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in the aether (free album no one asked for)

my mixed messages

your love is as toxic 
as phosphorus lakes

and that`s why i want it
to end all this pain

to end all the suffering
erase all mistakes

to kill all the life
you kill all the life
to kill all the life
to kill all the life
...............................................
your desire is deadly
as grant oil spills

the human nature of
seeking cheap trills

mystification
whilst is slowly kills

all the life
you kill all the life
to kill all the life
to kill all the life
...............................................
you act high & mighty
like you`re in control

meanwhile you are programmed
to consume petrol

there is no free will
you don`t have a soul

we can only kill
it`s what makes us whole
 
to kill all the life
to kill all the life
we kill all the life
to kill all the life
...............................................
there`s  only one virus
on this planet earth

parasitic behaviour to numb all our hurt

we are the undead
we are the true dirt

we kill all the life
we kill all the life
we kill all the life
we kill all the life

we kill all the life
...............................................
i've been deemed priestess of the undead
it`s why i must tell you
though we never met

you are the true plague
you are the undead

for  eternity`s sake
off with all heads

we kill all the life
we kill all the life
we kill all the life
we kill all the life
we kill all the life

keta gözlüm - phosphorus lakes

Why everything that's supposed to bad make me feel so good? Everything they told me not to, is exactly what I would. I tried to stop, I tried the best I could, but you make me smile.

What's your addiction? Is it fucking? Is it food? is it greed? I've been afflicted by all three, integral to society where hedonism is key. high on dopamine, in a rush, between kush, and a fuck, what constitutes as a drug?
    
Notifications
Carbohydrates
Infatuations
Random dates

Stimulants
Pain killers
Crash diets
Lip fillers

Nicotine
Crack cocaine
Online shopping
Numbing pain

You make me smile with my heart.
Your looks are IRRELEVANT.
Your soul is all i want.
You're my favorite work of art. 
you're my favorite work of all.

You're my addiction. You`re the definition of a drug. No offense, but you are a drug to me.

Abstract dream–beyond the physical–is what i deem more real than i recall, this world around with sound, and light and although we have never met before, that isn`t matter, matters more.

addiction (feeling ket, might delete later)

111km_highway_mix_4_micha.mp3

META MOTO podcast is derived from outward and inward influences, combined circumstances of temporal things and forms. From existence to succession generating things according to the natural order.

@MYNAMEISNOTMATA is often described as an enigma with a dada-Esque punk-like attitude; Someone who refuses to coalesce into a definable form. As an all-round artist, the focus is always both political and philosophical.
As a multi-instrumentalist, singer, producer and DJ she has carved out a place at the eclectic danceable frontiers of a witch-crafting and gothic, experimental, industrial music, to channel age-old questions into a distinct and transgressive musical language.

Follow her anywhere.
https://www.instagram.com/feelingketmightbeagodlater/
https://www.instagram.com/mynameisnotmata/

MMP102 - MY NAME IS NOT MATA - META MOTO PODCAST

a Less of me cover

``Brutality borders on the spur of the moment
From here to there I`ll toss you out
I`ve lost touch with so many dimensions
The price you pay for knowing what it`s all about

Sensitivity turns too hard
For the further you go, the deeper entwined
Medicine`s stocked short, bet around forward
Once in a while you need to rewind

Mediocrity is the trick of the business
Pushed and pulled and you`re all out of shape
I ended up just like the next guy
You better watch out, it`s too late

Sensitivity turns too hard
For the further you go, the deeper entwined
Medicine`s stocked short, bet around forward
Once in a while you need to rewind``

Just one single take from a jam session preparing for another live performance this Friday; Thus honestly no idea why I`m sharing this, just feeling a bit unhinged today uwu

PS No idea if these lyrics are correct btw

PPS The irony is that you can never be like an authentic person except for trying to be your authentic self..

the irony of being a Lydia Lunch wannabe

Hardcore Slam 2

party animals ftw

me and who? (off key 3 days cover)

