all by me
april 2025

i fell asleep into the next week
you couldn’t stitch me together, i lost my teeth
it makes my throat hurt when i say nothing
i miss when the silence didn’t sound like me

leave the porch light on, i’m not coming home
this key doesn’t fit anymore and the door looks wrong
leave the porch light on, i’m not coming home
your voice sounds so much worse when it’s in my phone

i wanna fall in love again even if it kills me like the last time did
i wanna fall in love again even if it drains me ‘til there’s nothing left

just call me again if it ever gets that bad
but i forget how to talk when you tell me not to laugh
i lose so much sleep when i try to trace those cracks
like maybe it’ll spell out everything i wish i had

Like the last time

april 2025

when i was younger, everybody seemed much older to me
now life is changing and i don’t believe anything i see
farewell, i always knew that you would make it out
i’m still going but as time goes on, the silence gets loud

are you glad that you met me now that we’re friends?
i always pictured myself with you until the end
i put my whole life at risk ‘cause i tried to fit in
family taught me what i know, they taught me everything
i end up starving myself, breaking my fucking hands
they never taught me to stop being codependent

i put down the guitar
sing to myself in my bed as i’m sinking in
i never thought it’d be hard
and when he passed, i had tried to breathe it in
who knew that life would be like this?
my old friends told me i’m psycho, and i didn’t like it
and i try so hard, i’m always trying to fight it

are you glad that you met me now that we’re friends?
i always pictured myself with you until the end
i’d rather kill my best friend than take my fucking meds
family taught me what i know, they taught me everything
if only i would’ve told them i’m a fucking mess
i could’ve learned how to stop being codependent

Codependent

old song emptying the vault we dropping weekly from now on

art by me
prod @hxini

its like i need someone to blame
yea its always been the same shit
i cant seem to fake it 
i wish that i could change it
who am i to say shit
vision filled with greyness
dont know why they hate us
they still act the lamest
guess u made it
u act like ur famous
knew it from the jump
i knew that i cant relate bitch
gas inside my lungs
got this blunt guess imma face it
am i wasting time
tell me if the feelings fading

@7akkiro
yk i dont care whats the issue
knew theres something wrong u weren't there whem i missed u
i keep causing problems u dont know what i been thru
tell me what u into
tell me u want more of that 
tell me if it went thru

whats the price
taking way too long to make you mine
fall into ur hands like i might die
can we make it right
baby take ur time
i dont wanna cry

@deepinparis
we had to do that shit on our own
its been a cycle of doing me wrong
if its the right way then why when i do it again im feeling so lost
all of a sudden they all wanna flock
you say that you like that know that youre not
im in the back im chillin and shit
im with your bitch and we tying the knot

they think that theyre making me worried
im rollin that spliff in a hurry
reason you not going up cuz you thinkin bout blowing up while i am focused on learning
reason she aint wanna fuck is cuz you got no bands i get to work in the morning
why you out here non authentic and suck and wondering why youre so corny

blame ft. akkiro, deepinparis prod hxini

song from february 2025 written in december 2024
i think i'll use this account to post throwaway songs

even if it kills me

Beat prod. by toemuro & takecare04  !!

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---lyrics 
She got bright blue hair like she miku, woah
Had to stop and stare so I could see you, woah
It’s way more than “I want you”, girl I need you, woah
It’s not too much so I bought it just to treat you, woah
Rockstar like she miku
Dancing like she miku
Everyone wants to meet you
Everyone wants to be you
Be you, ooh-whee-ooh
Rockstar like she miku
Rockstar like she miku
Rockstar like she mi—kuuu

You got fans a thousand miles away
I think just to see you I might die today
It’s cause you’re my world, you’re my hideaway
Bright blue hair, blue eyes keep me wide awake

2024 Coachella
Guess I should’ve known better
Forgot my damn umbrella
But I’ll be there no matter the weather
in Margiela
It’s set in stone, rosetta
You know imma go-getter
You know I need her forever

I’m gonna be there VIP
I’m gonna be there, count on me
How can you be so damn naive
I’m gonna see her in my dreams
Vocaloid songs since I was thirteen
Making her songs on my PC
Funny how it feels like last week
Last week, woah

She got bright blue hair like she miku, woah
Had to stop and stare so I could see you, woah
It’s way more than “I want you”, girl I need you, woah
It’s not too much so I bought it just to treat you, woah

