afterlife
- https://linktr.ee/prod.afterlife

jolst 
- https://instagram.com/prodjolst
- https://youtube.com/c/jolst

Lyrics:
@joshiguess
I've been lost in the river spirits,
they calling me in yeah you know I can hear it
i swim in motion thru these emotions,
better not put me in a potion 

I've been lost in the river spirits,
they calling me in yeah you know I can hear it
swim in motion thru these emotions,
better not put me in a potion 

I called her to the dance, but she left me in a trance, she's not just a fan, want me to be her man, don't know if i can, i just might be banned, i sent her home with a stain on her pants

Falling in love, or am I aromatic, I can't ever trust, a loner or myself, I really need help, is life really worth it, the time will tell, but I don't think that I deserve this, 

my ex friends think it's urgent, that my only purpose, is to ruin their own living, they really got me tripping, cuz that's what they do, they avoid the truth rather see me in a noose, they just wanna see me blue

Can't decide I'm alright, they decline, I ask em why
Can't decide I'm alright, they decline, I ask em why

I've been lost in the river spirits,
they calling me in yeah you know I can hear it
i swim in motion thru these emotions,
better not put me in a potion 

@akiradoves
hurt me now 
hurt my emotions
give me now
give me your potion
and you're far away from me
leave me there running in the street
hurt me now 
hurt my emotions
give me now
give me your potion
leave me there right on the floor
you're gone

@cypression
when you left it took a piece of me
 i gave everything and you left me here to bleed
 i tried my hardest to make you stay 
but i guess it never mattered at the end of the day
(oooooooooooo--- woah-----)

@joshiguess : Can't decide I'm alright, they decline, I ask em why

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river spirits w/ akiradoves & cypression (afterlife x jolst)

//lyrics//
(verse)
all the pain can't take fucking up my brain alone inside my bed taking all these meds i don't wanna deal with you i don't wanna deal with the world i just lay in bed and cry no longer i feel alive i wake up upset u wake up feel dead repeat repeat I'm so sick of it can't find the meaning of life i can't find my purpose I'm searching so hard imma misery don't go away i need you now
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(hook) 
walking in this party slit my wrist I'm sorry wanted to say something guess it's fucking too late and you don't see me in the crowd I'm too busy fucking up my life 
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(verse 2)
look at me when you're talking said you fucking love me but just partly i feel so stupid and disgusted matter fact imma jump off when the sun down 
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(bridge)
imma emotion less and i don't feel no pain all this fake ass love can just go away listen to me when im talking saying you don't want something more 
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(verse 3)
imma fall inside a fucking comatose overdose don't you hear my word and please hit my phone and I'm just dying on the floor imma joke and please just stop try to hit my phone why am i like this I'm so useless worthless i don't wanna be alive anymore i hear it i hear it it's getting so louder don't wanna be here no more
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(hook) 
walking in this party slit my wrist I'm sorry wanted to say something guess it's fucking too late and you don't see me in the crowd I'm dealing with anxiety 
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(verse 4) 
agony is killing me depression and drugs is killing me i just wanna wake up feel happy instead i feel so sad the reaper is still calling me trapped in a cage i can't escape feel so fucking empty someone save me 
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(outro)
and i don't wanna wake up no more don't wanna feel fucking numb i fucking can't take this shit 


comatose (thersx)

(i don't own this beat whatsoever. using this beat non-profit)
Mixed/Mastered By Me
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Prod By https://soundcloud.com/nadiakuk & https://soundcloud.com/killedmyself
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//Lyrics//
blood on the bed not like the rest feeling so dead wasting time will i ever be okay she told me she's leaving me I'm dying so slow wake up from this nightmare feeling the cold air 
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there's blood on my wrists there's cuts on my wrists they say life is too  simple I do not wanna exist don't wanna be here leave me alone leave me in peace
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blood on the bed not like the rest feeling so dead wasting time will i ever be okay she told me she's leaving me I'm dying so slow don't wanna be here leave me alone

leaving everything behind (killedmyself)

Rotation

mixed/mastered by me <3
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prod by https://soundcloud.com/johnnyfriend

it's getting out of control (johnnyfriend)

let me down (siem spark x heyrick) never right

h3art 0n a st0ve (prod.MCX)

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《藍光雲海》.mp3

Built on dreamy guitars, deep 808s, and melodic vocals, this track dives into pain, healing, heartbreak, and the quiet battles no one sees.

The song blends melodic rap, sad rap, and cloud-trap atmospheres to create a late-night, floating soundscape that captures the feeling of trying to hold yourself together while falling apart inside.

Produced and crafted with the signature Madman Music emotion and depth.

For anyone who’s ever felt broken but still glowing in the dark — this is for you. ⭐

river spirits w/ akiradoves & cypression (afterlife x jolst)

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