if i could find a new tree to climb i would
like if i could find a reason to go outside i would
if i had said the things i wanted to say
it wouldn't mean anything, i'll probably never see you again anyway

but if had found a way to get around 
all the times i'd wanna die cause the words just won't come out
I might’ve been happier than i am now
I would have been happier than i am now

five hour bus ride and a weekend of self reflection
staring in the mirror that was nothing but pine trees and sunset
felt like running away for a minute nothing but hope and beginnings
for a minute

forget the circus i’m overdramatic
all i ever wanted was a pretty balcony and an attic
but i’ve got a basement and no windows to look outside
I don’t even know what’s wrong with me i just wish i coulda known you more than i did

five hour bus ride and a weekend of self reflection
staring in the mirror that was nothing but pine trees and sunset
felt like running away for a minute nothing but hope and beginnings
for a minute

I wish it would have snowed
so i could lay outside and feel the cold seep into my bones

i could have lost myself

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