throw up :p + syris (proz)

https://soundcloud.com/youngburial
https://soundcloud.com/polearm
prod by: https://www.youtube.com/@QUITAllBeats
https://open.spotify.com/track/72fWpzdKn2tPeY3m7e13iQ?si=33ca61b0fd0a4383&nd=1&dlsi=2a7bb40ccad7477d

I try to discover my self love
Really all those times I do not give a fuck
I try to rest my head but it's never enough
I'm up at 4am recording another song

And can you tell me once again if it's a lie
I just wanna know before my health declines 
I don't wanna go thru this shit again
And I'll crush these thoughts like I put em to the blend

And every time I go zzz
Up at least til 3
No it's not that easy
And I remember memories of you just cheating on me
But I just gotta hold myself together

I try to discover my self love
Really all those times I do not give a fuck
I try to rest my head but it's never enough
I'm up at 4am recording another song

It's never enough
I'll just spend my night feeling down and I'm out of luck
Closer at the wall for an hour shutting off
I'm going mad I just need someone to trust
Laying in my bed disassociate again
Can't stop running back all the little things you said
Can't stop turning down all the chances that I get
I've become a fraction of the person that I was

I try to tell myself I’m over it
But I can’t stop endorphins
Still riding on the hope of it
But I might not get to close to it
And I know you raised the bar but could you lower it?
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do for something more than this
But i wish you’d bring me down
But you got bored of it
I gave you all the time I had but you want more of it
All we do is sit inside
I think there’s more to this
I think there’s more to this
But you’re not supporting it

And can you tell me once again if it's a lie
I just wanna know before my health declines 
I don't wanna go thru this shit again
And I'll crush these thoughts like I put em to the blend

spotify

blend w/ fats'e & polearm (quitall)

crawl across the wall by 9aradox featuring dontcriii 
produced by auki

crawl across the wall + dontcriii [aki]

featuring & mixed by https://soundcloud.com/9aradox
prod https://soundcloud.com/oritachi-sama
mastered by me + 9aradox 
photo by: https://soundcloud.com/whatafuckingbitch edited by me
yeah yeah yeah yeah
yeah yeah yeah yeah
yeah yeah yeah yeah 
yeah yeah yeah yeah

shawty wanna buy me drinks while we turn up at the club
and i'd be doing that but i ain't even 21
so when we at the pub yea you know i get my grub
and i'm counting all my stubs and she tell me she the one

a bad bitch only want me for the night
a real one to me will always come to requite
my ex looking back at me saying she wants a contrite
i just tell her she a joke like mario is to spike

and there's a reason that i live a private life
cus once everyone knows they will all just try to entice
with everything that interests me feeling so memory wiped
and i just want discoveries someone to show their other side

feeling like grimace with purple stains all on my neck
my fit so bright that rave lights show in the reflect
that bitch say she want me but then she looks like a grotesque
there just comes a point where me and people never intersect

shawty wanna buy me drinks while we turn up at the club
and i'd be doing that but i ain't even 21
so when we at the pub yea you know i get my grub
and i'm counting all my stubs and she tell me she the one

girl i'm in the club, you know that i been turning up 
if you hear me thru your speakers baby you should turn it up
addicted to you girl your love is like a drug 
i'm coming for you baby you should give it up
i'm so sick of everybody they all act so typical 
the way that i be flowing on the beat is so despicable 
i just popped six tabs like bitch i hope that i get visuals 
i'm moving like a thief in the night bitch i'm invisible

onenitestand + 9aradox [nokia2k]

delusionallllllllllllllllllllllllllll


wanna make my thoughts go away but they won’t 
like the scars on my wrists permanent til im old 
ur the reason that i bleed but i need u next to me 
i feel when ur by me girl im begging on my knees 
i just love getting high everyday im a joke 
i replaced her pain with hate i dont think she’ll ever know 
but u should’ve been with me i still see u in my dreams 
i’m not delusional but i don’t get any sleep 
idc at all if i stay so obsessed 
ik that ur the best 
but ur so cynical find ur corpse on the web 
i can’t deal with the stress 
im always so depressed 
i can’t feel my heart cuz ur the voice in my head 
i hate it change my face 
fucking change everything 
i’ll be somebody else for you idc ur all i need 
turned my bed into my grave but without u such a shame 
ik that i’ll be gone soon

pathetic love story

cant have what i want dont get what i need 
prod. me 
feat. @w6lker
mastered by me 

@misalivee
cuz ur the one i want u can cut me up

like yeah i watch i watch you from your window
you can cut me up for you're one i want
for you baby i would cut
haunt me like a ghost with your eyes closed
wrapped around my soul baby keep close

and baby im a mess but youre the one i want
you can take my heart take me any time you want
like baby hit me up cuz youre the one i want
pretty little ghost take my soul any time u want

