AXAXC – DEREALIZATION (FULL ALBUM)
🧠 A sonic descent into addiction, masculinity, mental collapse, and identity death.
🕳 Trapcore • Deathcore • Nu Metal • Screamo • Ambient Sludgecore

“This cell doesn’t have four walls. It has my face.”

DEREALIZATION isn’t just an album — it’s a mental event. A full-body confrontation with trauma, weed addiction, spiritual despair, fractured masculinity, and the mask of perfection.
It’s about waking up in your own life… and realizing you don’t recognize yourself.

This record is the culmination of every psychological arc from previous AXAXC albums.
Legacy tracks like “Perfect”, “Tongues of Sin”, and the remastered “End of the Line” find new meaning here — not as isolated songs, but as symptoms in a larger mental breakdown.

🧠 THEMATIC ARC:
Tracks 1–5: The high. The mask. The beginning of collapse.

Tracks 6–9: Duality of identity. Cracks in the mirror. Begging to be seen.

Tracks 10–13: Shame, sin, and spiritual erosion.

Tracks 14–17: Total breakdown → false salvation → reluctant acceptance → final breath.

🔁 LEGACY TRACKS [Derealization Cuts]:
- The Nail in the Coffin
- Perfect
- Tongues of Sin
- TABOO [Remastered – Derealization Cut]
- God is a Woman (And She's Ashamed of Me)
- The Devil Said I'm Okay
- End of The Line [Remastered – Derealization Cut]

These were written long ago, but they always belonged here.
This is where their meaning finally lands.

🩸 HIGHLIGHT TRACKS:
I Am Already Dead [Alpha v.1 & Beta v.1]: The breaking point of addiction and the fracturing of self.

- Walking Dead (P1 & P2): A weed high as synthetic salvation — until the crash. 
- Prison: A scream for release from a self-built cage.
- The Mirror Lies: Rage against the curated persona you’ve become.
- God is a Woman(And She's Ashamed Of Me): The shame of spiritual failure and feminine rejection.

💀 AUTHOR’S NOTE:
“I don't want to be here anymore — but I built this version of me for you.
The man made perfect.
The man made empty.”

This is a neurodivergent death spiral in audio form.
If you’ve ever felt broken trying to be strong…
If you’ve ever loved the high more than yourself…
If you’ve ever built a mask so strong you forgot your real face underneath…
This album is your mirror.

🔥 RECOMMENDED IF YOU LIKE:
#Slipknot • #Korn • #SleepToken • #Nothing,Nowhere. • #BreakingBenjamin • #SlaughtertoPrevail • #Loathe • #FallinginReverse

DISTORT. DISTRUST. DESTROY.
#AXAXC
#Derealization #MentalHealth #Neurodivergent #WeedAddiction #MalePressure
#Deathcore #Trapcore #NuMetal #Screamo #SoundCloudMetal
#NewMusic #EmotionalBreakdown #DarkMusic #Recovery #Trauma

Prison

[Pre-Chorus]
You shout my name
One more time
Hold to my arm
Don’t let go now

[Chorus]
Pull me up, pull me up
Don’t you ever let me fall
Pull me up, pull me up
Hear me shout above it all
Pull me up, pull me up
I won’t let you slip away
Pull me up, pull me up
Hold until the breaking day
Pull Me Up !!!
Pull Me Up !!!

Pull Me Up

New band I’m making called “Nullskin” making late 90’s nu metal tracks

The Only One

Dont Ghost Me

[Verse 1]
Yeah…
We drew the blueprints on a napkin, sketched a city in the stars
Bought the hype and sold the future, never showed 'em all the scars
Promised them a golden era, built on circuits and on trust
Didn't see the wires fraying, didn't see the coming rust
Now the rain that falls is digital, the sky's a glitching screen
And the kingdom that we fought for is the coldest place I've seen
I walk through empty avenues we swore would teem with life
Cutting through the silence with a cold and quiet knife.

[Pre-Chorus]
I see the ghosts of what we planned in every pixelated light
I hear the echo of a promise fading in the endless night
This perfect world is breaking, I can feel the system crash…

[Chorus]
We're living in a Neon Wasteland, a paradise undone!
I'm deleting all the memories, erasing every one!
This beautiful illusion was a lie we couldn't keep
So I'll set this dream on fire while the architects all sleep!

[Verse 2]
You still patrol the borders of this dream we overran
Pointing at the schematics, saying "stick to the damn plan"
You polish all the chrome until it shines just like a tear
Ignoring all the warning signs, pretending not to hear
The core is in meltdown, but you're fixing up the fence
And none of this utopia is making any sense
You're ruling over ashes, calling everything just fine
But your revolution is no longer mine.

[Pre-Chorus]
I see the cracks inside your code, the flaws you can't disguise
I'm tired of the fiction I can see behind your eyes
This perfect world is breaking, I can feel the system crash…

[Chorus]
We're living in a Neon Wasteland, a paradise undone!
I'm deleting all the memories, erasing every one!
This beautiful illusion was a lie we couldn't keep
So I'll set this dream on fire while the architects all sleep!

