idkwherehomeis.wav

nvm.
prod me @assperrr & @claudesdiary
additional bg vox from @claudesdiary

inspos for song:
jane remover - search party
sewerperson - the harvest

[lyrics]

*intro*
last year was the start of the end
i couldn't be here without you
but the path split again
i've got so much to value
and more time to spend
but i've been treated like shit
how could you call me your friend?

*verse*
cuz I’ve been down bad
with a fake friend
I don’t have much to say when
I’ve been waiting
for you to get it
I’ve been here for so long
to just forget it
I said no 100 times
you couldn’t accept it
I’ve been way to scared to
read the message
the last one sent
makes you look obsessive
but ur the main character
want me by your side
and break my barriers
the more we talk it gets scarier
thought u were my friend
u felt superior
put yourself first not a thought here
if it doesn't work then its not fair
and u wanna say that I don't care
but I'm your longest friend who never got scared
pick the phone up shit is still the same
here's the dial tone shit will never change

*bridge*

cuz i haven't felt this in a while
it's time to go switch up my style
I never could buy I'm on trial shit
I'm blocking the number like

*hook*
go!
they hit me back and all i said was
nvm
nvm
nvm
nvm
where did you
go! x4

*outro*
cuz I can't deal with all this back and forth
I can't commit to what ur asking for
I've tried to mend this more than once before
don't hit me up I went and locked the doors

you liked to make me your main focus
to manipulate me till I'm hopeless
you make me like shit like did you notice?
you didn't notice
you'll never notice.

spotify !

nvm. (jauntsen x asperr x claude)

august

hope it was fun! w/ 1fern

mixed by @nokerbforever

PRE HOOK
having love for myself when the time feels right,

I don't give a fuck about your little sour life,

you dont understand the thing ive felt and saw,

plz dont talk to me your only hear to fall,

i might not be hear for you agian,

fuck up all these feeling ya ill put them all to bed

tell my self that i can make it to the end

cuz i have visions that you cannot seem to comprehend

HOOK

YA CAN SAY HOW YOU RLY FEEEEEL,

 Getting rid of friends only speak to my self.

TELL MY SELF THAT IM THE BIGGEST DEAL,

only doing shit that stays good for my health,

AND FUCK YOU AND YOURSELF YOU WERE SO TOXIC,

IM TRYNA FINISH THE GAME, I HAVENT LOST 

SPEND ALL MY TIME IN MY ROOM, IM SO EXSOSTED


YA YOU CANT HEART ME YOUR NOT THE FINAL BOSS

VERSE

WAITING FOR THE TIME IN THE MIDDLE

WAITING FOR THE WHEN YOU ARE ALONE

I COULD NEVER TELL YOU A RIDDLE

BECAUSE I WOULD QUESTION MY SELF

AND I WOULD NEVER FUCK YOUR BODY

YA I JUST REALLY HOPE THAT YOUR ALL ALONE 

AND I CAN NEVER TRUST YOUR MONEY

CUZ YOUR CRYING TO THE BANK AND IM LAUGHING HOEM

PRE HOOK

AND I CAN SEE YOUR CONFADENCE, AND ALL YOUR INSECRETIYS

YA YOU HAVE HURT MY TOLLERANTS, AND ALL YOUR POSIBILITYS

HOOK 

YA CAN SAY HOW YOU RLY FEEEEEL,

 Getting rid of friends only speak to my self.

TELL MY SELF THAT IM THE BIGGEST DEAL,

only doing shit that stays good for my health,

AND FUCK YOU AND YOURSELF YOU WERE SO TOXIC,

IM TRYNA FINISH THE GAME, I HAVENT LOST 

SPEND ALL MY TIME IN MY ROOM, IM SO EXSOSTED


YA YOU CANT HEART ME YOUR NOT THE FINAL BOSS

FINAL BOSS (prod kid axl)

written by: thms.
prod.: thms. 
-------------------------
Throw another token in the wishing well
(so im binded by faith to you.)
I wish you didn't find me when I lived in this hell
But oh well,

I'm not what you think 
I want to be
But I'll be that man
Eventually

And there's nothing to stop
My bones from keeping this
Out of my reach

And I don't want to pretend
That everything that happens
Was perfect for us
Baby

But maybe
I can beg for forgiveness
Realize our difference 
Is who we are

Settle the scores
Before we go to war 
And I'll find myself
On this perilous journey

