Kojayi In Shaba To Khab Mani Hey Too?
Hata Ghalbet Ahani Nabood Zang Bezani Bem Khob
Asan Chera Bekhonam Vaghti Harf Mizane Cheshmo
Man Baridam Shaba Khise Tah Pelko

Vers 1

Na Mitonam Bekhabam Na Bidar Sham
Bem Bego Chera Cheshmam Bazan
Bem Bego Chera Asemonam Mah Raft
Bem Bego Chrta Nemishe Bekhabam
Toye Jonam Dard Pile Kard
Nafasam Raft Gham Riye Pas
Havas Partamo Sargije Bad 
Bsgo Kojayi Man Pishetam
Bego Chera Nemitonam Kenar To Basham
Maho Dige Nemikham Chon Miaratet Yadam
Dastband To Ro Mochame Daste To Koja Pas
Pare Tar Az Oniam Ke Bekhonam Az Halam
Be Setareha Negah Kardam
Harf To Shod Ye On Raftam To Fekr
Chera Yakh Boodi Baz To Ba Dastaye Garmam
Delam Ab Shod
Ba Atish Negah To
Shfagharo Mikhad Cheshmaye To
Mahv Besham Toye Donyaie To
Chorus 2

Kojayi In Shaba To Khab Mani Hey Too?
Hata Ghalbet Ahani Nabood Zang Bezani Bem Khob
Asan Chera Bekhonam Vaghti Harf Mizane Cheshmo
Man Baridam Shaba Khise Tah Pelko

Vers 2

Midonam Talkhe Yadet Rafte
Ghalbam Dastet Mide Khono Pas Hey
Midonam Sakhte Donbaletam Hey
Kojae Rahmet Kojae Radet
Ghalb Ahani Omram Nejatam Bede
Siah Chalehat Az Yadam Bere
Azabam Bede Azabam Bede
Nisti To Vasam Adate Khob
Naya Bebini Shod Halam Chetor
Pachide Soratam Roham Tosh Morde
Nadare Zhogh Eshgh
Na Na Samt To Nemiam Bache
Dah Ta Track Shodi
Dah Tasham Zakhme
A A Na NA Nemiam Samtet
Na NA Na Nemiam Samtet

Guardian Angel [Prod. SheeshFlame]

https://open.spotify.com/artist/6NFHn7VH6jgV2nVWqW2bsa?si=4GL1fS_8Q7iRYjWf_FlXBw

vocals - https://soundcloud.com/poppytears
produced -https://soundcloud.com/lilhappylilsad

cover art: www.instagram.com/kenny_ravee/

☆ lyrics ☆

You were waiting there 
Calling out to me 
I don't pick up the phone 
And I'm your remedy 

The time we spend apart 
The apartments empty 
You've been filling up my heart 
Just to go and leave 

It's like I drip into this state of mind 
I run and still I fall behind 
Would you close every single blind 
Then come right over and shut my eyes 

You say your forever with me 
And I been blacked out in a back seat 
You say I forget all I see 
Baby I'm getting clean 

I been tasteless, wasted, I might need a facelift 
I might need something to get me out of these cravings 
Alien, stay in, memory erase it
It was all secret, k-pin, deep in 

You were waiting there 
Calling out to me 
I don't pick up the phone 
And I'm your remedy 

You were waiting there 
Calling out to me 
I don't pick up the phone 
And I'm your remedy 

The time we spend apart 
The apartments empty 
You've been filling up my heart 
Just to go and leave

canvas (lmg x everest)

JoshIGuess