[Bridge]
We built it all so high just to watch it all fall…
Was any of it real? Was any of it real at all?

[Chorus]
WE'RE LIVING IN A NEON WASTELAND, A PARADISE UNDONE!
I'M DELETING ALL THE MEMORIES, ERASING EVERY ONE!
THIS BEAUTIFUL ILLUSION WAS A LIE WE COULDN'T KEEP
SO I'LL SET THIS DREAM ON FIRE WHILE THE ARCHITECTS ALL SLEEP!

[Outro]
System failure.
Reboot required.
Logging out.
…offline.

Soul Siblings

Neon Wasteland (Nu Mix)

Lyrics : https://marol.bandcamp.com/track/the-quiet-legion

The Quiet Legion

"Echoes in the Fog" - The climax of Abberline’s journey. Guided by Crowe’s final ciphered messages, Abberline discovers the ritual to sever the entity’s grip: the vessel must die, and another must bear the curse. In a derelict church drowned in fog, Abberline faces Crowe, who flickers between monstrous host and pleading friend. With the pendant shielding him, Abberline drives the ritual blade home, granting Crowe release while binding the Codex’s curse into himself. As Crowe whispers his final thanks, the veil shudders and closes, but whispers still linger in the fog. Abberline, marked and forever changed, steps into the night as both detective and vessel—the hunter and the haunted.


[Intro]
The veil hangs torn, the city bleeds,
The Codex whispers ancient creeds.
A voice of man, a god disguised—
The final truth revealed to my eyes.

[Lyrical Intro]
The cipher led, the path was shown,
Through blood and ash, through flesh and bone.
One vow remains, the blade must fall,
To break the chain, to end it all.

[Verse 1]
I found his words in walls of stone,
Each line inscribed, yet not his own.
A faded photo, shadows weep,
His family’s secrets buried deep.
The pendant glows, the knife is near,
The fog resounds with what I fear.
His eyes reveal a fractured soul,
A man undone, no longer whole.

[Chorus – soaring cleans with gothic choir]
Echoes in the fog—his voice remains,
A soul in torment, bound by chains.
Echoes in the fog—his plea, his name,
I end the rite, I bear the flame.

[Interlude
So bind the flesh, so break the seal,
The Codex burns, the wound won’t heal.
So mark the skin, so call the night,
The host must fall to end the rite.

[Verse 2]
“Do it!—free me now,
The god has claimed what I allow.
These hands are not my own to guide,
The shadow waits, it will not hide.
Strike deep, my friend, the stars converge,
The knife the key, the blood the surge.
The fog will howl, the Codex feed—
Through me it reigns, through me it bleeds.”

[Pre-Chorus]
I hold the blade, my hand will shake.
(You must strike true—for both our sakes.)
The veil resists, the Codex cries—
(This is the end—its grip denies!)

[Chorus]
Echoes in the fog—the bond I sever,
One man redeemed, one cursed forever.
Echoes in the fog—the soul is freed,
The god recoils, yet clings to me.

[Bridge]
Zorath’nim! (unbind the chain!)
Mor’thak keleth! (death-words remain!)
Corpus fractum! (the flesh must die!)
Anima mea! (the soul will rise!)

[Breakdown]
Strike! The gate resounds!
Fall! The host unbound!
Burn! The Codex sears!
Bind! I bear its fears!

[Final Chorus]
Echoes in the fog—his voice departs,
The night still binds, it grips my heart.
Echoes in the fog—her blood, his plea,
One soul set free, one curse on me.

[Extended Outro]
“Thank you, Frederick…”
“Forgive me, friend…”
The pendant burns, the Codex brands,
Its scripture carved into my hands.

The fog recedes but not for long,
Its whispers weave an endless song.
I step alone, the night my shroud,
A vessel born, the curse a vowed.

Tenebris aeternum… (eternal dark)
Domine Umbra… (lord of shadow)
Anima fracta… (broken soul)
VINCIT UMBRA! (THE SHADOW WINS!)

[Outro]
I walk these streets where silence weeps,
I am the vessel the Codex keeps.
Echoes in the fog—they call, they bind…
I hunt the dark… yet it is mine.

Ahhhh... ahhhh... ahhhhhh...
Ohhhh... ohhhh... ohhhhhh...
Mmmmm... mmmmm... mmmmmmm...

Echoes in the Fog

The Block Below

Nightmare In My Bed

Artist: Entity

A cover/reimagine of "All the Things She Said" by t.A.T.u.
While this version includes some lyrical and stylistic changes, the base composition is not owned by Remnancy Records and remains the property of the original copyright holders.

This track is not, and likely never will be, monetized unless full legal permission is granted.

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All the things she said, all the things she said
Running through my head, running through my head
(Running through my head!)
All the things she said, all the things she said
Running through my head, running through my head
(All the things she said!)

This is not enough

I'm in serious shit, and I'm totally lost
If I'm asking for help, it's only because
Bein' with you has opened my eyes
Could I ever believe such a perfect surprise?
I keep asking myself, wondering how
I keep closing my eyes, (But I can't block you out!)
Want to fly to a place where it's just you and me
Nobody else, so we can be free
(Nobody else, so we can be free!)

