ttwlg *cover* p. 444jet

produced by @histarkey & @dreamno7e
mixed by me

i'm sorry for being gone for awhile,
i needed some time on my own to grow.
a garden needs healthy soil to thrive
I had to learn to love myself 
for me to love you
and I hope you do the same

I have a wonderful world I want to show you
my love, and i'll hold your hand walking through it.

yours truly,
- joie

lyrics:

i ain't do this before
we both did our best
you know we're new to this
of course
i can't keep trying to
fix what i've not broken
i feel paralyzed i'm frozen
you wear a mask
disguise your emotions
do you like me after all?
after all?
is it likely the afterthought?
and adderall?
and the light green pastel walls
covered in alcohol and I can't find

you there
and you only love [me]
when you're pulling my hair
you always tell me i dont care
when you know you
act like im not there

why is it so hard to be mad at you
hard to be mad at you
you know I just wanna be happy
I’m done with the attitude
I climbed too high on top of the ladder
I’m numb to the altitude
I thought that I was doing much better 
I did what you asked me to
took my heart through the holes 
of my sweater and still I was happy to
keep you in the warmth of the 
leather my Italian jackets use
and everyday I’m under the weather
it’s hard to get back into
the last time I went out don’t remember 
I don’t know what happen to 

me I know
so tell me more about 
what I don't know
and you take 
from me more
all the life I show
and you ask me
these things
like I might
just know
(i dont!)

i ain't do this before
we both did our best
you know we're new to this
of course
i can't keep trying to
fix what i've not broken
i feel paralyzed i'm frozen
you wear a mask
disguise your emotions
do you like me after all?
after all?
is it likely the afterthought?
and adderall?
and the light green pastel walls
covered in alcohol and I can't find

grapefruit

affion

bby girl ik i lied, i lied, i lied,
bby girl i tried, i tried,
bby girl you fine, you fine,
shawty so divine, divine,
benzo n my hand,
shawty she a fan,
shawty count my bands,
make dat fuck boy do the dance,

bby girl im feelin u,
do you feelin me,
girl im n luh with u,
but i cant cuff u,
shawty blow me out,
like a candle,
im smokin indo,
gettn back n my zone

i lied (mynorth)

I Cld make an Hour long Clip I have 2 Many Beats
Dnt rly Make Anything Anymore though
2:36 w @dyinoveryu 
4:14 w @notthesameithink @dyinoveryu

1st nd Last Clips

no layers btw ^_^
@shorudakun @ilyst4y @xxomm
Prod:  @shorudakun @3visu @heyvilse
Engineered by: @shorudakun @ilyst4y @xxomm @heyvilse
Lyrics:
@shorudakun
you tell me as a joke
garden what i smoke
no you can't get close
no we not on the same page i might have to overdose
had to leave you on your own while i was working on my phone
pack the addy keep it close, glock extended we on go

@ilyst4y
im high as shit you should already know 
i dont wanna feel ima pour up a 4
with spending intent when i walk in the door 
im spinning off pills so my vision is poor
i cut off a bitch cause i cant love a wh*re
i spend what i want cause i know ill make more 
im hurt by your words baby love is a war 
and losing your love baby i can afford 

@shorudakun
i'm pouring a cup that you cannot afford
me and bro we on go its a war
steady flow, i deposited more
money talk, i'm counting up more
nyash fat, i had to call you my whore
i don't wanna know who had you
all that talking from the backroom
pistol loaded aiming at you

@ilyst4y + @shorudakun
you live by the sword you gon die by the blade
going down think you made a mistake
don't care what you saying i know you a snake
i was loyal baby why wld you play
@ilyst4y
why we talking there aint nothing to say 
say that we couldn’t and we made a way
i showed you love and you pushed me away 
dont wanna hear you you’ll lie to my face 
for my brothers ima stick to the code 
wanna be draxx he aint playing his role 
shattered my heart and you left me with holes 
i take a xanny and then i feel whole 

@shorudakun
understand i can't just let you back in
girl i know you mad that i found another coping method
i tried so hard to dead it
but i don't get it
like did you get my message
babe i know your intentions
like do you care or do you not
am i priority on top
give u da last of what i got
yeah u can go and rot


@ilyst4y
so did our love mean nothing? (yes.) 
i get high to function
Yes, i get high at functions
hide them drugs the jakes is coming 
we count money thumbing 
dont know why i let you in 
its just karma for my sins 
its who i was not who i am

@xxomm
No i dont feel some type of way
I just wan get far away
No you cannot stop me
Know i got big dracos and ks
Know im so stuck up in my ways
Feel like im runnin through a maze
Bitch im too gloothed cant feel my face 
Pour a 4 in my lemonade
These hoes just wan be the same
Bitch you know my name
Way before the fame 
You can say my name 
You can say my name 
You can say my name
Shit feel like a dream

##2gloothed w/ stay + xxomm (shoruda +  fa$hion killa + vilse)

1 & 8 +diekusse

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it was difficult to complete this due to studies, thx for the support♡

grapefruit

Joie