This song explores the good and bad in all of us.  We're all incredibly complex beings, and we all live with our internal demons.  The lyrics regarding a fly buzzing around an incandescent are a tongue-and-cheek reference to The Exorcist movie.  :)  There's a balance that we all try to maintain; some fail, some exceed,  but the vast majority of us live in the middle ground, the grey.

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LIVING WITH THE DEMONS 
(c) JunkHeap Apr 2022 / Remixed-Remastered May 2025

I'm lying on my bed 
looking up at a fly buzzing around
an incandescent. 
The light reminds me - 
we're full of strong emotion; passionate.

...and here we are.
Living with the demons,      
but I'm not going to the fire.

I'm grey, not bad or good, 
somewhere in between.
I'm grey, not happy or sad,
if you know what I mean.

Heart keeps on beating,
while I'm eating my cereal in the morning.
Nothing special, 
no pre-emptive warning;
of some devil coming in to steal my soul.

later on you can drop by,
and we can see what you have mind.

Some days the rays of light
from above they touch me, 
but Light or dark, I'm mostly grey.

Living with the demons.
Got to get them out of my head.
Living with the demons.

Living With The Demons

Rock, Rock, Rock and no Alternative …
Rock is not dead, you can validate the evidences here.
People who want to get mellow might be wrong on this site, but are more than welcome to take up some energy here 😀
I am playing guitar and Bass. Keyboards and Drums are programmed.
Mix and Mastering was done in the „N.o.b.S. Moonshine Studios“ in Mainz Germany.
Nearly everything had been recorded during the night, sometimes at daylight on weekends.

Welcome back to my page. After a week of 'technical issues', I'm back in my Producer role.  Hope you all have had a wonderful time while I was away... but I'm back so lets get this show on the road!!

Find alternatives to Soundcloud for your music.  If you don't get much response to your music, don't give up.  Soundcloud doesn't have respect for musicians, it's all about profit.  Saddens me.  It used to be different.  [Jul282025] Slowly working on the next album - Dreaming of Better.  I use SC because it's a good platform to organize my songs and prep for the next release to streaming sites.

The name JunkHeap came from creating song ideas and leaving them for later, and then picking through the junk heap of ideas to enhance a new song idea.  Explore my discography, find something you like.  

All of my albums on Soundcloud have been reduced to a sampling of a few songs.  The complete albums are available on all streaming sites.

JunkHeap is a solo, alternative rock music project.  Unapologetic, thought-provoking, emotionally raw music for the masses...

It's about you, the listeners.  I hope you get something out of my songs.  The lyrics are in the song name link.

Thanks for visiting. This is a retro eclectic music mix with looming influences from among others Iggy Pop, David Bowie, Lou Reed & Jon Lord. Mostly I write about the human condition.

I am always looking for a guitar player that wants to collaborate. Would be fun to find a real drummer also.

A Gat is a cat in Catalan - it all makes sense if you’re me. The (s) stands for many collaborators.

I encourage everybody on SC to listen more and be less transactional.

please check out my homie Dudja if i repost you :) m.soundcloud.com/Dudja4life/EgotisticalBastards

We are a quality rockband from Sweden. Al productions are selfwritten and produced. Hope you enjoy!!

new Release!!
https://parametric.bandcamp.com/album/iii

Some old & closer projects, below. Also contacts

Feel free to comment.

Contact: gonzojfrances@gmail.com

There is so much talent and variety here, and most of the people are pretty cool too. I love being part of this community. Listening to your music and being heard in return is enough.

Still reading? OK I'm gonna muse a bit. It's hard to fully convey how much this forum has meant to me. There are people I've never met that feel very much like old friends -- and in a very real way they are.
If I follow someone I make every effort to listen to and support their efforts. It's certainly not a transactional relationship but I do tend to limit my follows to people who engage in mutual listening and engagement.

New album out at Bandcamp
https://laar.bandcamp.com/album/movere-ii

More music available for Download at Bandcamp
https://laar.bandcamp.com/album/sherbet-interlude
https://laar.bandcamp.com/album/ontologie
https://laar.bandcamp.com/album/kernproblem
https://laar.bandcamp.com/album/actio-iniuriam
https://laar.bandcamp.com/album/pax
https://laar.bandcamp.com/album/medusalum
https://laar.bandcamp.com/album/movere
https://laar.bandcamp.com/album/glimmering-downbeat