special thanks to production from tykun & these co prods
https://soundcloud.com/hottubjohny
wvstend
https://soundcloud.com/stellarjmc
phegsbeats
https://soundcloud.com/rjpasin
marcøs

independence to the second power

You gotta face it
I know that you keep seeing faces
Projected in the dark like a silhouette
Remember back when you were laying on a pillow pet
And now she got the pillow wet, feeling explicit

But I don't want that
I'm just hoping I can always get a call back
I'm not looking for immediate responses
I'm just looking for at least you to respond back
But she don't want that

I know your life is busy, can you update whereabouts?
Cus you've been acting differently, you used to treat me paramount
I'm like your lost airpods that cannot pair with sound
And I feel so lost staying in this small town

Where's your location?
You say that i'm sounding insane then
But i'm not playing I just want you safe there
It's one sided actions I can't play this game fair
So just take care

You gotta face it
I know that you keep seeing faces
Projected in the dark like a silhouette
Remember back when you were laying on a pillow pet
And now she got the pillow wet, feeling explicit

But I don't want that
I'm just hoping I can always get a call back
I'm not looking for immediate responses
I'm just looking for at least you to respond back
But she don't want that

bare minimum

You're still my best friends
Even if we're distant
And I can't fathom losing over disagreements
And I can't help that I keep enjoying peace where
I stand next to lakes and to the mountain peak and

I take in the fresh air as I continue breathing
And you don't gotta worry what you do and don't believe in
Just as long as you don't battle me with your own demons
Cus it's hard for me to handle anyone close that is leaving

He's stuck with her and I just gotta accept that
And my other friends busy and I wish I could prevent that
Ghosted about a year and i'm still tryna get back on track
Without their energy i'm missing my other half

Yeah the percent is 50
Josh nowadays doesn't feel too nifty
Lost track of my mind when I had an epiphany
Yeah I'm always coming down like Santa from a chimney

I can't keep running away from this society
But it's hard to keep these feelings that are inside of me
I used to have a lot of people that were right behind me
But once they keep on moving forward they say bye bye to me

You're still my best friends
Even if we're distant
And I can't fathom losing over disagreements
And I can't help that I keep enjoying peace where
I stand next to lakes and to the mountain peak and

And yeah I may be afk
But i'll still try to be there any day
Just wish it didnt have to be this way
If only my mind could never break

Never break
I made too many mistakes
I just gotta teach myself to behave

long distance

Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
What the fuck?
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone

For weeks in a row
No one hit my phone
Just the normal ones
And the normal ones only when they low
They be sending some
I just want someone to be the one to hit me up for once
And I had that before but she fell out of love

People get a little ounce of glance toward themselves
There's no connection it's just texting we were never pen pals
Texts so dry the person probably covered up with 10 towels
But i cannot be talking when I just always respond in lols
Communication has been nothing but a nuisance
Wish things went well so I don't have to go thru this
Never ending cycle of my guilt and fears
Gotta close down slowly like i'm sears

Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
What the fuck?
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone
Everybody gone

Am i just meant to do this on my own?
It's already felt that way as i was in control
And the taste is gone like an empty cereal bowl
I guess that's just the life they chose

everybody gone

Tell me why she came running to me
Her life has been a whole on movie
I can't take even trying to sympathize
Cus even if I step in it won't feel right

She fell out of love with her other guy
That she left me in the dust for
So lustful
I don't know if i'll ever feel trustful
Around her knowing how fast she let go
But my heart still cries
My heart still cries

Our eyes locked and I just can't help but feel bad
Is this manipulation or actual status
I don't know if I should return to her
She didn't think about me in reverse
Only forward
Like how she should move right now
I'm worried that I might be the only way how
I don't ever want her to find her way out
I care too much she don't deserve constant frowns

I made this album with the mindset of being detached
Now she coming back fuck how about that
She probably listen whether or not I come back
That's the biggest problem music always in tact

Tell me why she came running to me
Her life has been a whole on movie
I can't take even trying to sympathize
Cus even if I step in it won't feel right

reconcile

Miscommunication
Got my heart racing
I can't tell if its just the way that you're behaving
But I hope that you're the one for me i'm too impatient
Can't trust someone in another bed as a patient

Is anyone truly stable?
Or is it all a fable
Is there a controller and our life has turned to cable
She has 2 sisters that rhyme with each other like able
So I guess if it ain't work out there's others on the table
Okay tho

Let me be serious just for a little moment
My last was a liar and she wasn't too devoted
I guess that's what I get for not wanting her promoted
But it's getting too hectic to just wait on being chosen
I spend all this time on my music and emotion
Never on a stable sleep cycle, fuck a token
It's always midnight with these lyrics that I wrote in
But I debate with myself if I should even post it

Miscommunication
Got my heart racing
I can't tell if its just the way that you're behaving
But I hope that you're the one for me i'm too impatient
Can't trust someone in another bed as a patient

Is anyone truly stable?
Or is it all a fable
Is there a controller and our life has turned to cable
She has 2 sisters that rhyme with each other like able
So I guess if it ain't work out there's others on the table
Okay tho

Even a digital notebook can burn its existence
Why does everyone I fall for come at a distance
Everyone always sees me as a business

Can someone take me to an alternate dimension
Where I don't have to keep losing a best friend
Forget everything that they always mention
So let's invent it all and put it to the test then

Miscommunication
Got my heart racing
I can't tell if its just the way that you're behaving
But I hope that you're the one for me i'm too impatient
Can't trust someone in another bed as a patient

