I love this one, I feel the emotion and relate to the feelings you talk about and I love the folk sound of it <3

all ive ever been

stay (tied for silver x flesh)

produced by @uvshy
thanks cam for pic
<3

i should be honest 
and i can be honest 
ill burn all my bridges 
and fulfil my promises to you

ill bury my sins deep in my garden 
was not my intention to be such a burden 
and i 

when everythings unjust 
theres nothing left here 
its all collecting dust 
right on my shelf dear

nothing before this 
it plays and it torments 
quite some time its been dormant
and my efforts exhaustive 

deep in the forest 
my mind such a torment
im unearthing burdens 
and im all alone and im

when everythings unjust 
theres nothing left here 
its all collecting dust 
right on my shelf dear

lalala

burden (prod. shy)

produced by ushanka boy
featuring NAVYXOWER (@navyxower)
mixed by navy & epitome
mastered by teddyboi (@yoimn3ver)

lyrics

well…
i don’t know why but it feels like
i’ve been here forever 
been seeing star signs layered through the sky
that lead me back to december

those cold lonely nights
drove me to insanity 
i didn’t put up a fight
for you and that drives me crazy 

what the hell was every supposed to do
i didn’t have a clue
this shit left us confused
but that’s okay we’ll work it out
there’s no need to cry now
wipe your tears, i love the sound
of your voice there’s nothing that

could replace you
you’ve always been the one i choose
there’s nothing left for me to lose
so you have to know these feelings are true

NAVY

baby i could do it better yeah i swear to beup at night i see you walking past my house theres plentyplenty times where i need you in my bed with mewhy is life never really even fair to mebring me back to another timeanother era another life  where i can say i feel alirghttime goes by really fast in the nightand when your with the ones you love the most, time just really flysfly carefullyi pray to god ill see you eventaullyi miss everything you said to mei hate goodbyes theyre not meant for me



well, i don’t know why but it feels like
i’ve been here forever 
been seeing star signs layered through the sky
that lead me back to december

i have someone now w/ NAVYXOWER (ushanka boy)

sad chill - https://youtu.be/H34VCsKB-LU?si=SPS1DPDgo66C6ok3

lyrics ⬇️ (raw vocals)

strugglin since i was 16 everyone say im addiced
wish that i had me a team that push me way farther than all my conflictions
maybe its just my condition keepin me from all my dreams
momma jus trust me if i was addicted i would be flooded with beans
life gettin harder out here but ima keep balancin on the beam
stupid crishendo makin me feel like i dont got nowhere to be
i dont got doors anymore cuz my parents do not trust me
and now i can hear the whole house
& it’s getting harder to sleep

yea but i get it i broke all my vows
never told you what this was about
it comes from the heart i dont gotta shout
just listen to words that come out my mouth

i know your not proud
but what should i do
it tears me apart you look in my eyes and dont got a clue
happy on the outside 
but sufferin in
i always wondered what it feels like on the other side of this

look at me like I failed 
maybe its cuz i did
and mom im sorry that i bailed
i really wish i didn’t
i know you think we feel different
but really often its the same
Ik i need a lot of shiftin
I know i need to feel shame
honestly i got a sickness

never grew up in the trenches
but i was out hoppin the fences 
knew what is bad and 
knew where the best is
its hard to tefrain
Im sorry im tempted
ill never go back i dont feel the same
My life is dependin
i get tbrough pain 
by lookin above
i dont need drugs i just need god
hes riddled with love

strugglin since i was 16 everyone say im addiced
wish that i had me a team that push me way farther than all my conflictions
did i say 16
matterfact meant to say 13
when i was 13 my brother had hand me my first spliff

i Thought it was great i filled up my plate
then it went wrong i sat at the pond 
and hit out the bong 
made a mistake
might be late 
way to late to go on
i wanted to stop i wnated to drop all the feelings i caught
but they all caught ahold of me
“i couldnt do it”- bologna  
you cant just stick to it partially gotta get rid of all of it
gotta make sure its gone
gotta make sure its out
dont need no bong
touchin my mouth

letter to my loved ones (yunnygoldz)

becoming what i lost w/ Fallen Oceans

lyrics ⬇️

Temple in my body really breaking down
 
Running like a zombie what im chasing out
baby do you copy i been drownin out
got me drinking at my homies house hes sober now

this is something i should stop
new stuff right out the box
i know that there’s consequences to my actions 
but somehow i would never gove up

using your words as a weapon
how could i think you a blessin
Im tryna make it to heaven
you wont be there im guessin :(

if im guessin wrong then ill be grateful 
when heavin calls youll see an angel
restart my life over again
gotta push back
no im not no recycling bin way past that

but i still need some oxygen to keep movin on in this life
if i cant feel the air thats in my lungs then its not right
gotta keep going cuz nothings ever really perfect
and if it is then honestly you really did not deserve it

this is honestly just a statement but i dont
but i dont wanna pave it
i been turning the pages to make it feel like im staying
but i
think i lost me a dime
shoulda never even tried

