for what its worth, no ones perfect. no one ever will be perfect. i envy so many people, but in the end, thats just envying imperfection. 

Part 1 - grey
Part 2 - WRISTBROKEN
Part 3 - sick of faking it
Part 4 - being content with who i am // YELLOW

all parts mixed/mastered by me
prods in order - teemx, myreala, crxmson, emily/myreala
thanks to ryoma for helping with some effects on part 2
and also a special thanks to emily for the vocals on the outro.

this is only the beginning, be patient, i love you

to lose what you dont have

MALICE

sex inside the car (intro)

download: https://illcomebackforyou.bandcamp.com/album/reaching-out

about ready to give up

fy

download

take me for example

prod me, 
lyrics: 
havent been a ghost since i masked up nier.
moonlight coffin, there aint a bitch i fear.
someone saw her at at a big parade.
she'll take your soul, masquerade. 

she want me dead
she cycling  all these thoughts through my head.
i wont forget a word that she said.

under my bed 
the knife she cut herself
bleeding out red
i thought you loved me
how are you gone?
each time i reach out
you dont pick up the phone

GhostHide

lyrics 

my scars
i can’t remember that long ago

i’ll run away disappear when the suns down
better off without a man like me now
never good enough for my father or her now
bawl my eyes out in the middle of town

stop & drop
put the fire out
u can’t cry
u not a little bitch now
i don’t wanna fall but my heads too loud
heart so heavy i can’t speak my vows

i love you but i hate myself
i loathe you , maybe i just loathe myself



soon i’ll be gone my hearts on fire
my fire is going out i can’t feel my ,
ways to survive , do not remind me
of my old lies
they do not define me
burning my hive , ate all my honey 
pollen is gone 
i cannot define me

ghost in a shell , lil bitch seems to fold
break my hell , something i can’t do , no
why i gotta scream when i feel you for
n i feel everyone everything, shut the door please

shut your door
or i’ll shut mine first
lock my drawer if i could
i can’t quench my thirst

burden pt. ?

always hiding
stone cold fucka never dying
“what u gonna do ? man ya sad”
“what u gonna do ? man ya sad”

pathetic, loosen up u fucka 
never go ur too naive
“prophetic message”, she won’t text ya
need a sign for me to leave
alone, this road that i walk alone 
is terrifying, fuckin terrifying 

and everytime
she will ask will u be mine 
i tell her maybe, possibly, but in my head i know it’s lies
can’t leave me on my own, i’m oh so scared to be by my lonesome, oh so loathsome, sent, sometimes opened never get a reply

my fuckin stanzas oh so fucked
fuck this shit i’m out of luck
yes i curse a fuckin lot
i’m no better than a mutt
Christian in my fuckin heart
but i’m battling my flesh
if i see her i will dart
i think i just need some rest

but i’ve rest too much
i am lost without her touch
i fell in love with a slut
i cannot stay in a rut
she fuckin needed me
took her away, offended me
cause i needed her too 
i couldn’t see the “firsts”
this fuckin hurts

i’ll kill my fuckin self i slit upon my wrist, and bleed i’m
oh so frail
eyes are covered, can’t discover what i need, i need some brail
lost in abyss infatuation with the human hell
a pussy mother fucker done had killed me, now i’m in my cell

rudolph’s poem pt. 2 (outro)

kenowontbreak