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'WILL I EVER SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN?'
Written by Julian Deans
Co-written & produced by Matthias Niedermayr
Mastered by by LANDR
Artwork by Julian Deans
©️ 2021

LYRICS:
(Eh, eh)

Uh oh, uh oh
think I'm in trouble with you,
you're spinning around my head,
I haven't even slept in bed since Sunday,
What was this all for again?
You're spinning around my head,
Impossible for me to the right thing.
(Yeh)
Uh oh, uh oh,
think I'm in trouble with you.
(Trouble with you.)

CHORUS
Wanna talk this out but,
you want your space,
and damn for the last time,
you can see that I'm sorry, yeh.
(Yeh, yeh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh)
let me try first,
but I know my place,
I crossed the line,
will I ever see your face again?
(Yeh, yeh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh, eh)
Will I ever see your face again?

Uh oh, uh oh
I can see you're happier now,
you've been going all over town,
I've seen you out every night since Monday,
What was this is all for again?
you've been going all over town,
what's this all about again?
what's this all about again?
Uh oh, uh oh
I can see you're happier now.

CHORUS

(Eh, eh)

Anxiety Dreams

Will I Ever See Your Face Again?

Will I ever see your face again? 🫣

'NUMB'
Written by Julian Deans and Wolfgang Pander
Produced by Wolfgang Pander
Mastered by by LANDR
Artwork by Julian Deans
©️ 2021

LYRICS:
Why should I get used to this, now?
And why you always say,
I need to broaden my horizons?
Why aren't you enough?
Let's speak a second about my trust level.

PRECHORUS
Hmmm I won't touch,
don't wanna fuck with strangers,
(Ooh yeh yeh)
Don't love,
at least it won't hurt you.
(Ooh yeh yeh)

CHORUS
You know you got me thinking I've been sleeping on my heart,
is it just me or is it cold under these covers?
Even when I'm in these sheets can't feel only feel numb,
(And it feels wrong.)
Can't do it like I do when I feel dangerously in love,
spread it to my brain so that I won't have to try hard,
Keep trying only feel I'm standing naked in winter,
God I'm so fucking numb.

Am I used to it now? nah,
sure I'll figure this out yeh,
I need to open up my mind I gotta find something,
somewhere,
at least acknowledge that you have everything.

PRECHORUS
Hmmm I won't touch,
don't wanna fuck with strangers,
(Ooh yeh yeh)
Don't love,
(Don't love no no.)
at least it won't hurt you.
(Ooh yeh yeh, ooh yeh yeh)

CHORUS
You know you got me thinking I've been sleeping on my heart,
is it just me or is it cold under these covers?
Even when I'm in these sheets can't feel only feel numb.
(I feel numb and it feels wrong.)
Can't do it like I do when I feel dangerously in love,
spread it to my brain so that I won't have to try hard,
Keep trying only feel I'm standing naked in winter,
God I'm so fucking numb.

Numb

Numb 🥶

'DARK'
Written by Julian Deans
Co-written & produced by Mantra
Mastered by by LANDR
Artwork by Julian Deans
©️ 2021

LYRICS:
I'm running out of energy.
(Dark.)

These thoughts are exhausting,
I don't know when this happened.

PRECHORUS
But every night it's the same damn thing
and it petrifies me,
I'm running out of energy,
every night it's the same damn thing.
and we're not immortal,
there's only so much time we can get it right.

CHORUS
It's been a long night, ahhh,
I see the sun is up now,
but it's still dark, 
(ah, ah)
It's been a long night, ahhh,
I've been waiting for the light, 
but it never arrives no,
it never turns up,
time to face a full day of fucking it up,
again.

And it's a vicious circle,
we're living in a small world,
and we don't know when,
this will end.

PRECHORUS
CHORUS

In the dark again,
they told me it would be better in the morning,
(In the dark)
but this morning's already begun.
It's been a long night,
in the dark.

And we're not immortal,
there's only so much time we can get it right,
and I (In the dark, dark.)

CHORUS

In the dark.

