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Метель

Dolbania - Метель

Funny Kind of Sad

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Standing in the wreckage feeling helpless but a glimmer of light pierces the veil of doubt like a flicker of flame and drives us forward.

My final mix for the instrumental version. I hope you enjoy it. Please feel free to like and leave a comment as your feed back is always appreciated and helpful.

Prometheus

Hello again friends and Listeners,

It Delights me to celebrate the 8th birthday of one of my eldest 'Musical Children'.  Her name is 'Tiramisu'.  Pronounced - Tear - Ah - Mih - Su 

In foodie talk, her name alludes to what one might call a 'Pick-Me-Up'.  ;-)
I named her after the delicious Italian Dessert made of Lady Fingers, Custard, Hazelnuts, and Chocolate!  MMM mnm mm .  

May She "Live Long and Prosper" ! 

Warmest Regards,

~ Gary!

It's a Big Band orchestral Fusion piece with all kinds of delicious phrases, sounds and rhythms within it. Composed over 2 months in 2016 on Saturna Island here, it has some 24 layered tracks, and i trust you'll find it a surprising change from the simple but passionate organic improvs i've been posting lately.  :-D

Here's how composer Francesco Adornetto described it.

"A joyful burst of color and rhythm — Tiramisu is as rich and layered as its namesake. With a really eclectic, multi-genre sound, it blends nu jazz, big band, and electronic elements into a playful celebration that feels both nostalgic and fresh. You can hear the love and detail in every phrase. What a treat! "

Music Composed and Arranged by Gary Courtland-Miles
© July 15th 2016 - 2025

Re-Mastered and Re-Released April 5th 2025

All Rights Reserved

Chilled Tiramisu * w. Organic Flow

Music written in response to the sudden loss of a beloved pet. Sorely missed but always loved and remembered well.

Words - Before me, before it rained
We were together in time and now rightly pained.
Nothing I can do to change it
Nothing's gonna make it go away
Here in my heart you have a home to always stay.

Before me, the tides keep on changing
Before me, I'll keep rearranging again and again.

Time and time again we wake up then fall asleep
When will the sun come out and bring us all up from the deep.

B4ME

File Updated: 16/04/35 @ 14:44 GMT - Andreas made some mix improvements

File Updated: 11/04/25 @ 18:47 GMT ~ Andreas decided to up the lead vocal a bit and give us a new mix. Schweeeeet! Cheers bruv

This piece was inspired by a trip to Salmon River in the Ghost Town of Hyder, Alaska by artist BeSinger and his son David in 2023.

Be Singer further explains,
"Every year thousands of salmon migrate the River of their origin for spawning. The journey can take up to a year. After spawning the salmon protect their eggs until death which occurs after a few days for most of the salmon. For them the circle of life comes to an end here. For the bears they are food and so you are able watch both salmon and bears if you are lucky. The place is mystical,: the beginning of new life and death at the same place."

BeSinger sent a raw edition of this to me and I penned the lyrics based on the life cycle of a Salmon. They are fascinating creatures. Salmon are born to rivers as BeSinger tells us and then leave for sea to grow large and prepare for spawning. These journeys are EPIC. Irish Salmon I believe migrate to Greenland and then amazingly return to the SAME spot in the same river to spawn. That's round trips of 1000's of km. Some theories suggest that they use their lateral line as an organ which can sense, read and repond to the magnetic field of Earth and it's like their gps of sorts... My understanding is we still don't know for sure yet...
Well worth digging yourself a Salmon rabbit hole and learning about them.

For the song... Literally all I did was do the lyrics and sing. BeSinger wrote and produced all melody and accompaniment. A very enjoyable experience and I'm extremely happy with the result. The first of many Andreas I hope :-)

You can connect with BeSinger here. He is a fabulous artist and person.

https://soundcloud.com/andreas-besinger



Salmons Heaven

Look! We have eggs.
In 3 months they hatch.
Feed off yolk-sac. Alevin need not beg
Eat several weeks, Let growth attach.

Curate now, fry, five to ten weeks
You're swimming. Silver. A fish so to speak.
Careful now, Downstream.. Predator meet!
Life Lives we made it. Dear Parr says we saved us
East now. Lets evade blood. Finger markings make stones of us.

