@joshuasageart
@quinsea
@methboiswag

Lyrics:
(JoshuaSageArt)
I still feel so shattered, I’m on the run
And I feel so attached to all we’ve done
How could I feel like you loved me🈵
It kept me from hurting👨🏻‍🦲
No heart, just open surgery🫀❌
I felt your warmth so closely🫂 <3
You make my world start turning🌍
Feels just like my skin in burning❤️‍🔥
Forever ♾ just pressure ♾
And that’s all that I have
(QUINSEA)
why do
i feel
like im breaking
inside i hope
you hate me
cut me up
simple surgery
i hope you listen closely
when i say that you should hurt me
when i say that im still lonely
i feel like im dying slowly
i can feel the world stop turning
(JoshuaSageArt & quinsea chorus)

Spotify

Surgery (w/ quinsea) [+methboiswag]

@prodmichael

https://youtu.be/Q22fCe8uHbM 
https://youtu.be/Q22fCe8uHbM 
https://youtu.be/Q22fCe8uHbM

I just spent a bag cuz im sick of feeling sad 
when I pop this pill I hope I forget who I am 
it’s because every time you talk to me I wanna go back 
it’s because I just keep fucking up, can’t go thru  this again 
and I just keep telling myself that nothing of this is real 
I just keep telling myself that someone cares bout how I feel 
and I struggle a lot feel like I’m not enough 
I don’t wanna give up but I keep nodding off 

do me dirty like my pradas 
I’m breathing in the stardust 
I don’t wanna feel like this 
that’s why I keep spending dollars ￼￼￼￼
that’s why I keep spending Benjis 
and maybe it’s not healthy 
falling back into bad habits 
I cannot undo the damage 
and even if it’s over 
I hope you wont forget me 
I just want you to know that 
I’ll keep you in my memories 
don’t like it when I’m sober 
because that’s when it hurts the most 
I think this is going nowhere 
I wish we would still be close

nodding off (michaelwarren) vid in desc

@heyyitsbenji
@troiner

hold up
wait a minute 
yeah i started living but i couldnt even finish 
o e e o o e 
i been getting stronger eating spinach
and i aint got a doubt i know for sure that imma win it

shawty i just want it back
everybody kno i need it bad 
fuck it imma go and get a bag 
i aint worry bout that
she say whats the problem why u mad 
i just hate it when u talk like that 

hold up
wait a minute 
yeah i started living but i couldnt even finish 
o e e o o e 
i been getting stronger eating spinach
and i aint got a doubt i know for sure that imma win it

and i aint got a doubt i know for sure i got my brothers by my side
free fridvy (bro is alrdy free) yea u kno its synthetic for life
i want it my way
i been having thoughts bout how ill end up in a coffin
im sorry, yeah i think about it often 

(benji)
Start slow pick it up then Put that shit in auto,
 dont wanna c me yea i fuckin thought so, 
run it up its spenny but that sht was worth the price tho,
standing jn tbe rain feeling like i hit a new low
So its like that, i just want my motherfuckng life back,
i just want to get up on a new path, 
i just wanna look up at your face as you hold me, ill tell u that im sorry

I BEEN WAITING FOR YOU JUST TO MAKE UP YOUR MIND, TELLING ME THA YOUR FINE, YEAH IM RUNNING OUT OF OPTIONS
HAVENT BEEN AROUND MUCH COZ IM ON THE DECLINE, IVE REACHED THE END OF MY LINE,AND ITS BURNING UP MY CONSCIENCE
N IM OUT HERE FORGETTING EVERYTHING DONY HAVE A PRICE TAG I JUST WANT MY MOTHEFUCKIN LIFE BACK
I just want my mf life bacm



<3 <3 <3 

yea i started living but i cudnt even finish

Wait a Minute +heyyitsbenji [troiner x safe]

prod @blackwinterwells

this is very old i think from 2020 or something

sad song (blackwinterwells)

телескоп

Decided to make this in mourning, it created a way for me to grieve through a creative outlet and I'm grateful and appreciative music has the impact to change how we feel, Enjoy the process 

TIDTM

u kno i kinda like it (prod. kaktus)*nightcore*

blame me for everthing mix @buffalobang
love got lost in the wind
hate me for everthing
sometimes i jus start to think

what will my life bring
(idk)

the only thing i know
i love i love you i lost you

the only thing i know
i love you i love you i lost you

if i take my last breath
will u be there to watch me

and when i cash my last check
will u be there to cross me

been thinking loud lately
my thoughts they tell my to end myself
idk baby i think im starting to lose myself


the only thing i know
i love you i love you i lost you

the only thing i know
i love you i love you i lost you

she got the best of me
i was down on my knees
put my chest on freeze
idk if i breath

the only thing i know
i love you i love you i lost you

the only thing i know
i love you i love you i lost you

i did it all again i hurt myself
so i will never talk back

think its embarssing
think its embarssing
to be me

think its embarssing
think its embarssing
to be me

the only thing i know
i love you i love you i lost you

the only thing i know
i love you i love you i lost you

the only thing i know (prod.shinjin)

https://genius.com/Xo-alone-wake-2am-lyrics
https://soundcloud.com/51five
https://soundcloud.com/prodgreentop

wake up // 2am (ft. 51five ) [greentop]

prod @15elias

falling down
i cant stand
i need u
more than air 
break my heart 
dont u dare
do u care?
are u there?

break my heart ik u wanna
like fuck dis shit ion fuck wit drama
make more scars n cause more trauma
my love 4 u burnin hot like lava

i jus need sum better days
baby can u pls just stay
cna u pls just stay awake
i have shit i need 2 say

lil eddy!!-
baby do not let me go (ohhhh) i would never let you go/ it'll take some time/ gotta press rewind/with your hands in mind/staring at those green eyes/and i would never let you go/ i was happy when i brought you home/i remember when you pulled me close/you told me you hate sleeping alone/and you're the reason i changed/ i know you hate it this way/you're the reason i changed/I KNOW!!!!!!

i cnt stand + lil eddy [elias]

Do 120 down the road.
@joshuasageart
@buffalobang
@boysnightsout
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UClx7V5jT6ZvFR0tKbCJrdkw
https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCFztYTzZsPflqbQQ2Lisaew
@beatsbykrave
@recyclexbin
Art by me <3

Lyrics:
(JSA)
I don’t know where else to go
And I’m always in control
And I saw you hit my phone
Hit the gas pack and  I go
Hit the gas pack and I go
So I turned into a ghost
Skrt skrt
Do 120 down the road
Disappear into the smoke
Swear nobody never knows
Swear nobody never knows
That I turned into a ghost
(Buffalobang)
(Will be added soon)
(Buffalobang)
It’s like I never learn
It’s like it’s no return
It hurts way more than the last time
It’s my turn, it’s my turn, give you a lesson
I can’t keep going like this
I hate the thought of waking up
I never feel like I’m enough
I can’t keep going like this cause
(????Don’t know the last line someone ask bro lol)

Ghosts (w/ buffalobang♯) 「+recyclebin & krave」

The Eyes (Music Video) https://youtu.be/7mY5uRnB_DU?si=zXH_ZB7SYXUbgpW7
✧ let’s make it out of the darkness together ✧
✧ follow the path ✧
✧ i’ve been through this before ✧
✧ do not fear ✧
✧ do not be discouraged ✧
✧ critical hit ✧