just a lil thank you

IN THE SAND NOW, TAKE MY HAND NOW, WE CAN TAKE A WALK,
WE CAN GO WALK IN THE PARK, BUT I AIN'T NO JACK HARLOW,
TAKE ME WITH YOU TO A SHOW, WE CAN STOP IN SACRAMENTO 
ACE OF SPADES DIVER OR HARLOWS,
TELL ME WHERE YOU WANNA GO, IF WE CAN'T WE'LL FIND
TOMORROW, WE WILL CATCH ANOTHER RIDE, I JUST WANT YOU BY MY SIDE
BUT WE'VE GOTTA STAY INSIDE AND KEEP THIS CLOSE 

ITS THE WEEKEND HIT THE BEACH AND, WASH AWAY OUR THOUGHTS IN THE DEEP END,
I CAN LEAP IN, TO DISCOVER, HOPING THAT I'LL FIND ANOTHER, I KNOW OCEANS
GOT CONNECTIONS SO WHY'D THINGS GET SO HECTIC, FELT A SPARK, LIKE ELECTRIC
TO MY HEART, UNEXPECTED, SWEAR IM OVERPROTECTIVE, BUT I JUST WANT YOU TO BE OKAY
AND HELP YOU STAY INSIDE THIS PLACE MAKING YOU FEEL HAPPY, THE COMFORT OF BEING SAD,
FEELIN LIKE THAT I AM SAPPY, WHILE MY THOUGHTS STAYING AWAKE, I SWEAR THAT HERS ARE JUST NAPPING,
WHEN HER FEELINGS ARE SUBTRACTING, I WISH THAT I KEPT ON ADDING,
EVERYTHING JUST FELT REPEATED, I WANTED SOMETHING NEW, I WISH TIME I COULD SPEED IT, BACK AND FORTH
TO SEE WHATS TRUE, AND WHAT'S NOT

ITS THE WEEKEND HIT THE BEACH AND, WASH AWAY OUR THOUGHTS IN THE DEEP END,
I CAN LEAP IN, TO DISCOVER, HOPING THAT I'LL FIND ANOTHER, I KNOW OCEANS
GOT CONNECTIONS SO WHY'D THINGS GET SO HECTIC

WHO AM I KIDDING, THIS IS SILLY, I DONT THINK IM APPEALING, YOU WAS WAITING, LIKE YOU'RE KILLY,
WAS SHE REALLY TRYING TO KILL ME, I DONT THINK SO, BUT HER STARE FELT, I WAS GUILTY IN LOVE

guilty in love (black rose)

I know that I can do way more than I ever could imagine
Oh I swear I loved you much
But the way I showed it felt like a distraction
For myself hoping I can feel the way I used to be before
Gotta find that on my own so I 
Stand here alone in my bedroom bored
I swear that I would just go back
I can't escape from my dark past
I think I'll last way longer if I wasn't such a hassle
Feel like me, you are on canoes but we didn't have a paddle
I know that you and I could be but it was more than we could handle

more than we could handle (jturn)

Lyrics:
im getting really nervous, why i keep on searching, its not really hurting,
 cannot be outside when, we're stuck between these doors and they 
decide to come
close in, only us together we're the lock above the floor and,
and i swear that, maybe its best i stay away, stay in this enclosed space,
with only you beside me, but shes staying here behind me, right behind 
that door, she'll walk inside my mind, still thinking all the time, 
why can't i just forget, what we were ever meant, cannot go outside
i cannot treat you right, at least i got another, why you're still
bothered yuh

lost the key to the lock i had, for this door between us because,
i never wanna look back at the memories of who i was, because
i never wanna look at the energy, of our toxic love, 
and i read the book, end of fantasy, we're done


it's hard to figure out, do i wanna break this door open,
now, i wanna go outside, but what will be the price,
will she steal me will she heist, will i just stay
with my wife damn

You Don't Love Me Like You Used To

you don't love me like you used to (matthew may)

stayed up all night i'm still checking my phone,
then why do you always still feel alone,
hugging my pillow cuz u are not here
you drive me crazy, but i let you steer,
i loved you much and i done made that clear,
wanted to do this for so many years,
message in bottles are filled with just smears,
cuz thats how my mind feels thinking of old peers

i've been going through a lot of nonsense
its gotten to where i feel very cautious
what'd they do with my brain yeah they washed it,
too much numbers in my head apartment complex,
and i'm just blasting off just like a rocket,
i feel like i'm playing tag just cuz i'm just not it,
and i'm washing all these thoughts just like a faucet,
so i'm the one that made em wet, just think about it,
yuh

stayed up all night i'm still checking my phone,
then why do you always still feel alone,
hugging my pillow cuz u are not here
you drive me crazy, but i let you steer,
i loved you much and i done made that clear,
wanted to do this for so many years,
message in bottles are filled with just smears,
cuz thats how my mind feels thinking of old peers

live performance <3

hugging my pillow (sleepydex)

slid in dms, i let you in, i became your medicine, i'm always the cure,
i wanted it more, i wanted it more, i wanted it more, i wanted it more i always felt a different thing,
spending time with you, i just take this time to sing, to express my feeling past and present, i worry about the future too much,
but honestly it's looking good now, couldn't feel a thing, anything but you really got me in a mood now,

gotta get through this won't complain, i'm glad about what we have today, we got a reward at stake, and we always got the goals to chase,
you know what we got to get through, in this life there is a maze, of these choices we give or take, and impress it to our amaze,

i am nervous, to serve this purpose, but it's just the way life goes now,
do i deserve this, of course it's urgent, now you know you'll never feel alone now,
i just got to take past actions with a grain of salt, 
cuz even when things were my fault, i put those things to a halt now,

and i just got to improve every day that i can, i need to prove, that i'm a man, that really cares so deeply, for his beings in his presence,
and i can be your medic, even when its hectic, i promise i won't let it,

ohhh-- ohhh--- ohhh--- ohh---

live perfomance <3

medic (kudyo)

i've been on this hiatus, im in bed feel vibrations,
life has gone to vacation, but it's been so frustrating,
aaaaaa aaaaaaa aaaaaa aaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaa aaaaaa aaaaaa
this lockdowns got me crazy, this lockdowns got me failing,
but i need to find my way back up, to the point that i used to handle,
what you think? what you think? what you think? what you think? what
you think? i can't sleep, i can't sleep i can't sleep i can't sleep
what you mean what you mean what you mean what you mean, this repeats
this repeats this repeats in my brain,


i can't feel the way i used to when,
i can't see them, i can't see friends
even tho there were the enemies, i don't know cuz i can't get ahead of me,
 you know that i let it get to me, and i say that i am 
i'm not really ready, for this future now,
it seems every year gets ruder now,

lockdown (valley mountain)

new album out now
tour tickets: https://ffm.bio/joshiguess

more than we could handle (jturn)

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