this song actually got me tearing up dawg😭😭😭 i love this sm

even if you took a thousand pills i'd stay

so pretty, the melody reminds me of another song but i can't recall the name

Tomorrow when the farm boys find this
freak of nature, they will wrap his body
in newspaper and carry him to the museum.
But tonight he is alive and in the north
field with his mother. It is a perfect
summer evening: the moon rising over
the orchard, the wind in the grass. And
as he stares into the sky, there are
twice as many stars as usual.

twikipedia - factory (demo)

first version, recorded on electric acoustic around September 2023 before I got my telecaster.

hurt (demo)

almost made it to the ep but i ultimately decided it was pretty boring

Your fear of death will kill you
Please open the door
You're in your head it kills me
It will the end when someone breaks
No one you could save
Then what will you do

Just keep wasting time
Same room the same wall same everything
You were the only one who didn't hate someone like me
I overheard you say that you're gonna leave and not come back
I'm shoveling your grave i just need to see you one more time, one more time
Again

Your fear of death will kill you (Last time that i saw you looked)
Please open the door (Happy i don't get it did you)
You're in your head it kills me (Get fucked up or something i can't)
It will the end when someone breaks (Get the answer i want from you)
No one you could save
Then what will you do

fear of death (demo)

october 2023 album scrap

one of my friends
they make music i guess
it sounds funny but
i think i'll send you a link
so you can hear

i still find it weird
when i hear their name
said by someone i don't know
oh how time flies

i remember the days
when we used to play
all those dumb computer games
how bittersweet

i guess it worked out
seeing by the big number plastered on their page
i hope they're good

i hope i hope i hope
(was i supposed to let go?)
i hope i hope i hope
(or did you just outgrow me?)
i hope i hope i hope
(all of those times we spent i know)
(do you still think about me now?)

you're busy with plans
i don't think we'll ever meet again
i'll keep you on
the back of my mind
and check on your numbers all the time
but we won't talk
again i feel like we could hit it off in current time with ease
i tell my friends about the times we spent even if they were brief

one of my friends (demo)

song from late 2023, ignore my shit singing on this

i stole your cigarette and put it in my mouth just like you did
i saw you smoking one when you got fed up with being a kid
i know you wanted to die back then so please don’t try to hide
i’m not scared of much but i still see it when i close my eyes
i’m in your driveway if you see this then please answer my call
ive been running from this monster but stands at 10 feet tall
i brought some shattered glass so i could look at myself in the way
says he loves me but deep down i know that he wants me to change

it bet its easy now, when you're far away from me
and i cant hide for much longer
he will catch me if i leave

it takes somebody else to fuck up
for you to think you have a chance
what makes you think youre exempt.. from being judged?
by me or anyone
try all you want and get far away
and in search for better days, you left me behind the grave

ill let you stay in my house
ill let you sleep on the couch
even though you hurt so bad
i wanna see you again

better days (demo)

made this yesterday, facgcd tuning, shitty diy acoustic

red faced, i didn't know that you'd break me like this
build me up, tear me back down this time around
light up fast, hear my name
i'm a match, i can't run from shame, or you stupid games, i still love
i can't turn you on

is it gross to want you to myself?
is it wrong to feel jealous and cheated out of something that we never talked about

i'm used to excuses
i'm not gonna tell you how i feel, i need you to guess
and i'm sorry if you saw me cry
it's a sight to see, it's embarassing
i promise there'll be no more tears coming out of my eyes anymore
can i sleep on your basement floor?

riding on promises, you'll never get what you want
i tried hard, i went sore, somehow you still wanted more

gross (demo)

THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE UPCOMING ALBUM

prod me
no mix, demo
extra guitar work by me
cover art from "chirk" game
production inspired by freger

so summer's gone
it's fun to act like it's not over
i'm ugly like i was back then
i ran away into a mountain
where nothing passes by but wind
and everybody's looking at me
but no one looks at me like you, no one looks at me like you
it all went wrong
i tried to tell you you were different
you never even paid me mind
and getting you to say i love you
isn't the same as ily
and if i wasn't so obsessed
i admit that it's a waste of time, admit that it's a waste of time

would you care to add me to the roster
my bones are getting weak
i know i've been acting like a monster
but don't be afraid of me
this time i don't wanna go home
i'll be one of your freaks
your sorry eyes put me to bed, wake me up from my sleep
gnawing every single bone you shattered
you're everything i need
lately you've been coming off as creepy, like there's something that you've seen
why couldn't things be simple as i thought they would be
i clenched my jaw hard onto you, now i ran out of teeth

summer's gone

im high and a hypocrite

fuck you

here:

we're all running from something
we do it in different ways
some of my friends chose to smoke
to take opiods and coke
i tried
to be here for a long time
and you took one more pill to cut me off
and i don't wanna be one
to watch as you fade away
i tried to tell you to stop
to hide your fix away
but you said you've done this for a long time
even if you took a thousand pills i'd stay

and i know that i'll never know
even if i say a thousand words
i'll never get it
but know you can't die yet
if i leave and go back home
promise you won't hang up the phone
you know i love you
it's not your turn

running (demo)

figure me out / originally by twikipedia

i can't get enough
do i want too much?
(from you, from you)
this could never work
i would get too hurt 
(from you)

cause don't you know when it gets dark 
i can't see as well as i should
you wouldn't get it
that i can never change

what did you say to me?
can you say it again?
(for me, for me)
i can hardly hear
how i can i be here?
(for me)

cause don't you know that in the end
you can never leave with your friends
you wouldn't get it
that i can never change

i guess i wasn't made for times like these
(i got myself into it again)
but now i read between the lines i see
(never ever will i love again)
i guess i wasn't made for times like these
(i got myself into it again)
but now i read between the lines i see
(never ever will i love again)

and now i know that in the end
there's nobody holding your hand
you wouldn't get it
don't you know?
(in the end)
you don't get it at all
at all, at all, at all, at all, at all

roll credits..

TRUST FALL

I have an asat classic guitar,  an acoustic guitar and a j mascis jazzmaster squire.  I'm working on an album but in the mean time i have some demos up.

running (demo)

key vs. locket

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