All the things she said, all the things she said
Running through my head, running through my head
(Running through my head!)
All the things she said, all the things she said
Running through my head, running through my head
(All the things she said!)

This is not enough
(This is not enough!)
All the things she said, all the things she said
All the things she said, all the things she said
All the things she said

And I'm all mixed up, feeling cornered and rushed
They say it's my fault, (But I want her so much)
Want to fly her away, where the sun and the rain
Shine in over my face, wash away all the shame
When they stop and stare, don't worry me
'Cause I'm feeling for her (What she's feeling for me)
I can try to pretend, I can try to forget
But it's driving me mad, (Going out of my head!)

All the things she said, all the things she said
Running through my head, running through my head
(Running through my head!)
All the things she said, all the things she said
Running through my head, running through my head
(All the things she said!)

This is not enough
(This is not enough!)
All the things she said, all the things she said
All the things she said, all the things she said
All the things she said

All the things she said, all the things she said
All the things she said, all the things she said
All the things she said!
This is not enough

All the things she said, all the things she said
Running through my head, running through my head
Running through my head

All the things she said!

Mother, looking at me
Tell me, what do you see?
Yes, I've lost my mind
Father, looking at me
Will I ever be free?
Have I crossed the line?

This is not enough!

All the things she said, all the things she said
Running through my head, running through my head
(Running through my head!)
All the things she said, all the things she said
Running through my head, running through my head
(All the things she said!)

This is not enough
(This is not enough!)
(All the things she said!)

All the Things She Said

🔻 Song Insight

“World Worn With Gray” is a nu-metal/rap-rock anthem that rips the mask off a society drowning in lies, fake smiles, and broken promises. The track blends stomping rap verses, chant-heavy choruses, and raw crowd call-backs, channeling frustration into a cinematic wall of sound. It’s both a release and a rebellion — a declaration that the world’s toxicity won’t be hidden anymore. The song’s energy is defiant, aggressive, but also unifying, inviting listeners to shout back against the chaos.

🔻 Lyrics

Intro
Sirens screamin’ — city bleedin’
C’mon! You feel that? (Yeah!)

Chorus
It’s a fucked world (what!) — everyone’s fake (yeah!)
Every smile’s just another mistake (c’mon!)
Done with fakin’ (uh!) — done with the scene (yeah!)
Rip the mask off — show what you mean (what!)

Verse 1
Fake grins (uh!) / dead stares (yeah!)
Smoke thick (what!) / don’t care
Headlines twist / truth dismissed
Fuck that noise / same old shit

Want the real? (what!) — it’s all disguise
No real love in a world of lies
What’s lost? (uh!) — what’s gained? (yeah!)
Ain’t no middle ground these days

Chorus
It’s a fucked world (what!) — everyone’s fake (yeah!)
Every smile’s just another mistake (c’mon!)
Done with fakin’ (uh!) — done with the scene (yeah!)
Rip the mask off — show what you mean (what!)

Verse 2
Secrets deep / money talks
Fake love walks / leaves scars
I don’t fold (no!) — I don’t break (nah!)
Heart stone cold — still awake

People rot (what!) — fade away (yeah!)
Roaches crawl at the break of day
Dreams get sold / truth on lease
Ain’t no savin’ — no release

Chorus
It’s a fucked world (what!) — everyone’s fake (yeah!)
Every smile’s just another mistake (c’mon!)
Done with fakin’ (uh!) — done with the scene (yeah!)
Rip the mask off — show what you mean (what!)

Bridge
Hope’s a drug (uh!) — another lie (yeah!)
Prayers don’t work when the real ones die (c’mon!)
Dreams on pause / bombs overhead
No fairy tale — just death instead

Breakdown
Cancel posts — hashtags bleed
Money talks while the broke can’t feed
N.D.A.’s — secrets sold
Fuck your system — truth gets cold

Chorus – Final
It’s a fucked world (say what!) — everyone’s fake (yeah!)
Every smile’s just another mistake (c’mon!)
Done with fakin’ (uh!) — done with the scene (yeah!)
Rip the mask off — show what you mean (what!)

Outro
Let the mask go (yeah!)
Let the mask go (c’mon!)
Show what you mean…

🔻 Personal Reflection

This song was born out of frustration — not just personal betrayal, but the bigger picture of living in a world that feels manufactured. Everywhere I looked, from relationships to headlines, the truth felt twisted or sold off. Writing World Worn With Gray was my way of pushing back, of creating something people could scream with when the weight of it all gets too heavy. It’s not about hopelessness — it’s about pulling off the mask and refusing to play along.

🔻 4Me2BeFree

4Me2BeFree has always been about turning raw, unfiltered emotion into cinematic music that cuts deep and resonates wide. With World Worn With Gray, the project leans hard into nu-metal roots, bringing chant-driven rap-rock energy to a new generation. It’s a track built for volume, for catharsis, and for community — a reminder that music can transform pain into defiance, and defiance into unity.

🔻 Copyright Notice

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The Block Below

Joshua Baker