Of who I am
And what I'll be

But I'll be me till the end
 
So I’ll stand in this corner 
Holding my breath, 
Thinkin’ about the things 
That’ll never be said 

Breakdown after breakdown 
I’m aching my brain 
All my love’s been wasted
Gone down the drain

I’m a witness to your horror 
A broken man indeed 
I’ve seen your little gambit 
Your lies and deceit 

Your ability to please me
Its a drug you see 
it shredded me to pieces 
But it's all that I seek

So what am I supposed 
To think of you 
Everything we play 
We played to lose 

And now I have no home again 
Thanks to you 
But I wont be alone again 
Yeah I swear that im done with this

And I don't want to pretend
That everything that happens
Was perfect for us
Baby

But maybe
I can beg for forgiveness
Realize our difference 
Is who we are

Settle the scores
Before we go to war 
And I'll find myself
On this perilous journey

Of who I am
And what I'll be

But I'll be me till the end

I swear to god 
Im not crazy
I just hate the things 
That you make me

Going in blind not chasing
The water's too deep
For safety
For safety

crimson iris

90° Elsewhere

@55depths

video:
https://youtu.be/1gWsqTat8Y4

prod. me.

lyrics:
would you watch me fall?
and lose it all
would you care at all
if i even called?
oh heaven, dear
i'm not alright
think it's best you leave tonight
oh love, i fear
the end is near
you're out of sight i'm out of mind

so hold this close
i'm reaching out
endure this ghost
or hear me out

i'm not surprised
it never really mattered to me
and in your eyes
i thought i finally found a meaning
you run and hide
a problem only i seem to see
i think it's time
i seperate the you from the me
separated by our curses
i'm not the type to say
every day that passes worsens
i'll stay at home today

so hold this close
i'm reaching out
endure this ghost
or hear me out
so hold this close
i'm reaching out
endure this ghost
or hear me out

hold this close

produced by zoltar

lyrics:

bleed out 
separated from all the tension
seek doubt
disregarded their good intentions
sleep now 
you inflated all my distortions
breathe out
i won't let you say something morbid

we could argue all we want, but we both know we're splitting hairs
seems like nowadays we're stuck indulging and nobody cares
 addicted to convenience while these corporations take a share 
take on my perspective and then we'll see how you really fare

i've been misshapen 
beaten down and hated
 i don't deserve this
 light keeps on fading
 i've been wasting myself tryna pick up the mess
 all the feelings i harbored, they won't lay to rest
 so i thought of your face, now i can't go to bed
 i still have your t-shirt, it's the one that you said
 would look better on me, but despite your regret
 i think you looked lovely, now i can't decompress

i could never put you into words 'cause i feared
 that it wouldn't be good enough
 i think it's clear
 the dependency issues that i've displayed here
 and it's frightening i haven't loved no one in years

this shit is making me sick 
but i'm tapped the fuck in
 steady zoning out in front of my monitor like a kid
 now you can't take no offense
 but are you that fucking dense?
 my brain is growing pretty tired
 from all of your shitty friends

-----

newton's flaming laser sword

on all platforms soon <3

did i say something wrong
or did you hear what i was thinking? 
i hope it doesn't fall apart 
when i confide in you the feelings that you're given me 
did i write too many songs? 
or was the melody familiar? 
please don't keep stringing me along 
if this is something that'll go nowhere, i'll stop and stare 

paraonoia started taking me over 
can't avoid ya, and im not staying sober
just tell me do you prefer progress or closure 
cause i'm okay with either one, but the ladders never fun

i'll step up and look down 
al the memories are stranded on the ground 
do i give up? or reach out? 
i can't read you well, and you can tell i'm bound 
to fall for you somehow

when she reads to me, or sings to me
i'm falling and it's stupid deep 
found the hoodie i let her keep a year ago 
when she's next to me, its heavenly 
her eyes i see reflecting me 
her smile, feels like ecstasy, did i let it show? 

you must be acting you came in with no reaction
now every moment is passing, 
i thought we had gained some traction 
what happened 

but now your back in, do you feel any satisfaction 
i should have kept you in past tense 
rehearsing the interaction
shit it's crashing

i'll step up and look down 
al the memories are stranded on the ground 
do i give up? or reach out? 
i can't read you well, and you can tell i'm bound 
shit it's crashing
i'll step up and look down 
al the memories are stranded on the ground 
do i give up? or reach out? 
i can't read you well, and you can tell i'm bound

agnosia

"thomas."
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mgmt/contact - @javadonis

crimson iris

thms.

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