SACRAMENTO 6/8 SET

Every Memory Is Painful

Every Memory Is Painful feat. JoshIGuess (prod. Dead Spyro)

produced by https://soundcloud.com/gfsm
photo by https://soundcloud.com/whatafuckingbitch
this is an og song remastered

three times is the charm
i said three times is the charm
three times is the charm
i said three times is the charm

i swear i just want you to know
that you and i will never go
as long as you're stuck in my head
i swear the end will not be dead
you better say psych and not think twice
i mean three times is the charm
i swear i am alarmed
to look at you, look at you now

and i don't wanna cause no harm
i don't wanna be alarmed
i don't wanna be all armed
but i don't know now
and i don't know how
i should feel
is it real?
is it real

and everyone keeps making these mistakes
now everyone is just faked
taking chances now i'm at stake
then you say three times is the charm
now i'm disarmed
i swear cause no fucking harm
but you did this to yourself and now

and i tried to feel or so i thought my soul always screams back now
why you try to be with me when i can't even feel your soul thru ur screen
don't save me, don't threaten me
it's my life and if she hates me
do you hate me?
i'm going crazy
i'm feeling dazy
i'm done raving

PERFORMANCE

THREE TIMES IS THE CHARM! (GFSM)

Yeah I wanna go and travel
But every plan's just buried in the gravel
Wish I could tell everyone where I'm at tho
But if I did everyone would just go and tattle

And you know I'm not one to start drama
Don't want either memory to go and cause some trauma
Your girl feeling kinda freaky she gon pull up in pajamas
And every time I speak I freak out with too many commas

And I can't even reach a sentence
Cus nothing I can say to anyone is comprehensive
They just ghost me and act like that I never message
Been awake too long and you know I'm feeling restless

Everything I want to do is so verboten
And my head won't shut up it's causing all the commotion
And all the memories are pain maybe get some ibuprofen
Wish I could feel love again maybe boost some oxytocin

But I know that I'll feel better if you just
Leave me alone
And all these dreams that I see with my eyes but it'd be best to
Take me home
It's all I know

Start great
Then it's heartbreak
Then I partake
In being prostrate
But I behave
And I know I'll be okay
I'm on an infinity train
But I'm waiting for fall break
So I can hear the wind and the rain
I can't sleep today

But I know that I'll feel better if you just
Leave me alone
And all these dreams that I see with my eyes but it'd be best to
Take me home
It's all I know

Yeah It's all I know
Doing what I can only hope
Least my life has pericopes
Looking way too far with a periscope

And we barely spoke
Yet she wants to go call it an elope
Leave me alone (it's all I know)

verboten (tykun)

featuring https://soundcloud.com/hoshiestar
prod https://soundcloud.com/omgartixan

She only finds interest while she getting wasted (huh)
And I'm thinking bout all the fucking time I had to wait then

I'll take another, no reason to cuff her
For the rave I'ma take her out the suburbs
Watching cars pass on the edge of the gutter
When she stay the night, she spread it out like it's butter

Yeah we stay up all night yeah we on mario party
Yeah we download play we connect to the lobby
And she want my paste but I just want a copy
And the two of us pair like we're walkie talkies

Like we're walkie talkies
What you doing walking with a bag of takis?
And i don't see a reason why you should love me
Realize I'm a star and I'm feeling like I'm hoshie

And I only have interest
In all the drugs that I ingest
And I know that it doesn’t serve a purpose
But tonight I'ma see if it's worth it

I tried to take her to the top
I tried to put her on
There's some work I gotta do
But I'ma put it off
Designer all up on my fit
You know I put it on
Live my life like its a role
You know I took it on

She only finds interest while she getting wasted (huh)
And I'm thinking bout all the fucking time I had to wait then

And yea we got too drunk another passed out on the pavement
And no one was in the right state of mind to say it
And there's been days I thought of going faceless
But I want to hear people scream my name and say it

Stay inside and bleed
I just wanna be me
And I just wanna feel free
But she begging on her knees

And she only find interest while she's getting wasted (huh)
And I'm thinking bout all the fucking time I had to wait then, huh

hell w/ joshiguess (grayskies)

https://soundcloud.com/youngburial
https://soundcloud.com/polearm
prod by: https://www.youtube.com/@QUITAllBeats
https://open.spotify.com/track/72fWpzdKn2tPeY3m7e13iQ?si=33ca61b0fd0a4383&nd=1&dlsi=2a7bb40ccad7477d

I try to discover my self love
Really all those times I do not give a fuck
I try to rest my head but it's never enough
I'm up at 4am recording another song

And can you tell me once again if it's a lie
I just wanna know before my health declines 
I don't wanna go thru this shit again
And I'll crush these thoughts like I put em to the blend

And every time I go zzz
Up at least til 3
No it's not that easy
And I remember memories of you just cheating on me
But I just gotta hold myself together

I try to discover my self love
Really all those times I do not give a fuck
I try to rest my head but it's never enough
I'm up at 4am recording another song

It's never enough
I'll just spend my night feeling down and I'm out of luck
Closer at the wall for an hour shutting off
I'm going mad I just need someone to trust
Laying in my bed disassociate again
Can't stop running back all the little things you said
Can't stop turning down all the chances that I get
I've become a fraction of the person that I was

I try to tell myself I’m over it
But I can’t stop endorphins
Still riding on the hope of it
But I might not get to close to it
And I know you raised the bar but could you lower it?
There’s nothing that I wouldn’t do for something more than this
But i wish you’d bring me down
But you got bored of it
I gave you all the time I had but you want more of it
All we do is sit inside
I think there’s more to this
I think there’s more to this
But you’re not supporting it

And can you tell me once again if it's a lie
I just wanna know before my health declines 
I don't wanna go thru this shit again
And I'll crush these thoughts like I put em to the blend

spotify

blend w/ fats'e & polearm (quitall)

(prod. @curtainss)
how surreal, am i dreaming is it real how can i feel,
slip thru my ways mario kart banana peel, electrify my insides
calling me an eel, why i always gotta be the third wheel, looking back
seeing yall making these deals, watch another fly above me just to steal,
only friends with me left be popping the pill, wish i could stop em,
but hopefully i will, for real

watch the world change now,
i'm never in the circle more like candy cane now, more than half an oval,
uncompleted train house, but i guess feelings a part of life im 
paid now, isn't it crazy how much people get fame now, fake a persona to
where they be feeling great how, i bet you can hardly tolerate a day now,
the only real ones are the ones buried in the ground, i know thats kind of
harsh but i know that deep down, that you're really not ok but 
still the same sound, say you know me you not even in 
the same town, i bet u working really hard while i just lay down

Third Wheel (Curtains)

i've been so tired of living this way
i'll go and i'll fly her straight into outer space
my feelings while prior don't mean anything 
feel like a flat tire the way i'm flattening
let's move to a planet that no one's ever seen
no one can have it it's our make believe

let's plant some trees, call me mr. beast
we need the oxygen, i can barely breathe
she treats me like a king, but i bow down to her knees
and i cannot agree with everything she says
she wants it exquisite, i want it incomplete
i hate when i feel like it's not my cup of tea
but want to stay within, really makes me worry too much now
(i've been so tired of living this way)

Outer Space

oakland + sonora tix https://ffm.bio/joshiguess