Tomorrow when the farm boys find this
freak of nature, they will wrap his body
in newspaper and carry him to the museum.
But tonight he is alive and in the north
field with his mother. It is a perfect
summer evening: the moon rising over
the orchard, the wind in the grass. And
as he stares into the sky, there are
twice as many stars as usual.

twikipedia - factory (demo)

first version, recorded on electric acoustic around September 2023 before I got my telecaster.

hurt (demo)

october 2023 album scrap

one of my friends
they make music i guess
it sounds funny but
i think i'll send you a link
so you can hear

i still find it weird
when i hear their name
said by someone i don't know
oh how time flies

i remember the days
when we used to play
all those dumb computer games
how bittersweet

i guess it worked out
seeing by the big number plastered on their page
i hope they're good

i hope i hope i hope
(was i supposed to let go?)
i hope i hope i hope
(or did you just outgrow me?)
i hope i hope i hope
(all of those times we spent i know)
(do you still think about me now?)

you're busy with plans
i don't think we'll ever meet again
i'll keep you on
the back of my mind
and check on your numbers all the time
but we won't talk
again i feel like we could hit it off in current time with ease
i tell my friends about the times we spent even if they were brief

one of my friends (demo)

song from late 2023, ignore my shit singing on this

i stole your cigarette and put it in my mouth just like you did
i saw you smoking one when you got fed up with being a kid
i know you wanted to die back then so please don’t try to hide
i’m not scared of much but i still see it when i close my eyes
i’m in your driveway if you see this then please answer my call
ive been running from this monster but stands at 10 feet tall
i brought some shattered glass so i could look at myself in the way
says he loves me but deep down i know that he wants me to change

it bet its easy now, when you're far away from me
and i cant hide for much longer
he will catch me if i leave

it takes somebody else to fuck up
for you to think you have a chance
what makes you think youre exempt.. from being judged?
by me or anyone
try all you want and get far away
and in search for better days, you left me behind the grave

ill let you stay in my house
ill let you sleep on the couch
even though you hurt so bad
i wanna see you again

better days (demo)

twikipedia - unreleased 4 (demo)

made this yesterday, facgcd tuning, shitty diy acoustic

red faced, i didn't know that you'd break me like this
build me up, tear me back down this time around
light up fast, hear my name
i'm a match, i can't run from shame, or you stupid games, i still love
i can't turn you on

is it gross to want you to myself?
is it wrong to feel jealous and cheated out of something that we never talked about

i'm used to excuses
i'm not gonna tell you how i feel, i need you to guess
and i'm sorry if you saw me cry
it's a sight to see, it's embarassing
i promise there'll be no more tears coming out of my eyes anymore
can i sleep on your basement floor?

riding on promises, you'll never get what you want
i tried hard, i went sore, somehow you still wanted more

gross (demo)

THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH THE UPCOMING ALBUM

prod me
no mix, demo
extra guitar work by me
cover art from "chirk" game
production inspired by freger

so summer's gone
it's fun to act like it's not over
i'm ugly like i was back then
i ran away into a mountain
where nothing passes by but wind
and everybody's looking at me
but no one looks at me like you, no one looks at me like you
it all went wrong
i tried to tell you you were different
you never even paid me mind
and getting you to say i love you
isn't the same as ily
and if i wasn't so obsessed
i admit that it's a waste of time, admit that it's a waste of time

would you care to add me to the roster
my bones are getting weak
i know i've been acting like a monster
but don't be afraid of me
this time i don't wanna go home
i'll be one of your freaks
your sorry eyes put me to bed, wake me up from my sleep
gnawing every single bone you shattered
you're everything i need
lately you've been coming off as creepy, like there's something that you've seen
why couldn't things be simple as i thought they would be
i clenched my jaw hard onto you, now i ran out of teeth

summer's gone

produced by me
deleting at the end of the week i dont like this one
lyrics:

tudo que eu fiz foi pra te ver feliz
nenhum resultado foi o que eu vi
disse que eu nao ia depender de ninguem
muito diferente foi o que eu fiz
eu sei que as horas passam mas eu aprendi
eu nao quero um final feliz
quase que eu desisto, foi por um triz
nem desapareci, eu so nao existi

eu nao quero mais saber
nem vou correr atras de voce
e nao corra atras de mim
por que eu nao vou responder
e eu nao quero mais te ver
um lugar pra me esconder
vou te deixar pra depois
ate voce entender

fala que acabou, fala que eu nao quero mais
fala que eu gastei meu tempo, fala nunca mais
falei pra me procurar, pra me encontrar
deus sabe eu te procurei em todo o lugar
toma a minha cabeça pra voce moldar
eu não vou deixar voce chantagear
nem vou deixar voce me atrapalhar
mas voce pode tentar (x2)

e a minha culpa (eu nunca quis)
fazer voce perder a luta (sabe o que diz)
me da algum tipo de ajuda
mas acabou dessa vez (eu sou mais um filha da puta)
voce nao me escuta (fala o que eu fiz)
nunca mais vou fingir que eu sou muda
tudo que faz mal gruda
quando eu desaparecer nao me busca

não me busca

im high and a hypocrite

fuck you

here:

we're all running from something
we do it in different ways
some of my friends chose to smoke
to take opiods and coke
i tried
to be here for a long time
and you took one more pill to cut me off
and i don't wanna be one
to watch as you fade away
i tried to tell you to stop
to hide your fix away
but you said you've done this for a long time
even if you took a thousand pills i'd stay

and i know that i'll never know
even if i say a thousand words
i'll never get it
but know you can't die yet
if i leave and go back home
promise you won't hang up the phone
you know i love you
it's not your turn

running (demo)

last one like this

prod me
art me

letra:

mesmo sabendo que e mentira eu te escutei
e voce me tirou do serio pela ultima vez
moro em niteroi mas meu importe e japonês
vou tentar a vida não vou ser igual vocês
eu sei que o mundo da voltas, voce vai ver
eu nunca mais vou ser o merdinha que eu cansei de ser
não e por nada mas com sua ajuda eu vou perder
voce quer ver eu me fuder

vendo as horas elas passam e nada acontece
o mundo não para e meu corpo envelhece
fico te encarando mas voce não percebe
me tirou pra nada agora so me esquece
e que eu amo aquele cara mas ele me apodrece
e assim que eu somo ele me esquece
carreguei a lua e pra voce foi leve
eu so te peco so não finge que me entende (x2)

eu so peco que não finja
nada ia durar mas vou olhar a fotografia
voce foi tão longe me pergunto quem diria
corro atrás do sol atrás de alguma luz do dia
disse que tu ia ficar mas ja saia
dia após dia
nada me abriga


(so não finge que me entende x2)

mesmo sabendo que e mentira eu te escutei
e voce me tirou do serio pela ultima vez
moro em niteroi mas meu importe e japonês
vou tentar a vida não vou ser igual vocês
eu sei que o mundo da voltas, voce vai ver
eu nunca mais vou ser o merdinha que eu cansei de ser
não e por nada mas com sua ajuda eu vou perder
e se e pra depender de alguém não vai ser de voce

e nada jamais vai me fazer voltar
ou continuar
tudo que eu falei no calor do momento
pode se esquecer
não da mais

nunca mais

last week (prod. fantom)

Instruments and vocals by me.
Mostly garbage i threw out.
Something actually put together soon.

running (demo)

key vs. locket

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