Is anyone truly stable?
Or is it all a fable
Is there a controller and our life has turned to cable
She has 2 sisters that rhyme with each other like able
So I guess if it ain't work out there's others on the table
Okay tho

miscommunication

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

They try to creep up in the comments but it doesn't mean shit
If they weren't so pressed wish it was something I could fix
But you know something you can never fix, guess what? A bitch
Cus it ain't no grudges only stay how it is

How it is? I ain't give no second chance
Got other plans, i'm not gonna interrupt it for my fans
What you ask? What you ask? Why don't you say in my dm
They be staying talking back no matter what like Talking Ben

Why do I keep waking up in my own dreams?
Break the door down in this movie please cut the scene
If it goes on lockdown just grab my keys
Now I'm in the dark void the new sentry

These monsters got me on the scare floor
Cus im in bed with nothing to prepare for
But I stand on my two feet let's compare yours
You rocking yeezy still but I be rocking air force

Guess that's why they switched from scary to laughter
Cus sometimes our fear is worth what is after
I know sometimes it can turn into disaster
It doesn't hurt to try

And there's a big eye watching from above like Mike
Watching my every move far from sight
Always rejected i'm not their type
But stick to my gut it don't hurt to try

scare floor

Slowly drift to a place
So far away
I can tell it's nowhere near yesterday
The past and present shall not be erased
It's gotta stay for my future to take

Now i'm truly stuck in the middle of nowhere
And I cannot choose between my long or my short hair
Is this town vintage or modern like warfare?
They told me at least I got a room to record there
So why not take my time and go and explore there
Before the time expires and it starts to outgrow there
So let's go and try and start to make it a home there
They try to tell where I am like, it's a no share

And there's times I know i could be elsewhere
But you know I won't feel like myself there so

Slowly drift to a place
So far away
I can tell it's nowhere near yesterday
The past and present shall not be erased
It's gotta stay for my future to take

There's no escape now there's no way to transport
Unless I'm getting to the bag like i'm wearing Jansport
Or I truly use my legs, yea it's a man's sport
Catch me chilling in the back of a vans store
Of a vans store

middle of nowhere

You made me set my standards so high
My hometown stay believing all these lies
Later this month I can stay sipping pints
Gonna show her I would've been the right guy

She want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't
She want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't

Told me just a little bit of time is all she needed
Her look in her eyes I couldn't trust her too deceiving
She begging on her knees yeah she continue pleading
Like she did with her little time she was receiving

From the back
You don't want me back

Just until again, when you phone a friend
Then break up with me, and go back with him
And I love her so, but she can't commit

Why does everyone have to be a fucking bitch?
You can't give the definition of what true love is
You've gotta prove that mine is above his
You tried but you put me in the rough bitch
Some tough shit

She want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't
She want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't

So you sending me
All these memories
You ain't forgetting me
It's just unsteadily
Reaching to a point
Where I'm your only choice
But hate when I avoid
You treat me like a toy
And you prefer iphone, well I prefer a droid
Cus my battery will last longer than ya boy
You would've been with me forever until we're in soy
But you chose an ounce of temporary joy

She want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't
And she want me back
What's up with that?
I can, I can't
I can, I can't

And my trust has went from 1% to zero
But these bitches have a rulebook they can veto
And I don't give a fuck if she's flaming hot like cheetos
I'm gonna figure her out like Zito

she want me back

I'm just chilling in the back with those i met over years
I feel like i've done it all and I have faced all those fears
So why does success not ever bring me back into tears?
I guess I cannot feel a thing even if around my peers

I gave it my all, it's mostly just rise and fall
Just waiting patiently to receive my future life on a call
Every success stories different just think it's not quite my time
More than 20 years have passed at least you could say that I try
Been doing shows so frequently got bigger artists asking how
Guess that's what you get when you just open up your mouth
And I know the success of others just has its ups and downs
So that's why i'm tryna self reflect and make more solos now

So what you think what you think?
What you think?
All I had to do was lock in just to feel like me

I don't need to reach an audience I just love my craft
Practicing these songs in my room but wish it was with a band
And I just need someone sweet to offer to take their hand
But it's like looking for a treasure in the deep buried sand
I was on the stage with those i've looked up to my whole career
And i've done dream collaborations with people that i've held so dear

I'm just chilling in the back with those i met over years
I feel like i've done it all and I have faced all those fears
So why does success not ever bring me back into tears?
I guess I cannot feel a thing even if around my peers

self reflections

Say I'm stuck in a box
I really don't give a fuck
I'm just sticking with the sound that I fucking love
I'm here to prove em wrong
Yeah we blowing up

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Over 5 years and you can't stay situated
Even tho i grew up they'll still be hating
And even if I blew up, don't know what they saying
Just know it won't be anything worse investigating

Too pure for this world my greatest strength and weakness
I be getting booked for shows every other weekend
But I always been sober yeah I wasn't ever tweaking
Guess that's enough to call me a poser for a reason

Just know that my vocals better than most the scene
But these people stay in boxes for their labeling
They say this music styles dead, well not for me
I'm bringing this shit back for eternity

Me and tykun making banger after banger
Shawty hmu later I might bang her
Showcasing my own styles on some hangers
Cus man im one hell of a genre changer

I don't need to suffer
Name in yo mouth like a gusher
All these bitches bluffers
When they lose their breathes and need a puffer

Is it their own purpose
To make their time worthless?
I stay deleting all these comments
Shoot em up just like comets

Yeah they're going to the galaxy
And I do my own mix and mastering
But I suck at vocal balancing
Better stop 4th walls are damaging
I wish I could explain my life
It's a thunderstorm cloud I feel like strife
I hate to break it to you all
But that's the end of this song

keep on

Show In Sac Pre-Sale ($10 Tickets) save asap
https://linktr.ee/oct17smash

independence to the second power

JoshIGuess