``Bence bazı isanlar bir kabusun içine doğuyor; Bugüne kadar zihnimin içindeki en korkunç iğrençliklerle, günümü gecemi orada geçirdim; Bu yüzden akşam veya gündüz, uyanık olduğum zamanlarda barışçıl bir dünya için çözüm arayışları ve  imkansız bir aşkın melankolik parçalarından oluşan hayallere dalmayı severim..``

vahşi (taslak)

raul david jams

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ mosh pit anticipation mash up 


 a five minute project just before going to see &hear my hero 

 lydia lunch's wisdom vs wilburn burchette's bliss

``pleasure is the ultimate rebellion``

clipping in a tunnel (a cold dream)

waves on paper transferred back to sound by Lawrence Berkely National Laboratory in 2008

Au Clair De La Lune recorded by Édouard-Léon Scott de Martinville (1860)

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4oZy8JwvQM




controlled by mass consumption
democracy is a farce

under conglomerate rule
where ignorance is bliss 

in the west world where 
self sufficiency is deemed primitive

complete dependency is civilised

where water is getting privatised
like land, everything has its price

about ownership
rather than ethics
and compassion
on
passion
sion

unnatural
un
unspiritual
unnatural
unspiritual

it is
it is 
it is no measure of health 

``it is no measure of health 
to be well adjusted 
to a profoundly sick society`` – Jiddu Krishnamurti

the rest world where

+ Terence's complete answer on schizophrenia >>> youtu.be/PudIj0RVEEQ


+ snippets are from different recordings of an interactive installation using the heartbeat and -rate of visitors to create a soundscape. created /w Aisha Pagnes, Rob Wynne-Griffiths and Michela Amici

snippet of Terence mcKenna on schizophrenia

4 Lulu - sims talk

Assignment 1 for Applied Music Theory 1 


An edit of an earlier made interpretation of Mesto, rigido e cerimoniale by György Ligeti, https://soundcloud.com/pyruvicacid/sc_180118_114424/s-G7y3f, which was programmed and recorded with Supercollider using one two second vocal sample of a middle F. The vowel used in the entire piece was an ɐ, but because of the percussion like shaped envelope for playing back the sample throughout the original recording, it's only noticeable with the not extremely transposed and transformed ones.

Since soundcloud sadly has a symbol limit of 4000, here's only part of the code - the score part - that created the initial interpretation:

"Pbind(\instrument, \sampler, 

\freq, Pseq(effeef  ++feeffe  ++effefeef  ++feeffe  ++
	                                             effeef4 ++feeffe4 ++effefeef4 ++feeffe4 ++
	                                             effeef  ++fee2ffe ++effef2eef ++fee2ffe ++
	                                             effeef4 ++feeffe4 ++effefeef4 ++feeffe4 ++0         ++


                                       		     g16 ++ g32 ++


		                                         effeef2b ++ feeffe2b ++ effefeef2b ++ feeffe2b ++ 


		                                         effeef4 ++feeffe4 ++effefeef4 ++feeffe4
	                                                                                                          ,  1),



		                              \dur,  Pseq(vijf    ++vijf    ++vier      ++zes     ++
	                                              vijf    ++vijf    ++vier      ++zes     ++
	                                              vijf    ++vijf    ++vier      ++zes     ++
	                                              vijf    ++vijf    ++vier      ++zes     ++hele     ++


			                                      d16 ++ d32 ++


		                                          zes76++d17  ++zeven   ++vier76    ++acht    ++


	                                              vijf    ++vijf    ++vier      ++zes


		                                                                                                      ,  1),





                          		      \rel,  Pseq(relvijf ++relvijf ++relvier   ++relzes  ++
	                                              relvijf ++relvijf ++relvier   ++relzes  ++
	                                              relvijf ++relvijf ++relvier   ++relzes  ++
                                         	      relvijf ++relvijf ++relvier   ++relzes  ++hele     ++


	                                              d16 ++ d32 ++


		                                          relzes76++d17++relzeven++relvier76 ++relacht ++


	                                              relvijf  ++relvijf ++relvier   ++relzes


	                                                                                                         ,  1),

		                         \buf, 1).play;"


PPS it makes no sense listening to it on laptop speakers, since most frequencies that are being used then are in vain.

SC_180118_114424 (mesto, rigido e cerimoniale)

that time of year in the northern hemisphere
⠀
⠀ 

⠀

☥☥☥ begin cleaning up potential mess

☥☥☥ if necessary put the winter clothes in the washing machine,
 that you will be putting in storage

☥☥☥ if you have hoarded stuff or have to sort out papers, 
do it now and get rid of everything you don't need, 
yet try to make a donate box or bag of everything,
 that could be valuable to another


☥☥☥ get all your supplies out and ready


☥☥☥ begin dusting off everything, 
don't skip the most annoying corners

☥☥☥ if you haven't cleaned your drains recently,
now is the time

☥☥☥ wash the windows with a sponge or cloth
soaked in hot water with a tiny bit of apple cider vinegar one
 by one, make sure to use gloves if you have delicate hands
against the heat, don't use chemicals !

