tear

ever since you left
i changed seasons
felt your cold
felt your warmth
i felt everything

eevee asks if i would take care of her
even after i’m still weak, i won’t let go of you

i see the stars
in her eyes when she cries
i hear music
in her voice when she laughs

eevee said she’ll take care of me, when we’re old
even after I’m still weak, she won’t let go of me

eevee

Episode 8 - Cloudy Days
After everything that's happened, Ari recounts an old relationship and cannot stop dwelling on the feelings and regrets.

BUTTERFLY GIRL / YOUR JUDGEMENT

THE BB MIXTAPE

still into you (cover)

lyrics:

this song won’t write it self instead i yank it out with force
i keep on twisting hoping something gives something like sweet remorse
i dont remember anymore why i now avoid my friends
something just split in me and then i kept on wishing for the end
i had a conflict brewing up, something that felt just like a storm
but now my feelings simmered down and chose to hide and shrivel up
i cannot vocalise my fears i cannot feel when i am mad
i cannot dream about the good i only dream about the bad

hi how are you? i am shit, in fact im getting worse and worse
i want to cry but i feel numb, someone just call the fucking nurse
i keep on hitting what i thought was now the lowest of my low
but then theres something under that, another endless hungry hole
i know you’ll hate me in the end, i feel it come to that at last
i am too needy, im too much, i am like touching broken glass
you cannot care for me enough, and i can’t satisfy my needs
so i will want and i will want and never feel relief
i want to die i want to dig a hole to hide in for a while
i want to sleep until i finally wake up and start to cry
i feel so strung up like a rubberband, two seconds till i pop
but i can’t stop myself from bottling everything up

i am wicked worse and what a curse that is
to be the ever lonely wicked witch
i am so overly involved
but i am still detached
i want to help you but i can’t

eevee

kelxton