what if when he sees me

Produced using Audacity and Soundtrap, recorded by Laura Daly. Music originally by Rex Orange County.

Television / So Far So Good - Rex Orange County (Cover by Laura Daly)

SONG IS NOT MINE 
ALL CREDITS GO TO ORIGINAL OWNER

𝓔𝔁𝓱𝓪𝓾𝓼𝓽𝓮𝓭 - 𝓒𝓱𝓵𝓸𝓮 𝓶𝓸𝓻𝓲𝓸𝓷𝓭𝓸 (𝓢𝓛𝓞𝓦𝓔𝓓)

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In Spirit

#lofi  #sadcore #chill #alternative #slowcore #nightcore #triphop #introvert #lofifork #Slacker

SAKANA（スピッツ cover）/ 魚

This haunting piece paints a dual portrait of paralysis: one born of authentic grief, the other of hollow obsession. At its center is a woman eternally imprisoned in darkened rooms, her spirit broken by the historic loss of a lover in a distant, futile conflict. She is the guardian of a real ghost, “doomed to relive the historic day,” her every waking moment and restless night consumed by a tangible, breathing memory of someone loved and lost. Her mourning, though a form of living death, is rooted in the truth of a shattered past.

Circling her are the “men close by,” a sickly crew of spectators whose lives have gone “askew.” They project onto her shadowy form their own deepest lacks—“the vaguest it”—a fantasy of love, meaning, or escape they cannot name. Theirs is a pursuit of “an idea, a form,” a phantom that fuels a futile daily ritual of congregating at her gate, peering through cracks, and seeking rope to scale walls. Unlike her, their fixation is not on a “solid, breathing soul long gone,” but on a self-made illusion that gives their empty days a semblance of purpose.

The poem binds these two states—the woman’s tragic, memory-bound stasis and the men’s active, deluded pursuit—in a chilling cycle of wasted time, underscored by the chorus’s merciless metaphor: “like the water down the drain / Their lives are wasted, / All in vain.” Time ticks both parties toward a mirage; for her, it’s the impossible return of the past, for them, an unreachable fantasy of connection. Yet a stark distinction remains: she mourns a real someone, while they are “fettered to a strange idea,” ensuring that on both sides of the wall, lives drain away in parallel, tragic, and profound futility.

Dual Paralysis

*in my mind written/produced by kaelyn lawson*
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lyrics: 
dancing to slow jams
under pink lights
don't have to work tomorrow 
we can stay out
playlist is groovy 
might lose my mind
let me hold your hand
in my mind

lost in my imagination
you're a dream versed in poetry
lost in my imagination
you're a dream versed in poetry
but you're not mine
only in my mind
but you're not mine
only in my mind

watching sad movies
wrapped in the glow
only us in the world
we can stay here forever
my eyes on you
might just do a crime
let me be your girl 
in my mind

in my mind 
everything is groovy
bonding time
it's just us on a tuesday
regular things 
for a couple in love
in my mind 
everything is groovy

in my mind

KAE/LYN

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