Dark

Dark 🌑

'THE END OF THE ROAD'
Written & co-produced by Julian Deans
Co-written & produced by Matthias Niedermayr
Mastered by by LANDR
Artwork by Julian Deans
©️ 2021

LYRICS:
I've been holding on tighter,
But we grew through the feeling,
Got my head feeling lighter,
See my face on the ceiling.
You're making my heart ache now,
Don't think we're gonna see this one out,
(oh oh, oh oh)
(oh oh, oh oh)
There's no doubt...

CHORUS
It's the end of road for you and I,
Both know it's hard but we fuckin' tried, 
Don't know about you but I ain't got time,
in my life for crying. 
(Oh oh, oh oh.)

VERSE 2
Every morning I care less,
Give me my space for some healing,
God my room's a fucking mess,
Laid here drenched in my feelings,
It's been making my head hurt now,
Don't think we're gonna see this one out.
(Oh oh, oh oh)
(Oh oh, oh oh)
There's no doubt...

(CHORUS)

BRIDGE
If you ever want me back I don't care now,
I'm crossing the bridge to the other side,
It's the end of the road and the end is in sight.

(CHORUS)
 
(Oh oh, oh oh)

The End of the Road

The end of the road 🚧

'IN PIECES'
Written by Julian Deans
Co-written & produced by Matthias Niedermayr
Mastered by by LANDR
Artwork by Julian Deans
©️ 2021

LYRICS
What am I supposed to do now?
Just hide away, somehow?

CHORUS
It's like I've landed in pieces,
is it true you're addicted to the tears on my face,
and I should be disgraced at the way I admit that,
I can't hold myself together and I've landed in pieces.
Oh oh oh.

How am I supposed to feel now,
Just fake this face for one more day,
hmmmmm

CHORUS
In pieces.

Tell me if you think if it's fair,
Tell me if you think if it's fair,
That you seem to be happy without a care in the world,
and I'm here...

CHORUS
In pieces.
In pieces.

In Pieces

In pieces 💔

'STILL GOT TIME (ON MY SIDE)'
Written by Julian Deans & Mantra
Produced by Mantra & Julian Deans
Mastered by by LANDR
Artwork by Julian Deans
©️ 2020

LYRICS:
Hah-ah!

Why you gotta be so slow?
(Why you gotta do that?)
to come back,
Why you gotta be so cruel,
(Stoop low)
in come backs. (Yeh!).
Don't lie to me, yuhhh

PRECHORUS
There's still chemistry yeh.
I got burnt initially,
let's renew our history tonight.

CHORUS
and I want it tonight,
can we deal with it sooner?
gonna get you back on my side,
I'll fight until the morning light,
(Uh-uh!)
and let me apologise,
I'm sorry bout the times I lied, yeh
and all the time we wasted fighting
(uh-uh!)
gonna get back on my side,
I'm hoping that I still got time.

oh, I hope you know,
that if you wanna go slow,
then I'll be okay,
just drag out the pain,
let's stop playing games again.

PRECHORUS
CHORUS

Ha!

R E C O ⚡⚡ E C T

Still Got Time (On My Side)

Still Got Time (On My Side) 🕒

'BETTER ON MY OWN'
Written by Julian Deans & RDY
Produced by RDY
Co-produced by Julian Deans
Mastered by by LANDR
Artwork by Julian Deans
©️ 2020

LYRICS:
I've been waiting all night for you to apologise yeh, yeh,
but then I ain't the one who's been breaking our promise yeh.
And I should face it!

CHORUS
now I know
I'll be alone,
I'll be much better on my own,
better on my, better on my,
(baby, better on my)
And I don't need to see your face,
again, again.

Night after night,
lie after lie,
don't even try it,
you cry and you cry,
but I know that you're lying again,
(again)
this is what you wanted.

I guess that it's true that our love has been fading,
(Oh oh oh)
why should I stick around 'cause I'm tired of waiting,
(why?)
and you should face it!

CHORUS

Anything at all just to escape your ego,
back to the warm,
'cause my heart has grown cold,
let it be told that I know,
that i'll be better yeh I'll be better.