@w6lker
i must atone, i cannot live, and i deserve to die
i let them put syringes in my skin, and tear out both my eyes
hate to admit that i was sick, i guess it's no surprise
become a martyr for my god, and give away my life

give what i owe, but they do not forgive
it's hard for me to move with these nails in my wrist
flail your arms at the sky, but there's no one above
trust i've tried it before, i have given my blood

i can't feel my heart, but it's beating, i think it is
so very somber, i try not to think of it
hunted as rabbits, he wastes us, and wears our skin
all things consumed, animals, that's the way it is

want what i cant have ++hauntingclaire

prod. @zeromandia x ‪@d2s1‬
EDIT: im fucking crying bro my lisp in this is o badi m cdying i love this song sm but the lisp bro so embarrasing </3 guys dont hate me!

you're welcome everyone its a song NOT about a relationship, applause please!
(pre-intro or sum idk)
“—and do what they THINK i want... you're not ME. you don’t KNOW what I want. i want to do what I WANT to do, not what you THINK I want.”

(intro/chorus)
you don’t gotta get it right
you don’t even know me, ight?
i can tell i’m not ur type
“don’t fuck with shit u don’t like”
type.
i can tell i’m not your type
you can't read my lips, don’t try
you don’t get my lyrics

like, “what?” 

ask me what there is to get—
——set yourself up for failure 
right then.
u don’t gotta get it right
like?
you don’t get it, kay thats fine.
you don’t get it? you’ll be fine.

(verse)
all y’all try to tell me how i’m supposed to play the game
got me looking half insane
talking to myself, i’m strained, my voice is -

drowned out in the noises
you can’t hear my frequency so i would try to lower it
what’s the point?
fuck i quit.
 
you don’t know
tell me shit
you just wanna help by doing what you think i want
you don’t care about my thoughts
you don’t care about my truth
you just care about philosophies that only fit with you
fuck ur theory
cus i lived it.

(bridge)
said the bad will make the good
but i’ve had so many bad days
maybe i misunderstood?
but it really don’t feel that way…

(pre-chorus)
i want what i want for once
wanna make myself my own path
but i know if i fuck up
y’all will say i shoulda took my chance — when you tried to give it-
sorry that i took my life, and i tried to live it!
got me fucking livid
what’s the point of living?
give me an equation, i will spend the rest of my life trying make the solution make sense.
or maybe ill just stay dense!

(chorus pt.1)
ohh-
you don’t gotta get it right
you don’t even know me, ight?
i can tell i’m not ur type.

(outro/chorus pt.2)
don’t fuck with shit u don’t like, type.
i can tell im not your type
you can’t read my lips, don’t try
you don’t get my lyrics. like..?

what. 😐

you don’t get my lyrics.

like..?

i don’t need u 2 fw me. (@zeromandia x ‪@d2s1‬)

new songs every 2 weeks now i hope u enjoy <3 all plats soon

lyrics
--------
i thought we were forever
i lost all my temper
now ure talking crazy
acting like i understand u 
no i cannot repair that
used me as ur weapon
now im way to lazy
to try n fix the things we had done
in here i fall
its all my fault
i cant move on
i tried to run
no its way to far
u left a mark
on me these scars
from all ur love

temper

temper w/ lavendr (sqwensy)

attempting a different style, hope you enjoy

instagram.com/lonelyraver

---

lyrics

you bring out the best of me
i only wanna make u c
that ur a part of me

x2

you look so pretty in that white dress
you tell me not to say it
but you like that
we could run it right back

(vocal chops)

you look so pretty in that white dress
you tell me not to say it
but you like that
we could run it right back

i wont cry
not a single tear left my eye
i wont leave u behind
no

 x2

you look so pretty in that white dress
you tell me not to say it
but you like that
we could run it right back

white dress (dollatega)

prod meeee
ft @misalivee

hating everythinggggg

get myself sick
walkin round hating everything 
everybody like to stare every time i walk in 
smoking crack with a bad bitch XD
luvhex double suicide that's wats happening
change for me or ill nevr love u 
i just blacked out that's the only way i tell the truth 
take me back to highschool make myself sick da ba de bitch i feel so blu 
every time i think of u i just don't know what to do 
every night i get too high i hope that u know i can't let u go

she gone leave me stuck
you gone leave me drained baby idgaf
twisted off my drugs i never gave a fuck
i would kill myself just to see u know im dumb
say what? idgafff
used to think im cool 
now wont ever hit me up
i know im dumb
i just love a ghost
this dont even matter 
she wont hear it so ill go
```

make myself sick ft misalive

Production By Favo
Mixed By 14kBird
https://www.instagram.com/14kbird/
https://www.instagram.com/prod_favo/

From city that only rains of purple only the white bird can shine. The other with death on him and cant bare to look into his eyes. Shine god said shine for you blood brothers 14k and favo will show them.

onenitestand + 9aradox [nokia2k]

JoshIGuess