sweaty palms shaking
guess i had too much caffeine 
what're the symptoms of nicotine poisoning?
you're all going to college and i'll be
stuck at home, probably won't ever have to
look at my phone
if i could have changed anything i would've changed everything
but you'll never know
these things will never happen so why can't i just let it all go?
i hate dreaming it just gets my hopes up
i hate leaving cause i'll never grow up
focus on breathing cause soon you'll be too worn down
to speak up
i can't wait to leave this place
but i can't help but think about
what could be
i'll sacrifice my dignity just to push this out of my head
i'm so tired of thinking of what could have been.

final month of may

justwatchthefireworks