CHORUS x2

Better On My Own

Better On My Own 🚶‍♂️

'LOST CAUSE'
Written by Julian Deans
Co-written and produced by Tatao
Mastered by by LANDR
Artwork by Julian Deans
©️ 2021

LYRICS:
CHORUS
I don't care where you've gone,
I just know that I'm content,
and I forgive myself for the time that I wasted on ya,
You (w)hooo, da da da da,
I don't care that you know,
I'm happy now I'm moving on,
and there's too little life to be chasing 'round a lost cause like you.
Baby you're a lost cause.

You think it's  funny that ya,
vandalize my heart,
I think it's scary,
that I feel myself falling for ya
head first into the dark.

You gotta be crazy to think,
I'd ever run back to you,
need to have your head looked at.

CHORUS x2

I think it's so sad that ya,
let us drift apart like this,
I think it's crazy,
that I spent my time fighting for ya,
now I'm begging for us to stop.

Feel myself falling for you head first into the dark,
Spent my time fighting for ya,
now I'm begging for us to stop,
Feel myself falling for you head first into the dark,
Spent my time fighting for ya,
now I'm begging for us to stop,
You need to have your head looked at.

CHORUS x2

Lost Cause

Lost Cause 🗺️

'FIGHT!'
Written by Julian Deans & RDY
Co-produced by Julian Deans
Mastered by by LANDR
Artwork by Julian Deans
©️ 2020

LYRICS:
Uh uh.

Nah I didn't come to ruin this party,
Ain't going nowhere 'cause it just started,
but you're pushing me and i'm losing it now,
Nahhh nahh ahhh
Feeling funny bout this situation,
Not ready for no altercation,
but you're pushing me and i'm losing it now,
Nahhh nahh ahhh.

CHORUS
So do you wanna fight with me or
you can spend all night with me uh uh,
you're getting quite rough with me uh uh,
but it's turning me on,
I love it when we fight,
love it when we fight, fight,
but don't get me wrong,
I love it when it's right,
love it when it's right, right,
I know you're the one.
(Uh uh)

POSTCHORUS
La la la la la la la,
(All night we've been fighting.)
La la la la la la la.
Nahh nahh ahh..

I'm about to take your filthy ass out,
don't even care just shut your fucking mouth now,
'cause you're losing it and I'm over this now.
The taste of blood has never left my tounge,
so come and get it we can do this all wrong,
'cause I'm losing it and I'm over this now.
Like we did before.

CHORUS

I'm over this fighting,
Come rock with my body,
is it 'cause you really want me?
Yeh.

CHORUS

FIGHT!

FIGHT! 🥊

'CAN'T STOP'
Written by Julian Deans
Produced & Co-written by JS Sounds
Mastered by by LANDR
Artwork by Julian Deans
©️ 2021

LYRICS:
(Huh!?)
(Why you do it like that?)
(I can't believe it.)

Did you believe me when I said wasn't coming back?
Didn't believe ya when you said that you could handle that, uh.

PRECHORUS
I can't stop,
dreaming of you baby,
(Why you do it like that?)
Hmmmmmm,
I can't stop,
picturing the two of us.
(Why you do it like that?)

CHORUS
Can't stop, baby you're so good,
tell me we're alright now,
This is how we heal,
(Why you do it like that?)
I know I messed up,
That's why I can't stop,
I know I messed up,
That's why ya can't stop,
fuck I love how this feels.
Uh uh.

(Why you do it like that?)
Why you do it like that huh?
(I can't believe it.)

I believed myself when I told you I was over it, uh
But now it hurts and I can't sleep at night,
No, 'cause I.

PRECHORUS
CHORUS

Since you been gone

This heart is on overdrive,
it's hard, I won't ride it out,
don't write me off,
This heart is on overdrive,
and I'm still in love,
but you wrote me off from the start.
This heart is on overdrive,
it's hard, I won't ride it out,
don't write me off,
This heart is on overdrive.
and I'm so in love,
but you wrote me off from the start.

PRECHORUS
CHORUS

Can't Stop

Can't Stop 🚫

LYRICIST/SONGWRITER from Suffolk, UK
Dabble in production
Party too much
Feel too much
Have lots of fun
POP, R&B, SYNTHPOP, ELECTORNIC POP, INDIE & DANCE MUSIC

Can't Stop 🚫

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