Temple in my body really breaking down
Running like a zombie what im chasing out
baby do you copy i been drownin out
got me drinking at my homies house hes sober now

anxiety riddles me everyday 
Do you wanna hear what i really think
i feel the purpose of life is pushing ur self to yhe limit with everything 
if ya heard this know what im sayin
no purchase
no more complainin its worthless might aswell burn all the bridges

gotta get life figured out somehow 
no i dont gotta go down that route
maybe i dont like the large crowds
so ill be locked in my house 

these forest walls only uncover options
when my liscense old
I think youll find me out there hostage
ill watvh the river flow
think ill finally find calmness
and when you ask who helped me
ill say god did.

temple garden (cxrter x ryini)

lyrics

Lord knows theres not a lot left for me
so ill just move along
i know you like to watch me hurt
but jokes on you i cant feel at all
i cant trust my mind
with these fucking with drawals
but i dont need anybodys help with this
your fingers on my lips
your face in my hands
we talk early morning
write your name in the sand
want this feeling to last forever, i know
she asked do i want to live forever, i dont
said im way too much for you
but im not that much at all

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right
wish i could help you live a happy life

if i was living forever the goal is my shelter 
shielding me out from everything that ive lost 
if your goal was forever we messed it up early 
on in the span of what could have been 
oh in the span of the time that ive spent 
lamenting the thoughts of another night in 
wish i could wake up in the evening like we did too many times back then 
but you don’t have to think like that 
that’s where I think it all began then we 
separate like the tide and the sand 
locked in another memory of regret and shame 
cant forget when i first spoke your name 
id rather not

lets say this was all a lie
wake up in the sunrise
would you come and find me
said youd meet me in another life
i wish i had some extra hours at the end of the day
cuz lately i dont even got not time to cry
wish i could make something that sounded right

another life w/ lil booj (p. king theta)

enjoy
@maesk337

lyrics:
always hoping for the best of things
wrote a couple songs then just deleted
i wasnt meant for this
talking bout how i feel
looking inside your eyes
tell me is it even real
how could i be something
if im always giving up
how could we be nothing
after all the shit we spoke
the sun rises by the morning
even when i do you wrong
so tell me whats the point of shit
im trying to move it on
cuz when i lay at night
girl all i think about is you
wish i had u by my side
but it was me who wanted to leave
and i still cry myself to sleep
cuz we were meant to be
wondering how you doing
havent seen ur eyes in weeks
but i guess ur better like that
i swear
cant help but blame myself
for every anxiety attack
and now we're past
but girl i hope u know
that im still praying 
for ur best
cuz i still love u girl
it wont change

maesk:
I’m hiding under crow wings
This sample of the sap from inside my coat just helps me slow things
Pinpoint every time I did you wrong and how you felt inside those moments
And when I lose that face I pour another potion up to heal

My tracks are all concealed
The future felt so real
I’d rather be in pieces right now I don’t know how to feel
Its heartache finding pictures right now, got me skipping meals
But I hope you’re doing better just miss that smile in all those fields

Wish I could take aback the mistakes
Wish I could smile at the memories we made

Because when I lay at night girl all I think about is you
Wish I had you by my side but it was you who wanted to leave 
I still cry myself to sleep because we were meant to be 
Wondering how you’re doing haven’t seen your eyes in weeks

all i think about is you (w/ Maesk)

(prod by Perry Pressey)
4/7/24
WRITTEN, PERFORMED AND MIXED BY @capkyle
[for the best listening experience: listen with headphones.]

\\LYRICS//
[HOOK]
I been tryna muster up the courage to come talk to you
I know we're from the west side and these vests we wear are bullet proof
But I know theres nothing I can do

Like, hit the dirt and turn around
This baseball field's a cold croud
My Dad's out, he's screaming
This time lose is keeping me out
But that's when I saw you

[CHORUS]
When I saw you standing out in the bleachers
Cold cut hair with my name on your T-Shirt
That's when I felt it
That's when I knew

Me and you
Going far
Your we're everything a friend could be

[VERSE]
I'm tired of playing by the books
Loves a drug and I feel that I'm hooked
Don't break my heart, I bound no armor 
I'm your knight, I'll protect you from the monsters

[BRIDGE]
Big strong man, should've played guitar
Baseball field with the little arms
Mental state should've raised alarms
Dad's out drunk, abouta break my heart

[HOOK]
I been tryna muster up the courage to come talk to you
I know we're from the west side and these vests we wear are bullet proof
But I know theres nothing I can do

Like, hit the dirt and turn around
This baseball field's a cold croud
My Dad's out, he's screaming
This time lose is keeping me out
But that's when I saw you

[VERSE]
Now, we're happy
We're married
We have us a kid
Dad still an asshole
Can't wait till he kicks
And you say "I know that you lost in '03, but at least you still got me."

all ive ever been

Kanashī

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