☥☥☥ dry them with old or unwanted newspaper

☥☥☥ turn up the mix a little more and start vacuuming,
 the entire place, move furniture wherever possible, 
again don't skip a thing

☥☥☥ now go mopping the floor, unless you have carpet 
and if you have cats or dogs, use lavender oil in the hot water
 to make sure you don't get a flea infestation,
 now that temperatures will finally rise again

☥☥☥ if you managed all this within the hour, 
you either had already a very tidy house,
 or you just live as tiny as I do


☥☥☥ anyway congrats ! now have fun in your decluttered, 
no longer winter depressed smelling house !!


by my name is not mata

spring cleaning edition

phone recordings of a percussive ferry, a string like escalator, an afghan necklace and my voice

interlude (hani birgün)

P Y R U V I C A C I D
(CH3COCOOH)
https://soundcloud.com/pyruvicacid

Has crafted this strange and beautiful phenomenon called
Music Is The Best I Think 
And we couldn’t be happier she chose us for publishing it!!!
This is a heartfelt connection we hold dearly!

We recommend you turn the lights down and the volume up now - but do what you want, it’s your fucking life after all!!!

thanks to 
Germanda Speedwell
https://www.facebook.com/germandaspeedwell
for the cover!!!

P Y R U V I C A C I D  - music_is_the_best_i_think

pyruvic acid mix 4 DISK

``Kan Jij Goed Overweg Met Een Mooie Single Vrouw Uit Local Area?``



― Naughty Date

Local Area

``when you went this way, I went that way. where are we going? we're not moving, not moving, not moving, not moving, not moving, not moving, not moving, not moving, not moving.`` ― #mood



⠀

♥ https://www.discogs.com/sell/list?master_id=362203
♥ https://soundcloud.com/distorsion-tropicale/impro-vision
♥ https://jgbmusic.bandcamp.com/track/tali-disfarce-j-g-b-live-mpc-rework
♥ https://soundcloud.com/broshuda/youll-always-stay (soon)
♥ https://soundcloud.com/hadji-hajj/gud1zzenv0z1
♥ simakim.bandcamp.com/album/riserva
♥ www.youtube.com/watch?v=MTgQsT1zid0
♥ https://soundcloud.com/jasmineinfiniti/fagguette-final (free download)
♥ honestjons.com/shop/ (soon)
♥ deleted free download by @loser111 (you snooze, you lose)
♥ https://www.discogs.com/Ingleton-Falls-Champagne-In-Mozambique/release/11362503
♥ https://www.discogs.com/Supertronic-Co-Ultra-Terra/release/2719779
♥ liesrecords.bandcamp.com/track/the-seventh-sister
♥ https://www.discogs.com/Λένα-Πλάτωνος-Γκάλοπ/release/6691451
♥ https://www.discogs.com/Lena-Platonos-Red-Axes-Remixes/release/8091250
♥ martialcanterel.bandcamp.com/track/3-days
♥ www.discogs.com/DNA-DNA-On-DNA/release/1514153



⠀

♥ actually meant to end with https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_0ioEa4f9n0 instead as a tribute to Mick &Alex, but because of some changes i made and starting a few minutes late, i ran out of time

recorded at @operator-radio Rotterdam 07/10/18 7-8 pm CET

2018_October_07_pyruvicac.id_4_Operator.mp3

``I can't feel anything, but you inside of me
It's nothing physical, It's only mentally
I can't eat anything, because you're inside me
I feel fulfilled with you, with you inside of me

I can't do anything, without you inside me
It's not that I don't do a thing
In my mind, you're always here with me

I don't need anything, with you inside of me
I'm completely satisfied, with what you bring to me
I can't sleep anymore, though, day and night I dream
In my dreams, it's only you and me

I can't feel anything, but you inside me
In my dreams, there's only you and me
It can't be mutual, because you are my dream
Impossible for you to feel for me, what I feel for thee

