DISTANT MEMORIES (W/ AIZEK)

icarus (feat. Ne0n GrEEn) [prod. heydium]

in the darkest of times (feat. AIZEK)

another day, another time

Produced by boyfifty & kuji

-lyrics-

(Lxst Boy)
Been a minute, I’m sitting
I’m thinking about you 
let me finish, I didn’t 
I didn’t know how to
Where did all the time go?
The memories we made
used to live them in the moment
now I write them on a page
I got
I got something to say
and God knows you won’t listen
I’ve been holed inside this room
there’s no escape, it’s like a prison 
and I know it’s probably cliche 
but karma came to repay
I met up with the reaper
now my heart is set to decay

An omen in the breeze 
I’m sorry I can’t stay 
I’ll never fall asleep
oh baby, I’m dead awake
in my head
I’m a wreck
I cannot say what’s inside 
oh darling I might
I might run across this bridge and jump it
I don’t 
I don’t mind

(Rxseboy)

drawbridges, open closing, like our dms.
Yea every couple days I’m getting blocked, now I don’t see them.
I pretend.
Like everything is good, go like ya recents.
But you decide it’s time to be petty without a reason.

It’s really improbable, create the obstacle, I swim around while the current is changing.
I got a bottle of, problems, I swallow em, mixing too much now I’m drowning in pain meds.
Yea, I never thought that it would get to this point.
I’m jumping off the bridge, cuz everything I loved you destroyed.

water under the bridge w/ Rxseboy (boyfifty x kuji)

salem

feel you near (feat. Ne0n GrEEn & AIZEK) [prod. tennis player]

this song goes deep for both of us... we hope it reaches you guys the way it reached us

- lyrics -
flashback to the fall, '22
can't lie, i was really confused
didn't know what was happening
i wished that i was just imagining
summer, '23, when you dropped the news
a month or so passed, then you left for good
then you left for good
oh, no

this pain never stops
wish i could turn the clock back
turn the clock back
this pain never stops
wish i could turn the clock back
'cause i want that

(hey, it's just me, just letting you know i wont be home 'til after six,)
(uh, don't worry about dinner...)
(you don't need to hold anything up, is what i mean)
(anyway... um, hope you had a good day, i love you)

another year gone, but it's never gonna change
i hate how i feel, 'cause i always feel the same
almost two years since you left our home
there's nothing new, 'cause i still feel alone

some scars don't heal
maybe that's fine
it's alright

said you'd come back, but you led us on
nothing's changed, so i wrote this song
i still can't tell what was going on
i lost my dad and he hurt my mom
false hope really breaks the heart
'cause nothing else leaves quite the mark
cried so many tears, i need an ark
long so hard just to feel your arms, but

if i'm honest
i think i've lost it

sometimes i think i feel you near
but when i look, it's just a mirror
my face looks back, it's crystal clear
i still don't get why you're not here
you swore that you'd never leave us
but you did, there's miles between us
wrecked our home and burned it up
now it's your mess that we clean up, so

if i'm honest
it's pain i'm lost in

this pain never stops
wish i could turn the clock back
turn the clock back
this pain never stops
wish i could turn the clock back
'cause i want that

some scars don't heal
maybe that's fine
it's alright

it's alright

turn the clock back

they say, “chase what your heart desires.”

instead, chase that which desires your heart.

love you :)