Smolt. School! Strength in all yous!
Adjusting our bodies for salt water truths
Look silvery again
May an Ocean we know
Ocean as Adult
Now feed
Smolt feed grow

Hazards: Men, seals, whales
Eat, hide, sleep, repeat these days with tail
Above look dark
Viewed from below white future spark
Easy, you zipped 2000 miles plus, left no mark
Now, home time, take magnet of map. Follow the heart.

Spawning adult we sense that circle
Pure birth rivers to Salmon their temple
As rugged rapid ready redden our new
We dodged the bears. Natal stream for me and you
Now shake that tail. Fill our Redd
I'll fertilise. Let's protect till dead

Salmons Heaven

The Beautiful Dark Vocals + Lyrics
BeSinger Composition, Instruments, Back Vocals

Salmons Heaven

Written & Performed by Ruviru
Composition by Ruviru & Daniil Letiagin
Mixed by Marco Stevančević
Mastered by Ian Sefchick

Lyrics:
searching answers 
to the mysteries of time 
cutting through traumatic trees 
carving narrow paths 
with the sharp hatchet of mindfulness
I went into the depths 
of the great forest 
where I found an oracle 
predicting future 
believing it to be possessed 
by the force of time 
I started my inquiry 

oh time what have you done?
oh time when you began?
oh time when will you end?
when will you end?
when will you end?
oh time how you keep flowing?
oh time don’t you get tried?
oh time what’s the meaning?
what’s the meaning? 

if I can turn back the clocks
clean all my blocks 
fix my mistakes 
avoid the drops
perfect the pen 
lay poetry on a song
bring back the peace 
neutralise bombs 
restore the justice 
disarm the opps
bring all the violence 
into a stop 
change my whole story 
course of history 
grandfather paradox 
can i unlock?

into heart of the great forest 
I’ve been travelling 
mysteries of time 
never unraveling 
sun creeps up on me 
sinks into horizon day by day
rational answers explanations 
seem light years away 

but what about embracing 
all of my wrongs?
being proud of my birth 
this path is my own 
I’ll have no regrets 
if I chose this moment 
am i responsible 
for all the actions I took?
what if i commit a crime 
doing 25 to life?
pages of calendar 
will they still fly?
might still fight 
with a spirit of a night
or an alchemist transforming 
dark into light

into heart of the great forest 
I’ve been travelling 
mysteries of time 
never unraveling 
sun creeps up on me 
sinks into horizon day by day
rational answers explanations 
seem light years away 

oh time what have you done?
oh time when you began?
oh time when will you end?
when will you end?
when will you end?
oh time how how you keep flowing?
oh time don’t you get tried?
oh time what’s the meaning?
what’s the meaning? 

as we step into dark ages 
future is bleak 
sixth extinction on the way 
nature’s defeat
machines taking over 
nuclear spillover
human ignorance 
is the biggest disease 
breakthrough in science 
fading hope
resources depleted 
sustainability is a joke 
polluted air 
soon most’ll choke 
survival on mars 
not for the broke

should I still keep going?
making the time 
focus on the seconds 
collecting minutes
put in the hours 
master the craft
only few years
10000 hours 
I’m at the peak 
get recognition 
that I most need 
platform I seek 
I’ll not sleep 
till my message’ll reach 
depths of the streets

so time riddle me this
eternal hell? 
or eternal heaven? 
do you run in circles?
beginning-less chakra 
is rebirth real?
why no one can tell? 
the river keeps flowing 
strange continuum
is there a true self 
in this state of flux?
why is the change 
the only constant? 
is it all an illusion?
what’s the meaning?
why no one can tell?

disenchanted by that energy 
I abandoned the Oracle 
and continued my quest 
pack of hungry ghosts followed me
they chased me 
under the full moon  
closer to dawn 
I shook them off 
as the compass deviated
I realised a shift 
in my consciousness
I understood the futility 
of the outward exploration 
my metaphysical questioning
misguided attempts 
to find the truth 
in an external source 
so letting go of the mindset 
pondering myriads 
of worldly perspectives 
I started looking inwards 
for the answers 


The Search

Nanbar

I invite you to listen to my piano improvisation “Nocturne № 2”.
Download the piano sheets of my music here:
https://www.sheetmusicdirect.com/Search.aspx?query=victor%20birkan&u=1

Watch the video version  on my YouTube channel:
https://youtu.be/A6v25huuqxc


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