No matter where I look, only you I see
Even when my eyes are closed,
I see you inside me
I don't love you the most, I love you, only``

nothing physical

a fall of Saigon (procrastination edition) 🐉

``it is no measure of health 
to be well adjusted 
to a profoundly sick society`` – Jiddu Krishnamurti

⠀

www.youtube.com/watch?v=m4oZy8JwvQM

⠀
full lyrics:

controlled by mass consumption
democracy is a farce

under conglomerate rule
where ignorance is bliss

in the west world where 
self sufficiency is deemed primitive

complete dependency is civilised

where water is getting privatised
like land, everything has its price

about ownership
rather than ethics
and compassion
on
passion
sion

unnatural
un
unspiritual
unnatural
unspiritual

it is
it is 
it is no measure of health

``it is no measure of health 
to be well adjusted 
to a profoundly sick society`` – Jiddu Krishnamurti

> we live in a society

voice collage of a mantra for chaotic thoughts and reflections w/ unintentional and intentional clicks and clipping included

feeling cute, will delete later

imma be working on a less messy version when i feel like it featuring @xiaoquanxiaoquanxiaoquan

could be us but i;m emotionally unavailable

@mynameisnotmata

https://bizaarbazaar.com/2019/10/15/121-my-name-is-not-mata/

#121 / MY NAME IS NOT MATA

to everyone it resonates, for spinning around dancing your way to the supermarket, back home or to no specific destination, to move around freely and breath in some freshly polluted air for when you’re not in a hurry or better yet, for when you decide to never be in a hurry ever again

for @minou-oram @lyl_radio

ids @www.instagram.com/p/B6S3LcWlQGR/

https://lyl.live/episode/svvenir-22/ https://www.mixcloud.com/lylradio/svvenir-13122019-w-my-name-is-not-mata/

PS I do still run for the ferry and the train, but just because it's fun knowing I look ridiculous doing so, since I run like Phoebe Buffay.

SVVENIR for LYL Radio w/ my name is not mata (13/12/19)

unanswered plea (k-hole mix)

mutual (hajj mash up)

https://soundcloud.com/pyruvicacid aka Mata/My Name Is Not Mata is a lizard of love/hate. She's peculiar, a treasure and geek. She was SSFB radio host and resident, often hooking up with Luca. She runs a keto vegan insta, loves sudokus, promotes ketamine for medical use as antidepressant, and is a Mariah lamb.
Beware, it's going to be a wild ride. She lets herself surrender to psychic disintegration. Like she's been a stranger in a strange land. It's all about entropy and dissipation. But as multiple and severed as it gets, it's still very much one… and unique.
« yet to be answered - distorted yet audible - organized yet chaotic - calls - cries - feels and pleas - into the aether - only for the universe to answer »

NOSE JOB 28 — PYRUVICAC.ID

off-key cover of I`m so tired* by Fugazi

``out here, I can barely breathe,
surrounded by jealousy and greed.
I can`t be reached, only had one call,
trapped underneath, separate from you all.

this time i lost my return,
in spite of what i learned.
I hid my tracks, spit out all my air,
slipped into cracks, stripped of all my cares.

I`m so tired. sheep are counting me.
no more struggle, no more energy,
no more patient, you can write that down.
it`s all too crazy. I won`t stick around.``

*with slight lyrics adjustments, because of dyslexia, speech impediment and because why not;


**I was too tired to rerecord so just added another layer that was done with both the volca and vocoder set in slightly different pitches, hence it`s extremely off-key, but kinda fun in a way somehow imh0

my nye mantra (recording of a live performance for my cat from my couch)

Recording of DJ Marcelle & my name is not mata's set at Dekmantel Connects 2020.

Dekmantel Connects 2020

DJ Marcelle & my name is not mata at Dekmantel Connects 2020

https://soundcloud.com/pyruvicacid/4lulu (reversed)

four year old smiley faces cover i did 4 @lulu2105

4 Lulu - sims talk (reversed)

4ever hi sch0ol mantra (lo-fi)

“Somebody else’s idea of somebody else’s world is not my idea of things as they are. Somebody else’s idea of things to come, need not be the only way to vision the future.

What seems to be, need not be; What be, had to be; For what was, is only because of an adopted source of things. Some chosen source as was, need not be the only pattern to build a world on.” — Sun Ra




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