spotify link<3

intro

https://li.sten.to/whatisreal
a song abt mental illness
ig: @ripavah
tiktok: @1avah

I shined the light through the dim of the woods
What we both saw was so crazy I shook
The real you was not as mad as I was
Crying at the sky, it all seems so far

And I have second plans
I don't care about you, and your best friend
High state, take a break, go our separate ways
Blank face, with no shape, you're a fake in my brain

Am I in love with the real you
Realized how much that I mean to you
Different options, I'm not stopping till I die in hell
Fix my problems, that's my love but hate my mental health
But I came to the realization
Psychosis, my mind needs documentation
I can't live one more day with all this frustration
Hope It's fixed, so I can say that one day I made it

I'm just trying to live another day
I'm just trying to be fine (be fine yeah)
I'm just trying to live life (live life yeah)
Have you by my side

You're a straight enemy
I'm depressed and upset, can my old friends leave
Shut your face and move away, you're just trauma to me
When I blow up, I'll consider to respond to your pleads
We don't really understand about love
I can't really tell if it is all dumb
Love without the drugs is just like old love
I just touched the clouds, and I don't feel none

And I have second plans
I don't care about you, and your best friend
High state, take a break, go our separate ways
Blank face, with no shape, you're a fake in my brain

Am I in love with the real you
Realized how much that I mean to you
Different options, I'm not stopping till I die in hell
Fix my problems, that's my love but hate my mental health
Am I in love with the real you
Realized how much that I mean to you
Different options, I'm not stopping till I die in hell
Fix my problems, that's my love but hate my mental health
But I came to the realization
Psychosis, my mind needs documentation
I can't live one more day with all this frustration
Hope It's fixed, so I can say that one day I made it

What is real
What is real
Oh, what is real

what is real

other platforms

what is real (prod. indybeats)

tracks that have been sitting in my files

prescription pills (reprise)

Written by Owen Jacobsen
Mix and Mastered by Owen Jacobsen 
Produced by Owxn

lyrics: 

Because you don’t even matter to me
There’s a part that you don’t see 
Behind the withering of everything in my life
Now I’m so tired and sick of situations I’m in
And I’m needing space 
Cause I’ve been losing patience 
Over things you say and I don’t know if I can take it
Thinking that I’m needing a break

Because things don’t work out as you want them to
And I learned that from myself no no not from you
You thought that you could help but you just intrude 
On things in my life that I don’t want you to
Know about but it’s not that it’s a secret 
But if it was, I know that you couldn’t keep it
And I don’t got a problem with trust
But you just don’t stop speaking 
Don’t stop speaking (oh oh oh)

Because you don’t even matter to me
There’s a part that you don’t see 
Behind the withering of everything in my life
Now I’m so tired and sick of situations I’m in
And I’m needing space 
Cause I’ve been losing patience 
Over things you say and I don’t know if I can take it
Thinking that I’m needing a break

Because you don’t even matter to me
There’s a part that you don’t see 
Behind the withering 
Of everything in my life
Now I’m so

Don’t Even Matter

a lil different from normal, hope you still like it. 

Lyrics:
it hurts falling away
wishing for better days with you

mirror on my wall 
tell me its all my fault

getting you hurt
by my insecurities

in my head falling to 
pieces dead
knowing you know
he takes better care of you
better care of *you*

-----------------------------------------

flower petals ✾

Produced by Carlby
Guitar by @irby134
Vocals mixed by @decksmusic
Mastered by Michael Venia @veniamastering

LYRICS
It’s hard for me to make peace with this
Can’t shake this sense of abandonment
You left me feeling misplaced
Like I don’t really fit in
You were a friend to me back then
But now we’re broken irrevocably
It can’t be mended
Who knows what went on in your head
The path you chose was selfish

But I stuck out my neck anyway
And I believed you every time you swore to me that you’d change
The path you chose could only lead one way
Towards your self destruction and an early grave

But what about all those you left behind
At only twenty-five
That’s too young to die
To put your vice above your life
That’s suicide

Listen on Spotify!

Misplaced (Prod. w/ irby)

produced by mix
sorry for the wait, i kinda rushed this song
enjoy <3

lyrics~

i get chased in the end
i lost friends so ill defend
i fight here while you pretend
ill die here could you lend a hand

i wont ask for help
ill just stay this way
hope it ends this way
oh i pray to stay
i try to stop them

make me wipe your memory, from everything you saw
you didn't see coming, uppercut right to your jaw
i ain't no bitch ye, i put that shit on my ma
now i see your strugglin, i guess thats your only flaw

now stop and start again, you can reach me in the end
now fall and fall again, you make me sick all through my skin
im strugglin to fight, but i know that i must win
i need to make it outta here, and let my new life begin

i wish i could say, i wish you would know
i wish i could stay, i wish you would go
throw another punch, then you slit my throat
i will die here, thats the final blow

i gotta go now man i need run
you gotta stay close hide me from the sun
im bleedin out now man this was no fun
im gonna die soon but i know ive won

you better run

picking up the ashes. i see myself in the glass
how am i alive? i should be dead in the grass
oh im still here, oh please don't fear
my arms around you, we lie there in the field.

thank you <3

selfish (ft. wubz) (prod. kt3lly)

Kaden Seigler