She got bright blue hair like she miku, woah
Had to stop and stare so I could see you, woah
It’s way more than “I want you”, girl I need you, woah
It’s not too much so I bought it just to treat you, woah
Rockstar like she miku
Dancing like she miku
Everyone wants to meet you
Everyone wants to be you
Be you, ooh-whee-ooh
Rockstar like she miku
Rockstar like she miku
Rockstar like she mi—kuuu

Rockstar like she miku

@lovebitess
in the club i got my shades on
brand new lv lace yea
pour a shot for my ex once more
then i'm off on a high speed chase yea
pills fuck my brain up
blue camo like bape yea
ex girl tryna call my phone
no love bitch it's all hate yea

ksubi jeans
murakami tee
i'm a Zombieee
we have sex
i wake up & she nowhere around me
roll it up
we spark up like no one's ever watching
fill that hole up in my chest 
wit new clothes in my closet

retail therapy

production by me
art by me
https://open.spotify.com/track/0bZCgAemO0h9no2IrXVX0r?si=0b27277049634758

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maybe just look around
dont build me up just to tear me down
is it so hard to just love me now?
feel like im losing my mind again
theres some things dont wanna figure out
think its me, am i freaking out?
you comfort me but i have my doubts

dont have to know
think its better in the dark
tell me how low
bring it up, am i fixing it?
am i going too far? maybe im losing it
who do you know?
was it like this from the start?
i think you know
am i crazy, have we never met?
do i ruin it all or do i just forget

(am i crazy, have we never met?)
(do i ruin it all or do i just forget)

maybe just look around
dont build me up just to tear me down
is it so hard to just love me now?
feel like im losing my mind again
theres some things dont wanna figure out
think its me, am i freaking out?
you comfort me but i have my doubts

dont have to know
think its better in the dark
tell me how low
bring it up, am i fixing it?
am i going too far? maybe im losing it
who do you know?
was it like this from the start?
i think you know
am i crazy, have we never met?
do i ruin it all or do i just forget

(am i crazy, have we never met?)
(do i ruin it all or do i just forget)

maybe just look around

produced by me
drawing by me 

dont be so brave, ive tried it all its the same
am i so stupid, determined
you try to pick at my brain, cant let you know me the same
the scratch on my arms start hurting

it all feels the same, the years the seasons all fade
the weathers never been tame, ill keep going
my minds never blank, my past my problems all stay
if i can push it away, am i growing?

dont be so dumb, its only real if you make it
i havent cried in so long, am i real or am i faking?
playing stupid for everyone, this manipulation
so if i take off my skin, would it be me who you're facing?

dont be so stubborn its just not what u want
and dont try to make it work
you should know that its not worth

don't be so dumb

prod. @angelonmyshoulder @400th
feat @k4rson

lyrics:
yuh, i cant fw you or yo whole clique
and my bands is blue, got some motion
i cant focus, you dont know shit
driving round the city windows open
yuh, i cant fw you or yo whole clique
use to b like you, now im golden
and im w my troops n we posted
and i mean it when i say that i wont code switch

and im meaning what i say
hit the plug i know the pack is on the way
talkin shi you can say it to my face
bitch i keep dat pole up on my side its on my waist, on my waist yuh

@k4rson
we waiting for dem bbitches


im jus tryna put myself back2gether
ima drink my life away until its better
and i feel my lungs with gas i love this pressure
and i asked her if she'd leave, and she said never
now im left inside the past
tell me that you here, while im fading into black
now its getting clear that it wasnt supposed to last
look up in the mirror and i hate whats looking back

i cant fw you or yo whole clique
and my bands is blue, got some motion
i cant focus, you dont know shit
driving round the city windows open
yuh, i cant fw you or yo whole clique
use to b like you, now im golden
and im w my troops n we posted
and i mean it when i say that i wont code switch

focus

lyrics:
i lost the point
is the problem me
i get it, if it wasn't something
i'm stuck inside this dream

to top it off
i feel my self-esteem
its falling out, i feel it leaving
i guess that it's just me

when did the time go?
i deal with the patience
please i'm not your idol
and i will not claim it

not right for the guessing
but I just think crazy
please I'm not your idol
and I will not claim it

even if it kills me

katie kross