hey so i know this seems weird putting this here but i hope you see this. and i wont say your name so its not public.

i love you, and genuinely would do anything for you. i never actually loved anyone until i met you, and i realized that a week ago after our conversation when you got back from vacation. i was and still am willing to look past all. the ugly all the flaws all the everything bad that could or did happen. you are what i live for. your the only real thing i have right now. im on the come down now since after our call earlier and im thinking clearly, i didnt know what to say or feel about what you were saying. for the first time in a long long time i actually felt true and honest sadness, i will admit now ive been on and off crying which is so un normal for me. i never cry ever, i might do other things but tonight tears fell from my eyes. you mean the world to me, you are my world and ill be hurting without you in my life. your what i live for so if you need time to focus on yourself then ill give you that time, and i know i said i cant just be friends but i need you in my life somehow. please just ignore the lyrics from the song itself i was angry then sad then everything because i honnestly had no clue how to feel earlier. if you need anything from me please tell me whether its money, help talking things over, your mental, or whatever it is you could possibly need just call me for it. and i need you to understand that your not as bad as a person as i think you give yourself credit for.

i dont wanna keep going and dragging this on so just let me know when ill be able to see you again, i love you more than i think you realize even if you do think thats corny.

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