on the outside
looking in
taste of blood
taste of sin
in my mouth in my heart

i don't wanna speak my mind
cause i hate my thoughts
can't make them stop
it would only drive you insane

never felt so
worthless in my life
whenever i talk
no one listens
that's okay,
didn't have much to say about it anyway

and breathing scares me
cause sometimes it gets hard
and when you think about it too long
it just seems ehausting

don't ask me what's wrong
i'll make something up
say i'm just tired
go home and cry about it

don't wanna stay up with my friends getting stoned
anymore
just wanna make the pain stop
for once
in eighteen fucking years
can't try to stop the bleeding
its a symptom of my heart beating
this cycle won't stop repeating
til life finds some kind of meaning
  
never felt so
worthless in my life
whenever i talk
no one listens
that's okay,
didn't have much to say about it anyway

is it getting worse?
is it getting worse than you imagined?
does your head hurt?
does it hurt worse than you imagined?
is it getting worse?
is it getting worse than you imagined?
does your head hurt?
does it hurt worse than you imagined?

symptoms of being alive

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