deeper than before - powfu, rxseboy & julia alexa (prod. the bootleg boy)

something simple | feat. mishaal (prod. apes prod)

Powfu x Sleep.ing - Alienated

written by Lxst Boy, Cavasoul, and soku
produced by Riddiman and oldboyy
mixed and mastered by Lxst Boy
cover art by futoh
out on all platforms

-lyrics-
(Hook: Lxst Boy)
finish up my homework then I write another song
why does everybody hate me I swear that I did nothing wrong
got like 20 messages everytime I check my phone
but i will never answer them, I hate this feeling its getting old

(Verse 1: Lxst Boy)
try to tell me that im not ok
but cant you see the smile thats plastered on my face
like come over sometime and find me dead at my place
im sipping on this coffee praying that this pain would go away
the solitude is nice but I'm sick of being alone
walked a million miles on a path they call the lonely road
pondering my consciences, the deepest part of my soul
but hey im just a kid so what do i really know

(Hook)

(Verse 2: Cavasoul)
i hate this feeling, feeling horrible
is getting old
im losing meaning, meaning everything is seeming horrible
I'm conceited, seated at a table undesirable
I know that she could ruin me because shes so adorable
I fall asleep and I see images of violence
I see a side of me incite a riot
swear my head is never quiet
I'm craving death, it tries to overtake my fear of dying
I'll just go to bed so hopefully I can stop fucking crying
i hate this feeling that I feel whenever I open up my eyes
and now my lungs have started hurting as result from getting high
it gets tiring when you always just feel like you could die
now I'm breaking down again, just for today is the third time

(Hook)

(Verse 3: soku)
it's getting old, I'm growing old and I don't know if i could stay
every time you look my way I just turn and look away
I don't know if I could stay in this place
with this feeling that I hate and it won't go away yeah
yeah my voice is sounding stupid and my grades are going down
everybody else around hating me I feel the frown
on my face yeah I'm a waste yeah
telling everyone I might just take a break yeah
I finish up my homework then I go and cry alone
everybody hating me  and so I walk the lonely road
got like 20 messages every time i check my phone 
but that's not quite reality I hate this feeling it's getting old

(Hook)

@cavasoul
@soku_music
@prodriddiman

S T R E A M

i hate this feeling w/ cavasoul & soku (riddiman x oldboyy)

The city sessions - Spider webs

remember that life always works out in the end <3

suicidal thoughts shouldn't be normal, but they are (prod. Dazel)

Follow @rxseboy @powfu cause they're both insanely talented.

prod. by Thomas Reid

Lyrics:
Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Rxseboy:
I was out here for a minute on my lonely.
You were doing drugs in your room feeling broken.
Told me, you were having trouble staying focused.
Got with the wrong crowd, thought you could open up.

Backfired, you were eighteen.
Every memory turning into a daydream.
Zoning out.
What’s that about? you won’t tell me.
Lied to my face when you said you were healthy.

I never said ‘leave.’
I begged you to stay.
Every other day said you wanna go away.
Putting food on your plate.
Then it switched to a platter.
You looked in my eyes said it didn’t even matter.

Used to stay home, watch a movie on the couch.
Now you all alone wit a pill in your mouth.
Take a sip of the alc’ while you thinking of me.
Envisioning every single thing that we never could be.

Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Holding you
Holding you
Tighter
Hoping you stay
Holding you
Holding you
Tighter
Are you okay?

Rxseboy:
Stressed out, blaming everyone around you.
In the same boat, but I wouldn’t call it powfu.
Everyday, wanna make up, dunno how to.
Said you stopped drinking again, girl I’m proud too.

Get too high, I could bring you down.
On a trip, hit you back when I’m back in town.
We got two different lives.
two different vibes.
Doing drugs, I don’t, that’s two different highs.

Promised me I could hold you.
Look at your scars, think I’m here with the old you.
We were so young, living lavish with no rules.
Now I’m doing work while you still getting home schooled.

Disappointed in us and I can’t lie.
Disagreed when you said that we can’t try.
Know you said I’m a fool, girl am I?
Don’t forget that I’m here on standby.

Powfu:
Yeah, I’m on standby
If you wanna talk you can pass by
Used to visit me at work all the damn time
When you leaving me “on seen” I’m a sad guy

Quit this shit I’ll hate myself if I lose you
Pass the torch before the flames consume you
Tryna figure out a way, running out of options
(I’m trying to help you!)
Just stop this please
Before it’s too late
You don’t think I’m serious I’ll tat it on my face
You don’t need drugs, be addicted to my love
Your friends never cared but I’m here to keep in touch

My parents still together and they met in the 70’s
Me don’t gotta split be the couple of century
Yuh feels like a movie but I’m still in love
When we offset
I’ve been thinking of you more even though we talk less

Sink in the sand
Always turn away when I offer you my hand
I see that you’re hurting
Don’t deserve it
Sitting in the dark, open up your curtains

I don’t wanna see you die
I don’t wanna be that guy that sits on the side
One step at a time
We’ll take you one step at a time

Thomas Reid:
You already know my words
Before I speak
You already know my heart
feels so weak without you

Are You Okay?

Spotify

Thomas Reid & Rxseboy - Are You Okay? (feat. Powfu)

Much love to the boys @sadboyprolific and @nuxemusic for creating this song with me <3

Lyrics:
Thomas Reid:
I don't know what I'm feelin' these days but
I hope it gets better
And it cuts deep like I'm grippin' a blade
My heads light as a feather
And I hope that I feel it
Hope I feel something someday
A little something at all
And I hope that I feel it
Hope I feel something someday
Something to fix my heart

SadBoyProlific
(Yuh)
Sometimes I'm scared you'll open up your eyes and see the signs
Finally see I'm worthless and nothing compared to other guys
And yeah I'll cry but still smile and say it's fine while my mind leaps to different forms of fuckin' suicide
Jealousy's my biggest enemy so what's the key
To put down all the drugs all my demons just face defeat
I've got some family whose faces I could never see and even some that soon won't ever fuckin' remember me

Thomas Reid:
I don't know what I'm feelin' these days but
I hope it gets better
And it cuts deep like I'm grippin' a blade
My heads light as a feather
And I hope that I feel it
Hope I feel something someday
A little something at all
And I hope that I feel it
Hope I feel something someday
Something to fix my heart

Feel Something

Thomas Reid x SadBoyProlific x Nuxe - Feel Something

Nobody Needs Me (feat. Cavasoul) [Prod. CapsCtrl]

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Snøw & Skinny Atlas - I Guess Im The Reason Why

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In My Feelings - Matthew Tuck (ft. Jomie)

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deeper than before - powfu, rxseboy & julia alexa (prod. the bootleg boy)

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